Han Yu is not an ugly girl. She is very beautiful, but she has been avoiding beautiful men all her life.
Han Yu's fear of handsome men comes from her father, who is a handsome man.
Han Yu has 5 siblings, and she is her father's favorite little daughter. When he was a child, his father walked on the street with her little hand, which attracted the attention of many passers-by. Han Yu was proud of this. She often raised her head involuntarily and looked up at her tall and handsome father. His father looked at her lovingly, with a charming brilliance on his face. He said to Han Yu, you are a cute and beautiful girl, everyone is looking at you. Han Yu knew that everyone was looking at her father and by the way. If Han Yu is the moon, her father is the sun, and it is her father who illuminates her. Neighbors praised Han Yu and would also say that this child is so beautiful and looks like a father.
After Han Yu went to school, he liked to ask his father to attend parent-teacher meetings. His father was gentle and elegant. After every parent-teacher meeting, his classmates would praise her, your father is so handsome and graceful. Even the teacher told her, you have a good father. Han Yu also likes to take her classmates to her home to play, because there is a large photo of her father when she was young on the wall of her house, which is even more handsome than she is now. Every classmate will stare at the photo for a long time and then praise her father. Occasionally, if a classmate doesn’t notice the photos of his father, Han Yu will remind him, look, this is my father, how handsome he was when he was young.
One day, a female classmate with Han Yu's best saw a problem in the photo. She said to Han Yu: "Why are there no mother in the photo? They should hang their wedding photos."
Han Yu's mood immediately plummeted. She whispered: "My mother is not good-looking, she is not worthy of my father. Han Yu's father is not only handsome, but also very successful in his career. He served as the factory director at a young age. Her mother has no education, no job, but just a housewife and can't do it. The gap between her and her father is too huge.
Han Yu is a sensitive child. She has long discovered that her father never goes out with her mother, let alone take photos with her mother. They have never taken a photo in their lives. Dad is chatting and laughing outside, and when he comes home, he returns home. He became a mute, and he had nothing to say to his mother. Mom wanted to please her father, but she didn't know how to do housework. Dad often said that the food she cooked was not delicious, and she thought the clothes she washed were not clean, and her mother dared not defend herself, and she would only cry behind her back.
Han Yu sympathized with her father very much. He was an excellent man, but by chance she married such an unworthy mother, and he must be unbalanced in his heart. Han Yu sympathized with her mother even more. She liked her husband, but could not let her husband like her. This is the biggest tragedy of a woman. The well-behaved Han Yu cared about her parents' feelings very much. She was afraid that her father would abandon her mother, and that her mother would not survive. For this reason, every time her father came back from a business trip, she would say to her father: "Dad, you have been away for so long, and Mom missed you. "Then, she said to her mother, "Mom, dad said he missed you."
Han Yu said this for a long time, and she never knew whether her parents understood her painstaking efforts.
The father never filed for divorce, but he still had no feelings for his mother. He is an energetic man. If he doesn't love his wife, he must go to find another woman. When her mother discovered her father's extramarital affair, she did not make a fuss or make a fuss, but silently endured it. Seeing her so much, my father was even more unscrupulous. He had endless extramarital affairs and even brought his lover to his house, and his mother had to cook for them in a low voice. Han Yuduo hoped that his mother would slap the table and scold them, but his mother did not. As long as his father did not divorce her, she could tolerate any humiliation.
One day, my mother took home a young and beautiful woman and asked Han Yu to call her aunt. Han Yu asked her mother who she was, and her mother stammered and said, "Your dad likes such a woman." Han Yu was very enlightened. In order to please his father, his mother actually found a woman for him. Han Yu felt very sad. She thought that if her mother did not marry her handsome father, but an ugly man who matched her, she might be very happy.Han Yu advised her mother to leave her father, but her mother said that she could not live without her father and children.
The father did not divorce his mother, it was entirely for the sake of the children. He did not want the children to lose their father or their mother. However, he sacrificed his life's happiness for his children, and his father felt wronged and felt that the children owe him. He was particularly angry with the children and had a very bad temper. He never talked about the children's mistakes, and he would add up all the sticks. The children were afraid of him, and only Han Yu was rarely beaten.
When the second sister was 16 years old, she failed the homework exam. My father looked at the transcript and slapped her second sister several times without asking. My sister was already a big girl and had a strong sense of self-esteem, but my father didn't consider her second sister's feelings at all. She picked up a stick and beat her headlessly. The second sister ran away crying and never came back. My mother searched everywhere but couldn't find her. Three years later, the second sister came back with her 2-year-old son. It turned out that after she ran away from home, she married a very handsome man, gave birth to a child at 17, and divorced at 19.
