Mao Daqing: Running cured my depression, the farther away I run, the closer

"The farther you run, the closer you are to yourself, because you can see yourself clearly. You won’t be particularly concerned about inexplicable and irrelevant things, because you will feel that the world is simple right under your feet. You can control your feet. You can choose to run fast or slow. I never listen to music or wear headphones when I run. The most enjoyable thing about running is to enjoy my heartbeat and control my own rhythm. ”

I used to run because of depression, and I cured my depression through running. Marathon or long-distance running does have an effect on the treatment of depression. In the course of running, I encountered quite a few cases of depression caused by running.

There is a girl named Ouyang Jing in Taiwan who has written many books. She used to be a severely depressed patient and had very bad reactions. She is now a very famous young man in Taiwan, an idolist, making films, making movies, and making music. She is a very sunny and active girl. I had the privilege of running with her in the Taiwan Marathon the year before last year, and felt the upward power generated by curing depression in turn. These cases have strengthened my understanding.

"I know several people who committed suicide with depression"

Now there are a lot of depression, in fact, first anxiety disorder, anxiety disorder is divided into many levels, and then depression. Anxiety is very common. Urban life is stressful and fast-paced. The way people communicate with others has become fragmented and fast-food, and they live in a circle of friends all day long. Changes in living space, rhythm, lifestyle, and changes in stress have made health problems more serious than ever.

I was from the late 1960s. When we were young, the generation of parents, or the generation of grandparents, did not seem to have the opportunity to get depression, the pace was not so fast, life was simpler, and the environment was relatively healthy. The relationship between people is also simple. We live in courtyards and hutongs, and we enter by pushing the door. The relationship between neighbors and neighborhoods is very good. The children have a meal in this family and a meal in that family. At that time, it seemed unlikely to get this disease, but in recent years I haven't seen people who suffer from depression. Several people I know, and even separated relatives, have committed suicide with depression.

People with depression have a common feature, suicide when they are at their worst, which is very lethal. Depression is not easy to find at the beginning, and it is often interpreted as unhappy, poor physical condition, or endocrine disorders. In fact, it is already very serious, but I don't agree that I am depressed, and if I ask him to see a doctor, he still doesn't see it, saying that you don't understand me, it's not that I am sick. I have seen such situations. In fact, these symptoms can be solved with a hand, but maybe no one helps him, or he is not accepting to help him.

I have been working in real estate for more than 20 years. I have been in a high-tempo and high-pressure work situation for many years. The real estate industry may fluctuate more than any other industry. Government intervention, common people questioning, and we are executives again. In the position of the vortex, the vortex of the vortex, the axis of the shaft, often feel the external pressure.

For a real estate project, the plate is so big, the problems are huge, and the social connection is extremely high. After a while, the owner makes trouble, and the government makes trouble for you. Otherwise, there will be trouble again. We have been in such a working environment for a long time. In fact, our ability to withstand pressure is stronger than others, but we face Things are complicated.

I often joked that real estate is the industry I hate the most, so I quit now, but I like this industry the most, because no industry allows you to see so much light and darkness in society, Warm and desolate, so much sincerity and fraud are reflected in it, it really looks like a big movie.

"Tortured by depression"

Recalling my experience, too many stories, joys and sorrows, joys and sorrows, the joys and sorrows of the world, the warmth and warmth of the world, this makes you feel good about society All kinds of problems are very tangled, if anyone has a little conscience and is willing to think about society. What was the final reaction? The first symptom is that I can’t sleep all night. This may be explained by neurasthenia, but I don’t have it. My eyes are as big as a light bulb in the middle of the night, and the day is chaotic.Feeling very sleepy, unable to sleep at night, and tormented in a mess.

One or two months of this state is enough, this person is basically over, you must have a bad endocrine, so you have a bad appetite, do not want to eat, lose your appetite, and then your immune system declines, mouth ulcers, colds Wait for the disease to come. When I got this disease, I was in a state of drinking alcohol every day, and I had to deal with all kinds of people all day long. At that time, there was no restriction on eating and drinking. I had to accompany others to eat and drink. It was difficult to guarantee. Good working condition. After

, I showed extremely negative emotions. I couldn't understand anything. I could sum up several bad factors for any one thing. Everything was gone, and the future was dark. In the spring of 2013, I went to see Wang Shi in Boston. I asked him to have lunch and chat. After chatting for a noon, I felt that the country is not good, the society is not good, the industry is not good, the young people are not good, and nothing is good anymore. He was surprised, why are you doing this? What's the matter with you?

