text | Wu Zehua
How can you see the rainbow without going through the wind and rain?
How can you know how to love someone without being tortured by love?
Some people say that a woman’s sorrow is nothing more than being in a blessing.
I had two boyfriends in college, one was more conscientious than the other.
The first one we talked about for a year and a half. I love him, which can be described as death. However, I did not hold him in the end. He and his senior sister got married after graduating from college. I heard that they were very happy.
The second one is because of the first breakup. The classmate introduced me to me. Although I am handsome, I am a material man and I always like to compete with my ex-boyfriend.
We were reluctant to be together. A year later, he got married to a girl who was doing business and graduated from college.
After graduating from college, I stayed at home and did nothing, so my high school classmate took me to a cafe to work.
A month later, she introduced me to a boyfriend, and this boy was her brother.
At school, I was full of handsome men and amateurs under my nose. When I walked out of society, I realized that there were some incompetent men around me.
Her brother's name is Zeng Renci. He is tall, about 1.8 meters tall. He is so kind, it is true, and it matches his name. When talking, you always smile.
The first look is OK, and looking at it for a few more is like an idiot, a person who always smiles and disgusts.
classmate said that her brother studied road design and now works in a road company. His salary is good and he has a house and a car.
I think, let it go! This is fate.
Half a year later, we lived together, and soon I became pregnant.
That night, I didn't fall asleep all night and was unwilling to marry this man. I always felt that he was not worthy of me.
I asked my mother for advice, and she advised me, this man is good, don’t be picky anymore.
I listened to my mom, and a month later, we got married.
When I got married, I quit and protected my pregnancy at home.
At the beginning, kindness obeyed me in every way, but he hated me the most about playing mahjong.
is pregnant and is bored when staying alone at home, so she likes to play mahjong in the mahjong hall in the community.
once, twice, he didn't care. After a long time, he just held his face and showed it to me.
After giving birth, one day, I found a woman in his cell phone often called him.
I recorded my mobile phone number and while I was on a business trip with kindness, I called the woman.
It turns out that the woman was a kind high school classmate and was a teacher in a vocational school.
We added WeChat. In her updates, I saw her photos, which were very beautiful and elegant.
I asked her tentatively: "Do you have a boyfriend?"
She said: "No!"
My heart seemed to be poked with a knife.
I think, now I am pregnant, I can’t tell you about divorce from Renci. When the child is born, I will raise it again.
I hate men betray me the most, I decided to have a child and divorce mercifully.
After giving birth, I made trouble and asked for kindness to ask the nanny to take care of me.
mercilessly agreed, so he hired a nanny.
With a nanny taking care of my son, I went downstairs to play mahjong, and I played all night.
At first, I was kind and didn't care about me. Several times my son got sick, and I still played mahjong as if nothing had happened.
I deliberately provoked him to test him whether he really loves me.
I found that he didn't care about me at all. His son was sick and he and the nanny were sent to the hospital. When I came back, I slept alone on the sofa.
Me, the more he ignores me, the more I am guilty I will do. I simply invite a few friends to play mahjong day and night, and often don’t go home.
When my son was five years old, we divorced.
I insisted on my son in order to be kind.
He finally gave me his son helplessly.
After divorce, I wanted to get married again, and I always felt that I needed a man who cared about me to live. Every time I went on a blind date, I failed.
I found that good men are not divorced. Divorced men have problems. They asked me, "How much money can I earn in a month?" "Do you have a house?" "Do you have a car?" "Do you have children by your side?"
Most of the time I heard that I have a son who escapes from life.
After several years of depravity, I basically lost the knowledge I learned.
For the sake of life, I had to go to work in a cafe again.
My son grew up day by day. After going to elementary school, I simply stopped going on blind dates, and all my hopes were placed on my son.
In the fifth grade of elementary school, my son began to rebelliously and scolded me: "Why did you divorce my dad?"
I said, "Your dad doesn't love me."
He said angrily: "I heard from my aunt that you don't love my dad! I dislike my dad being honest."
I was so angry that my blood pressure went up and scolded, "Your aunt is not a good person! You actually listened to her."
He said with confidence: "My aunt is not a good person, and they have not divorced! You are a good person, why did you divorce? And, you I got divorced, no one was willing to marry you! "
I slapped him in the face. He did not cry, but gritted his teeth and said, "You hit him! I know, you are the kind of woman who is fickle. You are the kind of woman who ignores the family!"
When I heard this, my lungs were about to explode, and I slapped him again, scolding him, "Who taught you?"
He said, "No one taught me!"