The mother married a handsome man and had a misfortune in her life. The second sister married a handsome man, which was also unfortunate. Han Yu believes that their misfortune was caused by handsome men. From then on, Han Yu was afraid of handsome men and felt that they were fickle and could never be trusted. She made up her mind that she would never find a handsome guy in the future.
Since the second sister was beaten away by her father, her mother has been in a bad spirit. For a long time, her emotional life has been abnormal. She has to endure things that normal women cannot tolerate, and her mental state cannot be normal. Han Yu felt sorry for her mother. As a woman, her mother did not live a good life.
When Han Yu was in middle school, his father's factory went bankrupt because of a project. His father, who was over fifty years old, had to start over. At this time, both brothers and sisters were married, and only Han Yu lived with her parents. My father is old and no longer looking for women, but my mother's mental state is still bad. She often forgets time and forgets to cook. My father has been busy outside for a day and has no food to eat when he gets home, so he has to make it by himself. One day, when Han Yu came back from school, she saw her father cutting vegetables in the kitchen and wanted to go over and help. Suddenly, she saw the white hair on her father's head. Her heart felt sad. She never thought that her father would grow old. She thought that her father would always be young and handsome. Han Yu walked to his father and whispered, "Dad, you have white hair. I won't go to high school anymore. Please help you earn money to support your family."
The father thought for a while and said, "It's okay if you don't want to get into high school. Just take care of your mother at home. I'm afraid something will happen if she is alone."
Han Yu took care of her mother at home after graduating from high school, and her father can still have ready-made food when he comes back. When my father left early and returned late, he contracted the project, and Han Yu often went to help.
In the spring of 2001, 19-year-old Han Yu went to the construction site to find his father and met Xu Chao who worked for his father. He is 6 years older than Han Yu, looks quite ugly, and is wearing a dirty work clothes. His father said that he was very capable and honest and reliable, so Han Yu had some good feelings for him. Han Yu wanted to wash his father's clothes and asked him to change his work clothes and wash them together. He refused to change them. He said he washed them himself and snatched Han Yu's father's clothes, saying that he would wash them together after work and he would wash them quickly. Han Yu said, "If you don't let me wash clothes, what am I doing?" He smiled and said, "Sit down and listen to the song." He gave Han Yu his Walkman and brought a few tapes of singers for her to choose. Han Yu chose Andy Lau . He said in surprise: "You like Andy Lau too, it's great. My favorite singer is Andy Lau."
On the third day, Han Yu went to the construction site again. Xu Chao indeed put on clean work clothes and washed his father's clothes cleanly. My father had never washed clothes in his life. Now he met a man who could do clothes, and Han Yu felt very fresh. Xu Chao was very good to Han Yu and didn't let Han Yu do anything. Han Yu got angry and he was not angry either. He tried every means to coax her to make her happy.
The father didn't expect Han Yu to fall in love with Xu Chao, and firmly opposed it, saying that Xu Chao was a toad and wanted to eat swan meat, and even fry him.All relatives and friends thought that Xu Chao was not worthy of Han Yu. They were particularly eye-catching when walking on the street. Han Yu could understand those gazes and said one sentence: A flower was inserted on cow dung.
Other people's opinions have no effect on Han Yu. She didn't want to find a handsome guy at first, so she just wanted to find an ugly man. She believes that an ugly man is reliable and will be nice to his wife all his life, at least not as fickle as her father.
Xu Chao is indeed good to her. Although he is only 25 years old, he is very mature and cares about Han Yu very much. He knows what Han Yu likes to eat and what she likes to wear. He always surprises her and pampers her in almost everything. Han Yu has never been spoiled by her parents since she was a child, although her father liked her the most among her five children, and only took her to the streets a few times and held parent-teacher meetings for her several times. In her memory, her father never hugged her, nor kissed her, nor carried her on his shoulders like other fathers. Now, suddenly there is a man who pampers her and she feels very good.
On the summer when they were in love, one evening, Xu Chao took Han Yu to the beach to swim. Xu Chao swam very well, and Han Yu was timid and did not dare to swim deeper, but only dared to swim around the beach. Xu Chao said, "I will take you in, don't be afraid, with me here, you won't have any trouble." Han Yu followed him into the sea, and Xu Chao was always by her, giving Han Yu a sense of security. The buoyancy of the sea water is deeper, and Han Yu is more and more comfortable. She thought that without Xu Chao, she would never have swam into the depths of the sea. The more they went inside, the fewer people were traveling. When only the two of them were left on the sea, Han Yu felt that Xu Chao was her lifelong companion. That day, after they got ashore, the weather changed as soon as they changed their clothes. The wind and clouds were surging, and heavy rains were flooded. Xu Chao pulled Han Yu to the door of a hotel to hide from the rain. Han Yu's clothes were wet and she was very cold. Xu Chao took off his clothes and put them on Han Yu, and directly touched her, using his body temperature to warm Han Yu. Han Yu was very moved.
