Oralized by: Xiaozhe Edited by: Azi Axuan
During the more than ten years that I have been with Amin, he said that he likes my plumpness the most. He said that my plumpness is better than his life. It is very beautiful and he cherishes it very much. The funny thing is, that day when I was diagnosed with breast cancer and it might cost a lot of money, I immediately thought of Amin. When I called him, he said he was discussing business with a client and would call back later. Later, there is no future ~
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My name is Xiaozhe, born in the 1990s, I used to be the secretary to the board of directors of a private enterprise.
Once upon a time, I had a lovely son and a straight husband with a grumpy temper and incomprehensible amorous feelings. Ever since I came to this city, I have been suffocated by the pressure of life.
usually moves around his home, from east to west, from south to north. My son also sits in the back seat of my electric car and changes to several kindergartens.
Life is always full of insecurities and petty arguments.
I was able to live such a life at first. If I didn’t fight for my parents or my mother, I was destined to make efforts that were unimaginable to ordinary people, and I had to finish the road I chose on my knees.
My husband is also very hard-working. He teaches in a private school. The more hours he has in class, the more money he earns. He can take up to six classes a day and works part-time in the library on weekends. He never dares to take a break from work.
I majored in computer science. Because there was no better practice platform, I had to start as an office clerk. After six years of hard work, I became the secretary to the board of directors of this company.
My income is getting higher and my life has improved slightly, but I still have a deep sense of inferiority in my heart.
First, due to the influence of my original family, I have not received the warmth of family since I was a child, and I always feel shorter than others; second, in this huge city, my colleagues around me have their own houses and are accompanied by healthy family members. Around, three meals a house, all year round.
But I still depend on others, take care of my children by myself, take care of myself inside and outside, and live a life of poverty with limited resources.
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The encounter with A Ming was purely accidental.
On that day, the network in the office was paralyzed. Since it was just after the New Year, many stores on the street were not open yet. I saw an advertisement posted at the door of my unit, and I called the number on it. A middle-aged man's very polite voice came over the phone: Sorry, I'm still in my hometown now. Can I go back and help you get it done tomorrow?
I said okay.
then found another Internet company and finally helped us restore the network.
The next day, I was drafting the contents of tomorrow's meeting. The middle-aged man on the phone suddenly appeared in my office and knocked on the door politely.
This is how A Ming and I met. Although he didn't help me solve the actual problem that day, his sincere attitude and handsome face made me feel good.
Amin is a very mature and slightly humorous man. He has strong muscles and looks like a man who often goes to the gym. Although he is over thirty years old, he is full of masculinity.
He runs a network engineering company near his work; he also has several dessert shops under his name. He usually works outside to take care of projects and do business, while his beautiful wife looks after the shop at home.
has a smart and motivated daughter who is studying in the best middle school in the city.
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The first time Amin and I were in his car.
It was a summer vacation, and my son had just been sent back to his mother-in-law's house in the countryside.
At that time, I couldn’t help but have a big fight with my husband because of the issue of my father-in-law’s hospitalization medical expenses.
My father-in-law was diagnosed with lung cancer that year, and my husband and I had spent all the down payment we had saved in the early stage, and we really couldn’t afford the extra expenses.
My husband hopes that I will borrow some from my parents’ family. My parents are far away in their hometown in Guizhou. They have been farming all their lives, facing the loess and turning their backs to the sky, and have basically no savings.
I have a younger brother at home who is still in high school. My relatives are rich and powerful in the local city, but it is impossible for me to talk to them. After all, I am already married.
I was also under a lot of pressure at work. My husband scolded me for not saving my life, and he was swearing. He drank a lot of alcohol outside that day, and he was violent after drinking. He hit me with his fist, and I rushed out of the door. , vowing never to enter this house again.
But where can I go? I walked alone on the street for a long time, crying more and more sadly.
Who told me to ignore my parents’ advice and insist on marrying a Phoenix man.
It has been several years and I don’t even have a home that truly belongs to me! Other people’s children attend various interest classes, but I can only teach them at home; other women go to the mall and wear a new set of clothes every day, never bringing the same ones, and I don’t even dare to enter the mall; other women’s Men know how to do housework and feel sorry for their wives. My man drinks alcohol when he is not at work. He gets angry when he says something inappropriate~
The more I think about it, the more painful it becomes. Towards the end of the night, I boldly sent a message to A Ming. Unexpectedly, he responded instantly and said that he had not gone home tonight and had just finished accompanying a client. He must have something to do with me when I sent him a message so late.
