[Written in the front] Although it has been greatly deleted, some attentive friends can still see the "clues" - those uncontrollable youthful impulses, those passionate love times, those amazing past events that will never be erased... In fact, It’s okay, after all, everyone has

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　Although it has been greatly deleted, some attentive friends still saw the "clues" - those uncontrollable youthful impulses, those passionate love days, those amazing past events that will never be erased... …

In fact, it doesn’t matter, after all, everyone has been young. Who doesn’t have a period of passionate youth? What's more important than this is that two people who love each other can stick to their love and stay together for a lifetime.

At this point, it’s time to put a comma on this “Memory of Love” series that records my love experience with the girl next door. Originally, there were nearly 40,000 records in the diary, titled "The Heart Will Go Along with Love," but considering that the relevant content is highly repetitive, I won't bother you readers anymore.

　 (105) Lantern Festival

At 6:31 in the morning, train 437 slowly drove into Harbin Railway Station . The climate in Bingcheng is no longer as cold as it was more than 20 days ago, and you can't even feel the cold anymore. It was already past 9 a.m. when we took the bus to Hulan Limin Town, where Fen and his younger sister worked. Four days of tossing and turning made me extremely exhausted. After I came back from the shower, I lay on Fen's bed, just wanting to have a good sleep. At lunch, Fen forced me to get up and eat, but I had no choice but to obey.

After clearing away the dishes, Fen also went to bed. I'm grateful to Fen because she graciously announced in front of her sisters that she and I had an unusual relationship. Someone asked her if she would marry me when she went home during the Spring Festival? She smiled and replied: "The big marriage is not over, and the small marriage is not over." That free and easy attitude really moved me.

Continue to catch up on sleep after lunch. When I woke up, it was already past 5 pm. Seeing that it was almost dinner time, I was too lazy to get up, so I finally let Fen force me to get up. During the meal, Fen sat with me affectionately. Her face was radiant, and she was no longer tired from the train.

This day is very special, it is the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, the Lantern Festival. (Written in Limin Town, Hulan County, North Harbin, on February 11, 1998)

(106) Staying together

At 5:30 in the morning, breakfast time in the food factory. Fen kissed me and asked me if I wanted to eat? I just wanted to sleep a little longer, so I said I wouldn’t eat. Fen ignored me and called me back after a while, smiling at me as I ate.

Originally, Fen was supposed to go to work, but thinking that I would be returning to the military academy tomorrow, Fen decided to ask for leave to accompany me. It was eight o'clock in the morning, and Fen was shouting to go to Hulan County. I didn't want to go, but I couldn't resist her, so I went.

There was a heavy snowfall yesterday and the temperature dropped sharply. As soon as Fen went out, she couldn't bear the cold. I suggested going back, and Fen agreed.

When two people in love stay together, there will naturally be endless whispers. We recalled those days when we went home during the Spring Festival and our lovely nephew Li Jin. So I said: "In the future our son will be smarter than Li Jin." Fen said: "Our children should receive a good education from an early age, and both men and women should be made smart and cute." I hugged Fen lovingly, Kissed gently.

As we were chatting, I talked about my second brother and said that he and I were obviously estranged. When I was young, my second brother always took good care of me; when doing farm work, he never let me do heavy work. But now, the two brothers are inexplicably alienated. Thinking of this, I cried sadly. Fen kissed my tears away and said she understood my feelings, and said, "Actually, we should understand the second brother. When we have money, you can support the second brother. I will definitely support you. I am sincere and I won't lie to you." "I was so moved that I hugged Fen tightly and didn't want to let go....

After lunch, I was packing my luggage. The military academy requires you to report in the day after tomorrow, and you will definitely have to leave tomorrow. As soon as she talked about leaving, Fen's mood dropped a lot, and the smile froze on her face. I know that Fen is reluctant to leave me. In fact, I don’t want to stay for two more days, but I can’t help myself!

　Fin and I don’t want to go anywhere, we just want to be together all the time...

　After dinner, Fen and I did the laundry together. By the pool, if someone comes over occasionally, they can't help but make a few jokes.I always greeted them with a smile and didn't say much, just immersed myself in washing clothes. The water was so cold that my hands became inoperable, but I really hope there will be more opportunities like this.

After returning from washing clothes, Fen went to visit the home of a fellow from Wan County who called Brother Pi. I had nothing to do, so I picked up a magazine and started reading. After a while, Fen came back and said that my brother and sister-in-law wanted me to come over and play. I didn't want to go, and Fen didn't force me. She said someone was playing poker, so she just joined in.

I read a book for a while and started writing my social survey report . After writing five or six hundred words, I couldn't write any more, so I started reading again. (Written in Limin Town, Hulan County, North Harbin on February 12, 1998)

(107) Farewell to my lover

It’s still 5:30 for breakfast. Fen and I agreed that I would leave the food factory at 9 o'clock, then go to the Hulan Ordnance Warehouse of the old army to have a look, and take the bus back to Shenyang in the evening.

It’s time to leave, and the sadness of parting washes over my messy thoughts over and over again.

The time has come to say goodbye. Fen was lying on the bed with a look of reluctance on her face: "Jian, can you leave after lunch?" My little sister was also advising me. Seeing Fen's expectant look, my heart tightened and I wanted to cry. But it’s time for me to go. I am a soldier, I am a cadet in a military academy. I can’t indulge in the love between my children. I have to go, I have to go.

Seeing how determined I was, Fen said nothing. She pulled the quilt over her head and ignored me. Fen said she wouldn't send it to me anymore. I lifted the quilt and kissed Fen gently: "I'm leaving. I'll come back in July." Fen grabbed my hand and said, "You really don't want me to give it away?" I was speechless.

Fen got up silently, and her sister and I carried my big suitcase and sent me out of the food factory. Along the way, no one said anything. After leaving the factory gate, a classic car (electric three-wheeler) came over. I got on the car and saw sadness flashing in Fen's eyes, and she clearly wanted to cry. I couldn't bear to watch it and let the car owner drive. The car started moving, and Fen and her little sister stood there, motionless.

Farewell, my girl next door. I will not forget my promise and I will come back. After I graduate from the military academy and finish my , I will come here to pick you up. At that time, you will become my bride, and we will have a warm home... (Written on the train from Harbin to Shenyang on February 13, 1998)