He felt that I was very abnormal. He took me for a walk on the campus, and invited me to dinner the next day to persuade me, but I still felt that it was not enough. He told me that you have a little problem and that it is not always the case. I said it really is. People with depression are very stubborn and firmly believe that they are right.

The symptoms then affect work, and I am unwilling to communicate with others and unwilling to answer the phone. After I got depression, the sound of the phone was turned off. I was afraid of hearing the sound of the phone. I changed countless kinds of music and it would not work, and the vibration would not work. People always call me. I don’t answer. I can only see dozens of missed calls at night when people are a little quiet. Choose a few that must be answered, and call back and say sorry that I’m in a meeting. Answering the phone, this habit has not completely changed until now.

evolves again, and the symptom becomes that we don’t want to socialize. How can we not socialize at work? You have to drink big wine every day to accompany others to eat, so there are various reasons not to go. For 3 or 4 months, I stopped going to many important appointments, and I like to be alone.

The good thing is that in those few months, I finally wrote 100 essays accumulated in 7 years into a book. Because of depression, I was lonely and couldn’t sleep. I took my computer and went to a cafe like today. I could sit 3 , 4 hours, and it started at 11 or 12 o'clock, the dim light in the small cafe felt comfortable.

The above are all kinds of symptoms. I think there is a problem. This is very good. I am afraid that you don't think you have a problem. Later, I communicated with people with similar diseases. I communicated with Cui Yongyuan. They said, would you mind seeing a doctor? I said I never mind seeing a doctor, I am still open. They say psychiatrists. I don’t mind any doctors, as long as they can explain to me what the problem is.

I think it’s very fresh to see the doctor. The doctor will give you a test first. He has done a lot of questions all afternoon. After analyzing, the doctor said that you do have some problems. He told me that anxiety is divided into several levels, and the highest is depression. Obviously you are not an anxiety disorder, but a relatively low-level depression. You must take medicine. Relying on other things will not regulate it for a while. I said that I would take medicine. The doctor prescribed 7 medicines, which were quite serious. Except for one medicine that could understand sleeping pills, others did not understand.

When I came back, I told the secretary to remind me to take the medicine at a fixed time every day. The secretary reads the instructions of the medicine. The more he reads the instructions, the more he gets scared. He said that the negative effects are very strange and make you have inexplicable hallucinations of happiness. How to do it? The secretary said to take the sleeper first, wait and see what else, and then I started to take the sleep medicine. I was able to sleep for a while, but the problem was not solved at all.

"Running makes people happy at once"

I hate running since I was a child, and running has caused me a lot of harm. In the TV, whenever I have something to do with running, I immediately change channels. , You make me possible to do anything, it is impossible for me to run in this life. Later, I couldn’t help it. The leader told me to stop running, so I went into the toilet as soon as the leader ran away.

I am very grateful that in the process, I met several very interesting coaches, people who love to run, like Tian Tongsheng and Wang Le, they are specialized in running, and some of them are Those who live by running, when they find someone with a running motive like me, seem to have caught prey. The coach who lives by running catches one or twoAnyone who has some social appeal will definitely not let it go, so he kidnapped me, bought shoes and clothes and waited on me, saying that I would come to your house on Saturday to pick it up, no need to run, and wander around in the forest. Yes, all kinds of seduce, and also drove my employees to go on weekends, in short, all kinds of tricks.

I have never entered Orson before running. I went in and saw that there are such places in Beijing. I was in there with the old man and the old lady, and I thought it was pretty good. I just left first and met a group of friends in the real estate industry, and then went with me on Saturdays and Sundays.

The enthusiastic coach ran with me slowly. At first it was 800 meters, then 1000 meters, and 2000 meters. Aosen South Park was 5 kilometers, 5 kilometers rested 4 times, running and walking, a bunch of people followed me, Take a break at 5 kilometers and run continuously for 5 kilometers. I think my life is too great. How can this be imagined. I failed the 800-meter test in the high school entrance examination, so I failed to go to the Tsinghua High School. It was useless to get a high score. As a result, I was able to run 5 kilometers. Don't know yourself.

