text丨The West Chamber of affection
Time has not been long, I hope you will meet in my words!
Not long ago, when the family was reunited for dinner, my grandfather said he wanted to go back to his hometown. He said he just wanted to go back and take a look and withdraw the regular money he had saved before.
My dad thinks that my grandfather is too old and it is not easy to travel, so he asked my brother and I to call to ask if we can take it on our behalf.
Grandpa didn't say anything at first, but later he talked to me and my brother several times in private. He said that money is really a trivial matter, and he just wanted to go back and take a look at it. This is his wish.
It may be because my grandmother suddenly left with a heart attack this year. My grandfather had a deeper understanding of death and had the idea of going back to her hometown to take a look.
Although there are not many experiences of separation from life and death, I always learn in TV series and other people's stories that at the last moment of life, people think about the place where they were born and raised.
may be for every life, the paradise that raises itself always has a different meaning, so that in the end of life, what I miss is to return to the original place of life.
people, while having flesh and blood, they also have deep affection that is immersed in the bone marrow.
This deep affection may come from the unforgettable heart in love, from the inextricable love in family, or from the attachment to the hot land...
No matter which one it is, the emotions in human nature flow in blood.
is just that the stages of life are different, and the depth of each emotion is different. And in a stage of aging, the deepest hidden feelings in the emotions are that deep nostalgia.
As expressed in Yu Guangzhong "Homesickness":
"When I was a child, homesickness was a small stamp, I was here and my mother was there. When I grew up, homesickness was a narrow boat ticket, I was here and the bride was there..."
The reason why homesickness became a strong sorrow is that it was a long distance between "I" and my hometown, a distance that could not be crossed.
When I was young, I always dreamed of walking around the world with my sword, so I carried my bags and wanted to walk around. But only after entering the mundane world can we realize that all dreams need to be based on reality and on the basics of survival.
So, the luggage on your back and the distance you step into are all running for your livelihood, without the happiness you imagined, only full of fatigue and fatigue.
Gradually, when you are old, you have been floating and sinking for most of your life. When you are approaching the end of your life, you will long for a kind of stability and tranquility to accommodate the impetuous heart for decades.
So, when people are old, they really want to go home.
Most people live for their parents and children in the first half of their lives, and choose to wander outside to create a better life for them.
But now this year, Hua has passed away. Holding this aging life, I just want to return to the place where life begins.
Only in that place can you find the simplest and simplest self.
So many years of wandering outside, I have experienced too much vanity and too much warmth and coldness of human feelings. Now I only have a yearning for beauty and stability in my heart.
Although I was thinking about returning to my hometown in the first half of my life, the food, rice, oil and salt and life pressure I face really made people have no courage to return to that homeland.
After all, everyone who leaves their hometown freely has a dream of returning to their hometown. Now, facing the mess in my life, I really have no face to return to the place where I was born and raised.
Everyone hopes that they can return to their hometown in the best state, rather than going back to find a safe haven after experiencing the beating of society.
Whether it is for face or anything else, there are too many things that you don’t allow yourself to leave everything behind and choose the security of your hometown.
So, I dragged it again and again, and endured it again and again. Until I got old, I dared to express my inner thoughts loudly - to return to my hometown.
Of course, it does not mean that you will be able to return to your hometown with confidence when you are old.
is an old person. He understands that he doesn’t have much time left. If he can’t let go of his pride and return to his hometown and return to the place he thinks about.
Then in this life, there is a very likely chance to go back.
So, when people who are old have come to the second half of their lives, they think about returning to their roots.
Although there has not been much success in this life, fortunately, the children have grown up and the burden on their shoulders has been removed.
And my life has reached the second half, it is time to stop myself.
Every time in the second half of this life, what you think and think is to return to your hometown, return to your hometown, feel the tranquility and stability that belongs to your hometown, and breathe the familiar air.
People are old and don’t have much wish. They just want to return to their roots and return to their hometown to feel the simplicity.
Just as someone said: "Life is a big circle. Wherever it starts, it will end where it will eventually."
Hometown is such a beautiful word, it carries too many thoughts.
When you reach the second half of your life, you often think about the simplest thing, and the land of my hometown carries all the simplicity that makes people yearn for!
