My name is Jin Yan, I am 56 years old this year and just retired from work a few years ago.
Before I retired, I planned my life after retirement.
sings, dances, and go out for a trip if you have nothing to do.
However, in recent years, I happened to encounter my mother's health, so although I didn't go to work, I was actually very busy all day long and didn't have time to enjoy the comfortable life after retirement.
Until last year, my mother finally failed to withstand the pain and went to another world.
I have been in good condition and decided to officially start my new life.
01
One day while walking in the park, I saw a group of elderly people gathered together to sing. They were dressed very fashionable.
Women all wore scarves, high heels, and permed their wavy hair;
Men also combed their hair neatly, wearing shirts and bow tie.
Someone plays erhu , some people plays drums , some people talks harmoniously, and some people sing.
I stood there and watched for a long time, and was completely attracted by the passion and happiness of this group of people.
Depending on their age, they are all similar to mine, they should have retired, so I thought to myself that it would be great if I could join this group, so that my life would not be so boring.
does it as soon as I say it, and I immediately went there to ask how to join.
was a man with a good mental outlook who received me, and he introduced me to their situation politely.
It turns out that the man’s surname is Zhang. Before he retired, he was a people’s teacher and worked as a music teacher in his school in his hometown.
After retirement, he was taken over to the city by his son. He was so bored, so he formed such a team.
After saying that, Mr. Zhang enthusiastically asked me if I wanted to join together. Naturally, I couldn't ask for it and quickly agreed.
02
From then on, I would go to the park to study with them every afternoon.
Mr. Zhang is a very good person. My singing pitch is not very good. He always patiently takes me to practice over and over again.
He actually knows a lot of things, such as calligraphy, erhu, and even dancing.
Among these people, I have the best impression of them, with a good image, good temperament, and talent. There are not many women who are not attracted to such men.
The longer I have been in contact with him, the more I like him.
Sometimes he would say some praise to me:
For example, when I was wearing a new skirt, he would suddenly tell me when he was teaching me to sing, you are dressing so well today.
or when dancing, he smells the perfume on me and tells me that the smell on me fascinates him.
The more serious time, he secretly pinched my waist.
To be honest, I was stiff at that moment, and the 56-year-old man actually blushed with shyness.
Mr. Zhang is single. His wife left a few years ago, and he also has the intention to find another one.
I was very moved because my husband was really uninteresting. He was unkempt all day long and circled around the broken fish and birds he raised all day long.
He will not praise me for being nice to dress, nor will he make me happy, nor will he have any male charm.
Our marriage has long been like a stagnant pool of water, and it has no fun.
Under Mr. Zhang's attentiveness and kindness, I decisively negotiated with my husband about divorce.
03
The children have all got married, and they have seen my actions during this period. Every time I call me or have dinner together, I advise me in and out of my words:
is so old, so don’t exude my feminine charm everywhere.
I know what the children mean, but for me, passion is what I desire the most now.
Regarding divorce, my husband agreed without insisting on it. He said he respected me and as long as I am happy.
I did not divide the property, I took my pension myself, and I had to leave the house for my children after all. At this age, there was nothing to fight for.
To be honest, during the time I just got divorced, I was so happy like a god, and I was dressed up every day and I could go out for activities.
Lao Zhang is also very nice to me, and he has a lot of sweet words every day.
But over time, I sensitively found myself a little isolated.
When I went dancing, no one accompanied me, and when I went singing, no one would reconcile me. Instead, a new woman in the team was surrounded by everyone.
Lao Zhang also hid from me. More than two months after the divorce, I basically couldn't find anyone else.
I was panicked, so I quickly inquired about the situation secretly, and then I found out that the new woman in the team was actually Lao Zhang's new partner. She had a good job before retirement. Her wife left, she had only one daughter but went abroad.
Lao Zhang thinks it is more cost-effective to be with her than to be with me.
So I handed over the matter in the team and kept hiding from me.
Everyone knows these things, only I am kept in the dark, I am unwilling to give up, and I try every means to find Lao Zhang, but when I go to his house to knock on the door, his child is humiliated, saying that I am so old that I have no shame and insist on pestering their father.
html is completely disappointed, all I can think of is going home.The ordinary home that I once despised a little looked extremely warm at this time.
And the stupid husband who only knows how to cook, do housework, and make birds fishing all day also makes me feel extremely tall.
In the end, I still took my bag home.
Although I was divorced, when I went back, my husband didn't say anything, but silently took my luggage and asked me to rest for a while. He went to cook.
I sat at the dining table, looking at his busy back in the kitchen, and finally shed tears of regret.