He drove over after a while. When I saw him, I couldn't help but pounce on him.
In his warm and strong arms, I felt so safe and secure for the first time. How a scarred heart longs for someone to comfort it! Amin held my face, kissed my tears seriously, patted my back and said, if you don't cry, I will be there~
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That night, in Amin's car, I looked like a The injured kitten has been nestled in his arms. I really hope that this short-term happiness will last forever.
When it was almost dawn, I felt a fire burning in A Ming's chest. He murmured that he had fallen in love with me from the first moment he saw me. He liked my quietness and my appearance without makeup. She likes the tone of my voice and even the proudest and softest part of me as a woman.
I was so aroused by Amin's love words that I couldn't help myself. For the first time, I crossed the thunder pool in the paradise of passion. A Ming said that he could not bear to treat me badly for the rest of his life.
I am both scared and confused about becoming his woman!
I wanted to avoid this dangerous relationship, but I couldn't avoid Amin's love words. Amin gave me the unparalleled happiness and passion of a woman, as well as the safety and warmth I had never had before.
I am a woman who is as weak as water on the outside but extremely strong on the inside.
Although I have become more confident and mature in the few years I have been with A Ming, A Ming said that I have become more and more like his dream girl. However, I have never made any specific demands to Amin, not even a birthday gift or a perfume that a woman wants.
Every time Amin asks me, Zhe, do you want to be more beautiful? I said, as long as you don't dislike it, I think this is good. Maybe, if I had gorgeous clothes, I would be amazed by the beauty. But, deep down, I prefer beauty and authenticity.
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Once, my mother uterine fibroids was hospitalized. As the eldest son of the family, I should contribute money and efforts.
My mother needed 50,000 to 60,000 yuan for surgery. I always wanted to speak to A Ming, but I was afraid of being rejected, or afraid of being disappointed with the man I loved so much.
However, there is really no other way. My mother has to undergo surgery. I only have one mother.
I tried to talk to A Ming, and A Ming agreed. He just said that the money was with his lover and he would figure out a solution.
I say, if it’s difficult, don’t force it!
For the first time, I laughed at myself. When we were in love, I wanted to put the other person into my body and become one. When faced with reality, the relationship might be so fragile that it would break at the touch; or I would feel like an ugly duckling.
But the words have been spoken and there is no room to take them back. A week later, Amin still gave me a card, and I took it with great gratitude.
When I didn’t touch material things, I felt that I was in front of A Ming, enjoying his favor as a matter of course, like a happy little princess; when I received the money, I felt that I was such a realistic woman and could not escape from material things. Women's labels.
Later, A Ming no longer looked at me so fondly. When we were together again, I felt that I no longer had the same enjoyment and confidence as before.
A deep sense of inferiority once again enveloped my heart.
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In the following years, I devoted myself more fully to work. I had to rely on my own efforts to make myself what I want and become my own queen.
In those years, I worked overtime day and night, and I also took on IT business from other companies in my spare time. Through hard work with my husband, we finally have our own light in this huge city.
In the blink of an eye, my son is in third grade.
In 2020, during the epidemic, I always felt that I had no strength, dizziness, couldn't eat, and my breasts were accompanied by bursts of tingling.
After the epidemic, I went to the hospital for a full-body checkup. The doctor told me that it would not be long before breast cancer was in the advanced stage. A strong desire to survive suddenly took over me!
I was panicked and scared. It felt like the sky was falling! I immediately asked Amin for help. On the other end of the phone, after he listened to my sobbing begging, I thought he would rush over, put his arms around me and said, "Don't be afraid, you have me~
" He just said to me calmly Words: Sorry, I'm with a client, I'll call back later~
I hung up the phone in despair. After calming down, I sat on a bench under the wisteria tree in the hospital for a few hours. The world is so beautiful, but she will no longer belong to me!
suddenly understood that after the prosperity, it must be half life.
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When I got home, I told my husband the news calmly, and continued to hide the love entanglement between Amin and I over the years from my husband.
I said deeply sorry, please let me go!
My husband didn’t try to keep me. He thought that he and I had suffered too much over the years, so letting me go would be the best outcome for me!
He asked me to take away all the family savings. Later, I put these savings in a card and gave it to my son.
resigned, and I shamelessly returned to my parents’ home in Guizhou with a broken body and a scarred heart. My mother held me in her arms and cried all the time, and she vacated an old house in the middle of the mountain to accommodate my declining body and my heart as cold as water.
