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After attending the funeral of his ex-husband, my mother-in-law sent me an envelope, saying that it was left by her ex-husband for my son. After opening the envelope, I realized the secret in his heart for a long time.
My ex-husband and I are childhood friends. His name is Yan Lei. I am two years older than him. When I was a child, he always ran behind my butt.
When I was a child, I was like a tomboy, fishing in the water, climbing trees and pursuing bird nests, etc. I could play better than boys.
At that time, Yan Lei always let me go. When I saw a villager coming, I asked me to hurry down or hide it so that they would not learn from my mother.
Because my mother doesn't let me climb trees or go into the water, she will beat me whenever she finds that I go home. I didn't understand before and thinks she is particularly fierce, but now I know that it's my biological mother who is worried that something has happened to me.
My mother died of an accident when I was ten years old. My father soon married his stepmother. The stepmother was pretty good to me. She never beat me or quarrels with me, but I just couldn't get close to her and felt a natural sense of alienation.
Although my real mother likes to scold me for being so naughty, she sometimes slaps me in the butt a few times, I know she loves me and I rely on her.
However, I am a latecomer. Only when I understand these things can I understand what it means to support my son but not to wait for his parents.
My dad is a traditional father who is not good at speaking. After my stepmother gave birth to my younger brother, he focused most of his attention on my younger brother. He had no more care for me except for eating and dressing.
For a home without a mother, I think I am an outsider, so after I graduated from technical secondary school, I went out to work. At that time, Yan Lei had just entered high school.
Before leaving, I saw him looking reluctant, so I just like the elder brother in Hong Kong and Taiwan dramas at that time, saying to him, "Brother, when I make a name for myself outside, you will be with my sister and bring you a good meal and a spicy drink!"
He originally curled his lips and looked like he wanted to cry, but he was amused by what I said so much that he cried or laughed.
How do we say about our relationship? Beyond friendship, love is not full.
Anyway, he has listened to me especially since he was a child, even more than my own brother. I am also grateful that I have a good friend around me who can accompany me to have sex with me.
Two years later, Yan Lei was admitted to university and was in the same city as me. When he came to school, I went to the station to pick him up and sent him to the school.
I smiled and said I wanted to treat him to something delicious. He said it was fragrant and spicy? After saying that, we both looked at each other and smiled, needless to say, we all remembered the jokes we had when we were young.
So he studied here for four years, and I also opened a clothing store after saving my first pot of gold.
Later, after graduation, he stayed in this southern city to work. I was quite surprised when he confessed to me.
At that time, I had just broken up with my boyfriend who had been in talks for a long time, because his parents thought I was a foreigner and opened a store to do business by themselves. The one who showed up was not their ideal daughter-in-law.
I was hit hard by this incident and got drunk all day long. At that time, my ex-husband kept drinking with me. In the end, I quit drinking, and he became addicted.
caused him to be unable to sleep if he didn't drink half a bottle every day. This also laid the fuse for our divorce later.
About three months after I broke up, I had recovered from normalcy, but I just encountered Valentine's Day. There was no business in the store, and the young couple went on a date.
I was alone and lamented in my heart with boredom. At this time, my eyes were suddenly blocked by a large bouquet of red rose .
When I looked up, I saw my ex-husband standing in front of me in a suit and tie. Usually, he usually wears casual clothes, and only wears formal clothes when he is at work. Seeing him wearing this, I couldn't help but tease him.
Are you here for my interview?
He was slightly stunned, and then replied with a smile, "Yes, come to interview your boyfriend, do you think I can successfully go to work?"
I have to say that he and I are really able to get along in many places, but I have always regarded him as my younger brother. I never thought about falling in love with him before.
However, things and feelings in this world always happen inexplicably. After listening to his confession, I was really moved.
It turned out that he was admitted to my city in college. After graduation, he gave up his stable job in his hometown and stayed here for me. But I had a boyfriend at that time, so he could only have a crush on one side.
The reason why he chose to confess to me at this time is the right time and hopes that I can agree to be his girlfriend.
I rejected him several times, but he became more and more courageous as he set his face down. Then I didn’t know whether I was moved or moved by him, or that the wandering feeling of intention alone destroyed my strength at that time, and I especially wanted to have a support.
This person appears and knows the truth. Who is not marrying?
So I said I could promise to be your girlfriend, but I asked you to promise to talk about marriage with me in half a year, otherwise we will break up when the time comes.
Yan Lei agreed. We may not understand what marriage was at that time, and we didn’t know that we would face so many trivial matters after getting married.
And those messy things in life may become the beauty in the memories of two old gluttonous old men who have lived to the age, or may become a weapon for the two to part ways.