Can I run 5 kilometers too? This is terrible, so I am going to run alone at night, I see if I can run 5 kilometers, and then run another 5 kilometers, this is addicted, I can run 5 kilometers in my 40s, I feel that I have mastered some abilities . How addicted is it? At that time, for satisfaction, I ran 5 kilometers every night to prove that I could run 5 kilometers. I started to dream of things that I could not even dream of. The second, third, fourth, fifth time, every time I felt like I was bullish.

If you don’t pay attention, people are happy right away. I think I can run 5 kilometers all day long. I share with the coaches, and then I try to run 10 kilometers, run a figure eight in Orson, and take two breaks in between. This time, it’s not as long as the 5km training. For two weeks, I ran 10km without feeling at all. At this time, I felt like a broken bamboo, 10km every day, 10km in the morning on weekends, and only after 6 o’clock after running. Take a shower and feel great all day. I seem to have a running disease and I always want to run.

What I said about this is very true, there is no moisture at all, that's how I came here. In the most fanatical year, I admired myself, no matter how many degrees below zero, heavy snow and strong winds in winter, there was no interruption. When I got up at 5:30, it was dark and there were only street lights. I ran into Orson. The ground was covered with snow. I was alone when I ran inside. I saw another person from a distance. Hi everyone, and ran over. After running 20 kilometers at dawn, there are icicles around the ears of the hat. I felt very good when I saw someone at that time. I didn't know that person at all, but I had a dialogue in my heart. It doesn't work anymore, I'm a lot lazy.

From then on, I went to half marathon and full marathon, and now I have become a marathon promoter. I really think that a marathon can cure depression, it gives me It was cured, but later the medicine was no longer taken, and my sleep was good. What is the state of my body today? Before running, my fasting blood glucose was 6.5, which was obtained from drinking, moderate fatty liver, high blood sugar, high blood fat, high uric acid, various problems, I checked last week, all indicators are like 20-year-old young People, the doctor said that your blood shook cleanly and there was no foam. Your metabolism is very good.

Of course, there are many skills in long-distance running. You can't run around, such as knee protection. I ran 28 full marathons now, and I don’t remember the half marathon. I didn’t have any sports injuries until today. Of course, the coach told me how to practice. I didn’t retire once, and I never hit a wall, but neither I have pursued grades. I don't pursue 3 and a half hours. What PB (personal best record) has nothing to do with me.

I am an avid marathon promoter today. The marathon has some characteristics. It is your own sport. You don't need to compare with anyone or partner. Some people say that the more you run, the more depression you get. I think the more you run, the more you can see yourself. To stay away from depression, the ultimate goal is to see who you are. Depressed patients just can’t see themselves clearly. If you see clearly, you won’t be depressed.

"The farther you run, the closer you are to yourself"

We have a word, run wellThe farther you are, the closer you are to yourself, because you see yourself clearly. You won't be particularly concerned about the inexplicable and irrelevant things, because you will feel that the world is very simple right under your feet, you can control your feet, you can choose to run fast or slow. I never listen to music or wear headphones when I run. The most enjoyable thing about running is to enjoy my heartbeat and master my own rhythm.

The charm of marathon is to enjoy the kind of white space and the blankness of the mind. Murakami said what you were thinking when you were running. I don’t think about anything, because I can’t remember anything, especially after 30 kilometers, I’m so tired that I’m thinking about something, so this is an extremely wonderful state of life. .

Living in a city like Beijing, what I hope most is to find something that can be left blank. Life without a blank space is very tragic. Every time I enjoy a marathon, I find 4 hours of blank space. Those 4 hours I didn't answer the phone, and I couldn't remember anything in my head, just running, looking forward, and seeing the scenery in front of me. Busy people get a touch of blankness in life from long-distance running, exercise their body, and get happiness. This is a precious thing.

Physiologically, a marathon has many advantages, such as metabolism, detoxification, stimulating your secretion of some happy elements, and making you happy. This is a kind of morphine made by your body, which is much healthier than eating morphine. A marathon is a drug that you make for yourself. This "drug" is healthy. I describe it as "positive addiction." There is not much harm. It is much better than if you indulge in some random thinking.