In autumn, the annual Dalian Clothing Festival was held as scheduled. Han Yu didn’t care about the Clothing Festival in previous years. She felt that it had nothing to do with her. But Xu Chao must take her to the parade, which was a carnival in a city. Han Yu didn't expect that there were so many citizens watching the performance. When the performance team came over, she stretched her neck and couldn't see it. Xu Chao squatted down and asked Han Yu to ride on his neck to see. This was the first time Han Yu rode on a man's neck, and he was not her father. Han Yu saw the colorful parade performance. She cheered with the audience and laughed loudly. As she smiled, her tears flowed out and fell on Xu Chao's hair.
Shortly after that, Han Yu lived with Xu Chao despite his father's objection. In 2003, Han Yu reached the age of marriage, and the two went to register and get the marriage certificate .
The reason why Han Yu chose Xu Chao was mainly to learn from her parents' unfortunate marriage and did not want to follow her mother's old path, but she only looked at the surface of things and did not see the essence of things, which led her to embark on another wrong path.
After Xu Chao was fired by Han Yu's father, he began to contract the project himself. At the beginning of his business, the difficulty can be imagined. Xu Chao had nothing. When they got married, they could only live in the mobile house on the construction site. The conditions were quite difficult. Han Yu was not afraid of hardship. As long as her husband was kind to her, she would be satisfied.
Xu Chao still felt sorry for her and refused to let her go out to work. She just let her cook at home. She didn't have to worry about the affairs at home. Xu Chao had the final say. Han Yu was bored at home and wanted to go out to work. Xu Chao firmly disagreed. He didn't listen to Han Yu's reasons at all and became very authoritarian, completely different from before getting married. Han Yu could no longer find the feeling of being pampered. She was very sad and had hyperthyroidism. In order to cure the disease, she took a lot of hormones and became a big fat man, which made her cry. But at this time, she became pregnant. Xu Chao refused to let her have this child. He was worried that hormones would be detrimental to the child's growth, so Han Yu had to go to the hospital for an abortion. She wanted her husband to accompany her to the hospital. Xu Chao said he was busy with work and asked Han Yu to go by himself.In the obstetrics and gynecology hospital, wives who have miscarriage are accompanied by their husbands, and those who do not have men are almost all girls who are pregnant before marriage. The doctor obviously regards Han Yu as such a person. Han Yu feels wronged and quarrels with her husband when she comes back, blaming him for not paying attention to him. Not only did Xu Chao not apologize to her, he also scolded Han Yu for looking for trouble.
2004, Han Yu became pregnant again. She wanted this child, but Xu Chao still refused to let her ask for it. He said, "I can't let my child live in a mobile room. Only when I have a house and money can you have a child."
Han Yu said angrily: You can't let your child live in a mobile room, you can let your wife live in a mobile room. I'm so hot in summer and freeze in winter. Don't you feel sorry? ”
Xu Chao said: “That’s what you want. "
Han Yu said: I am still willing to have this child. Let me tell you, if I don’t go to the hospital, the child is in my stomach, you can’t control it.”
Xu Chao raised his hand and slapped Han Yu in a big mouth, and said with a tough attitude: Do you dare? I let you do it and you have to do it. "
Han Yu never expected Xu Chao to hit her, and she burst into tears. Xu Chao slammed the door and left. In the past, as soon as Han Yu cried, Xu Chao would say all the good things to make her happy, but now, Han Yu's tears have no effect on him anymore. Han Yu was so angry that he took a bottle of sleeping pills to commit suicide. At night, Xu Chao went home and found Han Yu sleeping in bed. He asked her to get up to cook but couldn't wake him up. Then he realized the seriousness of the problem and sent her to the hospital for gastric lavage and rescue.
After Han Yu woke up, he understood a truth that marrying an ugly man is not a wise choice. An ugly man may not necessarily make women happy.
Because Han Yu took sleeping pills, the child was not saved. After the second miscarriage operation, Han Yu's heart was dead and she proposed to divorce. Xu Chao panicked and knelt in front of her and said, "Xiaoxue, it's me that I was wrong. Please forgive me for the sake of the couple. I will work hard to buy a house for you and let you have a baby. "Han Yu felt soft-hearted when he thought about how kind he was to him before.
