Tuesday, January 3, 2023 Sunny
About the Internet Many netizens asked me What kind of disease is bipolar disorder ? Let me use myself as an example to talk to you.
I was admitted to a mental hospital for the first time in 2002. I was initially diagnosed with schizophrenia . My symptoms were stiffness all over, hunched back, clenched fists, dull eyes, few words, unable to take care of myself, unable to urinate, and had a catheter inserted. The whole person was in a very tense and stupefied state. The doctor said I have catatonic schizophrenia. It was two months after I was hospitalized for the first time, and I took my medicine on time.
By March 2003, I almost stopped taking medicine. I went to work as a general worker at the Demei Industrial Center in Shenzhen. By the end of the year, I felt that my condition was not right again and started taking medicine again. The time came again in 2005. At that time, I was working as a general worker at Shenzhen Ronghua Printing Factory. After a fight with my supervisor, I got too excited. I quit my job and lived with my parents in Shuidou Xincun (very close to Longhua Foxconn). My father went to Guangzhou to get medicine from my second father (the doctor who treated me when I was hospitalized for the first time). After taking medicine and recuperating for a while, I went to work in an electronics factory again. At that time, I felt severely depressed and wanted to commit suicide every day. The main reason was that I was gaining weight and had endocrine disorders, constipation, etc., which made me very painful. After working for a few months, I was fired. I live with my parents again. At that time, my parents were selling barbecue at Foxconn , and I went there every day. Slowly the person got better. In August 2006, on the recommendation of my brother, I joined a large kitchenware factory as a buyer. Among them, the person recovered better and took a tablet of , clozapine, and before going to bed every day to help him sleep.
In 2008, I was dating a boy online, and it turned out that he wanted me to buy his Amway products. I was disappointed in my relationship, couldn't sleep well, and my menstruation was late. I became severely depressed again. I felt that my shopping job, which I had always done well, had become troublesome. At that time, I wanted to commit suicide and had no intention of working. On June 4, 2008, I committed suicide by taking an entire bottle of clozapine. I just fell asleep without any pain. When I woke up, I found myself lying in Shenzhen Kangning Hospital . This was my second time being hospitalized. My performance was taciturn, dull-looking, and no nonsense. I was hospitalized for a total of 19 days, and the doctor couldn't diagnose whether I had schizophrenia. I feel like I am depressed .
In 2009, because I had a boyfriend who worked in the purchasing department, I became very excited and felt very happy every day. One day I heard someone say that our purchasing supervisor, Xiao Li, had taken a lot of kickbacks from suppliers. (I am a purchaser who does not take kickbacks, and I immediately felt like the embodiment of justice.) I yelled at her in the office and said I would beat her to death. I lost control of my emotions. The factory leader quickly called my brother to take me to the hospital. And I don’t know what happened, but I got into a car and left alone. I brought a bag with me, which contained a mobile phone and a camera. I don't know how I got off the bus. I was completely confused. I felt that I was the supreme leader in the world and that I had omnipotent power. I also went to an Internet cafe to surf the Internet, and as soon as I entered, I was kicked out. Maybe the way other people look at me is abnormal. I even went to the barber shop to have my hair washed, but I was kicked out too.
I found a street singer singing on the roadside, so I took out the bank card from my bag, took a piece of paper and wrote my bank card password, and also wrote a sentence: Good people have a safe life. Then I gave him the card and password. He initially said he didn't want it, but I gave it to him again and again, and he accepted it. At that time, there may be more than 2,000 yuan in the card. I don't know what I am doing, I just feel like I am a rich man and I will have more money than I can count.
I had walked a lot by then, so I took off my high heels and held them in my hand. I don’t know how long it took, but I saw my brother coming. I don’t know how he found me. Maybe it's God's will. If my brother hadn't found me at that time, I can't imagine what would have happened to me? Later, my mother and sister also came, and together they sent me to Shenzhen Kangning Hospital.
This is the third time I have been hospitalized.This time I was hospitalized, I was completely different from when I was in 2008. I was full of energy, full of vitality, and talked endlessly. The doctor said that your eloquence is really good! Why were you so silent last year when you were hospitalized? You look like you have bipolar disorder. This was the first time I heard about bipolar disorder. It turns out that I am more depressed than manic. Most of my symptoms are depression and mania is rare and short-lived.
In 2008, I was depressed, taciturn, and despairing of life. In 2009, I was excited, talkative, and life seemed to be full of endless hope. I also said that I would donate 1 million yuan to the hospital and that my money would never be spent. The doctor just smiled after hearing this. This way my bipolar disorder manifests itself very clearly. This time I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
Since I found out that I have bipolar disorder, I have become much more relaxed. I know that I don’t have auditory hallucinations and that my condition is not particularly serious. I feel confident in my recovery again.
This is my real-life experience with bipolar disorder. The medicines I used to take were mainly clozapine, sulpiride and propranolol . Now I mainly take olanzapine , sodium valproate extended-release tablets and lorazepam tablets. I hope my sharing can be of some help to friends suffering from the same disease.