That night, he was not like other children, and he would run out after being beaten. However, he sat alone on the table to do his homework, wiping his tears while doing his work.
I sat on the sofa and kept reflecting on whether I was wrong.
From then on, my son didn't ask me for money or didn't eat at home.
I asked him, "Why don't you eat?"
He said, "I ate outside."
I asked him, "Who gives you money?"
He said, "I earned it myself."
I asked him, "How to earn it?"
He said, "I picked up mineral water bottles that should not be thrown away at school to sell... In the future, I will support myself, and no one wants to hold me up."
If I didn't slap him twice, I would definitely be proud to hear this and would go all over the street: My son is sensible and can be self-reliant. However, unfortunately I slapped him twice.
His words deeply hurt me. Should I reflect on it? I asked myself again.
One day, I got sick and went to the hospital. The doctor said, I thrombocytopenia , which may be leukemia . I said to my son, "Son, mom may not have lived for a long time. Mom has not given you any inheritance or savings. Mom just hopes you will live well."
The son walked out of the ward without saying a word. When I came to the evening, I stood in front of my bed, handed me a stack of money, and said seriously: "You can get out of bed and walk around, I will give you two thousand yuan. If you are hungry, go buy food by yourself. I don't have time to accompany you, I want to go to class."
Then, he left with his schoolbag on his back, and my tears fell.
The next day, I was about to call my mother to borrow medical expenses. The doctor said that my son paid me 10,000 yuan in medical expenses yesterday.
I couldn't control my tears again.
In the afternoon, my son came, carrying his schoolbag, his face was not joy or sad, he was very calm, like a man.
He walked up to me with the cake in his hand. I was about to say something, but I couldn't remember what I said.
He put the cake on the table and said, "The doctor said, you took your bone marrow to Tianjin for testing, and the results will come out in three days. You can treat it well!"
I suddenly remembered what I said just now and asked, "Where did you get the money to treat me?"
He said, "I borrowed five thousand from my aunt, and I have five thousand myself."
I asked, "Where did your five thousand come from?"
He said, "My classmate's father opened a packaging factory, and there are many waste paper shells. My classmates and I help clean the waste paper shells every day after school. We can sell those waste paper shells."
A week later, my platelet rose up. The doctor told me that I am not leukemia, but I may have decreased immunity. Pay attention to rest and pay attention to nutrition for three meals a day.
From then on, I quit my job in a cafe and went to a kindergarten to be a teacher.
In the morning, I made breakfast for my son. In the afternoon, I would go to school to pick him up, help him clean the packaging factory together, and then pull waste paper shells to sell.
I completely put down the image of a lady, gave up all my fantasies, and looked like a housewife.
Once, my son's head teacher came to my home and saw that my house was cleaned up, and praised me: "I know, you are an amazing woman! No wonder your son has such excellent grades in school. ”
The next day, my son said to me, “Mom, I’ll tell you something. ”
I asked: “What’s the matter? "
The son blushed and said, "Our class teacher likes you! "
I covered my mouth and smiled for a long time, and said, "You are so young, you can actually be a matchmaker. Who taught you? ”
He said shyly: “The head teacher wants me to tell you. I don't want to say it. He said, if I don't, he would punish me for running three laps on the playground. ”
I asked: “Is your class teacher excellent? ”
He said: “It must be excellent! Unfortunately, his wife died in a car accident. ”
I asked, “What does his wife do? ”
He said: “It’s the police! ”
I hesitated and said, “Forget it! Your mother is not outstanding and cannot be worthy of him. You think his wife is so outstanding! ”
He said, “You are excellent too! Why are you not worthy of him? "
I was silent for a while and said, "Mom has decided to not get married in the future! Stay with you. ”
He said, “I don’t want you to accompany you! From now on, I will have a girlfriend, a wife, and a son and a daughter. "
I looked at him and said, "Do you dislike me? ”
He said: “I dislike you first? I wish you married my class teacher now and I live alone. "
I stared at him for a long time and said, "Okay, I'll marry your class teacher! "
Later, I married his class teacher Wang Qiang.
Wang Qiang has a daughter and my son in the same class, both of whom are his students.
Wang Qiang is very good, tall, likes to play basketball and badminton, speaks very gently, and cooks very well.
During holidays, he will take us out for a trip.
We went to Hawaii, Xinjiang, Tibet, Northwest Syria, and Maldives .
I often carry a cup of coffee and lean in his arms like a little woman.
My son is in the second grade of junior high school, and I gave birth to a son for him.
The son is very cute, his nickname is Ai Love.
Narrator: Cai Yiqin. from Guizhou.
(picture sourced from headlines)
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