In 2005, Xu Chao's career improved significantly. He bought a house with a loan, and Han Yu gave birth to their son in the new house. In terms of material life, they began to get better. Han Yu focused on his son and communicated less and less with her husband. Xu Chao didn't care about her and was busy with his own affairs all day. Han Yu still had the idea of divorce, but for the sake of the child, she could not divorce. Her son grew up year by year, and she didn't want her son to live in a single-parent family.
Xu Chao's business is getting better and better. Sometimes he goes to other places to contract projects. Han Yu stays at home alone to take care of the children and the elderly. After her financial conditions improve, she takes her mother to the house and wants to give her mother a stable old age. Under her care, her mother's condition has improved. Not only can she take care of herself, but she can also help Han Yu take care of her children. In this way, when her husband works in another place, Han Yu can visit him.
2006, Xu Chao was constructed in South , I didn't go home in the year. Before the National Day in 2007, Han Yu asked him if he could come back. He said that the project was busy and he couldn't leave. If Han Yu was willing to go, he would go. Han Yu had never been to the south, so he arranged the family affairs and happily boarded the train.
As the saying goes, a small separation is better than a newlywed. The couple has been separated for a year and should be very intimate when they meet, but Xu Chao is very cold to Han Yu. After finishing work at night, he often goes out to take a shower and takes a shower. How many times does he take a shower at a time? For an hour, Han Yu didn't know that there was a lady in the bath center, and he wondered why he had to wash for so long.
After living in the south for half a month, Han Yu felt uncomfortable. She thought it was a general gynecological disease. She went to the hospital for gynecological examination. The doctor suspected that she had a venereal disease and transferred her to the dermatology department. Han Yu was frightened. She was innocent and how could she get a venereal disease? The result was a venereal disease. When the doctor told her about the condition, she was so embarrassed that she had no place to put her face. The doctor asked her to bring her husband to check, and Han Yu thought that this disease must have been transmitted to her by her husband.Han Yu came back and made a big fuss about Xu Chao, saying that she had suffered a great humiliation, but Xu Chao disagreed. He said, "I am alone outside, so it is normal to find a lady, and it is normal to get a venereal disease. You don't need to make a fuss."
His husband's attitude shocked Han Yu. She was guarding her body at home, but her husband was looking for a lady outside, and she was making a fuss. This was a big blow to her. She never thought that her husband would have sex with other women. She was very relieved about her husband in this regard. He was ugly, which woman could like him.
Han Yu was too careless. Women don’t like him, so they can like his money. Han Yu has hated men who are not loyal since she was a child. She married an ugly man like Xu Chao to have a dedicated relationship. However, she was wrong. The ugly man was not fickle because he had no conditions. Once he had conditions, such as money, he was still fickle, even more than that. Han Yu really regretted that if he had known this, he might as well find a man as handsome as his father, and he would have accepted it even if he had known this.
Han Yu filed for divorce again, and her husband said, "Can you find a better man than me after divorce? Who do you think you are? Just a mother of a child."
Han Yu said, "I won't look for a good man if I can't find one. I would rather take care of the child myself than live with you." You have spread all the STDs to me, how can you let me survive with you? "
Xu Chao said: "Don't be afraid of sexually transmitted diseases. It has nothing to be scary. I will treat you what I have transmitted. ”
Han Yuyi said sternly: “This is the first and the last time. I will tell you that there is another time I will never tolerate it. "
The husband said, "Okay, this is the last time, don't worry, I don't want to break up our home yet. "
Han Yu cured his STD in the south. During this period, Xu Chao did not go to the bath center to find the lady. However, Han Yu knew that Xu Chao would not turn back to the right, and he must be looking for the lady. That is his nature.
November 3, 2007, Xu Chao came back at around 11 o'clock in the middle of the night, and his whole body exuded a bad smell of perfume. Han Yu was very painful, tossing and turning and unable to sleep. The more he couldn't sleep, the longer the night was. She sucked her for an hour and an hour, but she couldn't stand it anymore, so she leaned against the bed and smoked and burned her wrist with a cigarette butt. She burned her wrist, but she didn't feel the pain, and her body was as numb as her heart.
November 2007 At around 4 a.m. on the 4th, Han Yu's mental breakdown. She walked to the kitchen and picked up a sharp knife, then came to her sleeping husband, and stabbed her...
The way she chose herself, and she buried herself.
Is the fickleness a man's nature? Is a man's fickleness related to beauty and ugliness?
What should a woman look at when choosing a man? What qualities of a man determine a woman's happiness in her life? Is it appearance or personality? Is it a sense of responsibility or love?
Will he not betray you if he marry an ugly man?