After getting married, Yan Lei and I had a very happy life because I was not willing to go back to my hometown, so our wedding was not a big fuss.
Because the two families are familiar with each other, they will be exempted from all the dowry and dowry. Yan Lei's family will provide us with 200,000 subsidies and let us purchase a wedding house.
I know that although the money is not much, it is Yan Lei’s parents’ savings for most of their lives.
After discussing, we decided to save the money and rent a house.
The first year of marriage we both traveled everywhere during the holidays, and almost ran around the country and checked in many famous attractions.
Life is quite comfortable, but everything has changed since the child is born.
I didn’t know why many women would get postpartum depression after giving birth, but when I personally experienced that my child woke up at night and changed his diaper and hadn’t slept for a whole sleep for several years, I understood those sick mothers.
Because Yan Lei's father has Alzheimer's disease , and his grandmother is still alive, so his uncle and his father's family need to take turns to support me, so my mother-in-law couldn't come to help me take care of the child.
After giving birth, I had to redeem the store and then become a full-time housewife at home. Yan Lei also encountered a bottleneck in his career at that time.
Not only is the work pressure high, but his boss, who is younger than him, always arrogant and rude to him due to his background. He took the blame for his mistakes, but his boss robbed him of his credit. The resentment in his heart is conceivable.
He will vent all the pressure that the company cannot release on the wine.
Many times I look at him drunk and feel very strange, thinking that it is not my pillow, but a stranger.
Later, Yan Lei was suspended by the company for a job mistake, and he filed for divorce with me in disheartened manner.
I once wanted to cheer him up, but to no avail. He fell into self-denial and endless drunkenness.
I want to pull him and ask him to reach out to me!
Finally, my marriage with my son came to an end when he was seven years old.
After the divorce, the custody of the child belongs to me. He will give us living expenses every month, and I opened a clothing store, which operates physical stores and online together, and my income has gradually increased sharply.
Now my son is in college. I used to meet Yan Lei every year on his son’s birthday.My son will stay with his grandmother for a while during the winter and summer vacation every year. Sometimes he will see Yan Lei. When he comes back, he will tell me about his father's changes, and there is a vague idea of wanting us to get back together.
But at that time I believed in a saying that a good horse would not turn back, so although I knew that he had quit drinking and was in the rising period of his career, I still left it alone and didn’t want to live a disheartening marriage life anymore.
At that time, I didn't know that I would never be able to live with him in my life, and I would never even see him again. If I knew, would I choose to get back with him?
That was the day when my son got the college admission letter. To celebrate, Yan Lei specially chose a high-end restaurant to take us to dinner.
After dinner, our family went to watch another movie. Later, my son said he wanted to go to a party with his classmates, so he left Yan Lei to take me home.
When he arrived downstairs of our house, he told me that my son has grown up and hopes that I can live my own life in the future. He also said that during his decadent days, he lost a lot. Now he really wants to go back to when he first got married. If he did it again, he would definitely change his mentality and make himself a qualified husband and father.
I thought he would propose to remarry me, but I didn't expect that he just asked me if I could hug me again.
I nodded and agreed. When I was hugged in his arms, I couldn't help crying. I knew if he said I would definitely agree to start over with him. However, he said he took good care of himself and let go and left.
I was surprised to learn about his death. It turned out that he had been diagnosed with advanced liver cancer at that time. He knew that he had not had much time, so he could only work hard so that he could leave a considerable deposit for his child.
. He endured huge illnesses and only chose conservative drug treatment. He suffered all the pain without telling everyone.
I opened the envelope and saw the letter he wrote, tears couldn't help falling down again. He said that he had applied for a card in his son's name, which contained about 300,000 yuan. I hope I could take out one-third of the monthly payment for my in-laws on time.
Because he was worried that if he gave it to his mother at one time, the old man might be deceived, after all, there are too many scammers now. And he trusts my character.
Then take out one-third of it for his son's college expenses. As for his son's future, he can no longer do anything more.
I can freely control the remaining one-third of the business or traveling, as long as I am happy, I can spend whatever I want. The last paragraph of the letter
, Yan Lei wrote, in my heart, you are always my wife, I have not taken good care of you, I can only make up for it in this way, I hope you can forget the unbearable look back between us. Please allow me to say the last word to you, I love you!
He didn't know that although we broke up because of all kinds of unhappiness later, the happiest time in my life was spent with him, and I am very grateful to him.
But I didn't accompany him for the last period of his life, which made me particularly blame myself. If my personality was not so passive, if I could show kindness to him a little, would he be able to leave less sad?
I will never meet someone who loves me and understands me like him. Why do people always regret it after they have completely lost it?
I hope my son will not be like his parents, even if he has experienced ups and downs, he will never let go of his lover's hands.
