I was a little sad because I pretended to be aloof, Lianlian and my friend Guo Qing got along, and I was a little sad. Later, the two of them parted ways for some reason, and I felt very happy.
There are always some things that cannot be explained in my children's relationship, so I don't want to dig into the thoughts of Lianlian and Guo Qing. Life is just like this, let the wind take everything away.
The rural areas that exude rural atmosphere may be different because of us educated youth from the city, but in fact, they are still the same. The houses built with bricks, the farmers with their faces facing the loess and their backs facing the sky, the children who do not know the sufferings of the world, the trees that are silent, the tireless flowing water... have never changed.
Guo Qing no longer needs me to look for him with curiosity. He slept earlier than me. I no longer have to think about Lianlian’s thoughts, and she will never invite us to her house for a drink. Uncle Shui Sheng was still the same as before. When he saw me, he called out kindly: "Xiao Jian..." I replied with a smile: "Hmm..."
Captain Niu had a far-sighted vision, as if he had smelled some future information, and no longer controlled us educated youth, no matter how big the members had.
The news finally came. We, the city kids who have been in the countryside for several years, can return to the city!
Suddenly, the usual atmosphere in the village seemed to have changed. We were happy and the villagers were silent. We can sit on the ground and chat for a while without scruples, no one will give strange eyes, no one will have any dissatisfaction. We feel that our future is dazzling and cannot be compared with the villagers.
"Lianlian, we will leave soon. I am really nostalgic for the days I lived in your house!" I said to Lianlian openly, not afraid that anyone would doubt that I had any intention of her. What can I try to do with her? The facts are in front of her, and she and I are completely different.
"That's good. Over the years, you have indeed suffered a lot in our countryside." She said with a smile, but I saw the loss in her smile.
"Lianlian, I want to ask you something, but I don't know whether to ask or not." I was a little confident and wanted to ask why she wanted to have fun with Guo Qing, and why she was in the end.
"Brother, just ask if you have anything you want to ask, it's okay." She was calm.
"If you ask, you are afraid that you will hurt your heart, so you'd better not ask." Looking at her looking pitiful, I didn't want to hit her.
"I've guessed what you want to ask." She said lightly, "Aren't you hiding behind a big tree at that time? Do you think I don't know. Brother, you are a smart person, why don't you understand my sister's heart until now?" As she said that, her eyes blinked and tears rolled in her eyes.
My words surprised me very much. It turned out that night, she found me hiding behind a big tree!
Now, it’s not her who is embarrassed, it’s me!
"You and Guo Qing are in love, is this a fact?" I must save some of my face.
"How is that possible?" She sobbed.
At this time, she didn't admit it and told me what to do. So I told you what I saw and heard: "I saw him holding your hand with my own eyes. Is this the truth?"
"You also pulled my hand..." She covered her face and cried, saying, "You are all my brothers, like my brothers. Did you break the law when you pull my sister's hand? What did you do?"
Now I felt guilty and said, "Lianlian, don't cry, I feel uncomfortable when you cry. I ask you again, why did you blow again later? I just want to figure out the reason. This book has nothing to do with me, but you said, I am your brother, like my brother."
"What's there to say?" She shook the rope and ran away.
She refused to say that I could find the answer, that is, ask Guo Qing.
On a quiet night, the moonlight fell on the windowsill, and Guo Qing and I couldn't sleep. I asked, "Xiao Guo, we have been in the countryside for several years. I won't say what you have suffered and how tired you have suffered. What is your biggest feeling?"
"I feel so much. I use straw to go to the thatched cottage, hide in the quilt when I miss home, and cry when I am hungry. I still have to work hard. What do you tell me to say?" He felt more emotion than me.
"It's really not easy to walk along the way!" I changed my mind and cut the mess quickly. "What's going on with Lianlian..."
"Hey, hehe..." He smiled coldly and said, "How do you know? She told you, right?"
"You completely misunderstood, wrong!" I said, "Don't treat others as fools. Judging from your performance, from the expressions of you two, even fools can tell."
"I believe you have seen it a long time ago. To be honest, I have never talked to her at all. Isn't it the so-called relationship between brother and sister? Do you think there is more content, it's really ridiculous!" He seemed to despise me.
"Xiao Guo, now I can tell you what I saw and heard. Anyway, we are about to go home, so I will just treat it as a joke." I didn't want to be despised by him and said, "I happened to have an urgent matter that night, and happened to run into you, behind the bamboo congee. What should I say?"
"Nonsense!" He was angry and said, "What did you see again? Did you see me pull her hand? I tell you, I really pulled it, then What can it mean? Tell me, what can it mean? "
" Xiao Guo, we are friends in times of distress at least, don't get angry like this, okay? I don't want to argue with you anything. Really, everything is over, there is no need. If you still treat me as a close friend, you should treat the matter I said as an interesting thing, but if you get angry, it is my fault. Don't continue talking anymore, okay?" Faced with him who was angry, I had to give in.
But, no matter what, I still can't let go of Lianlian from the bottom of my heart, just want to say to her: I like you. Without saying this, I just left like this, and I felt so nervous!
Is Lianlian waiting for me to say this? I don't know, really don't know. How should I confess to her, do I have the courage?
Just as I was trapped in an indescribable ideological struggle, Lianlian took the initiative to say to me: "Brother, I really want to chat with you alone, I wonder if you want to."
What did she want to talk to me? No matter what I talk about, I'm happy.
On the night, she and I made an appointment under the bamboo bushes, a place that I was extremely disgusted with.
"Brother, you and Guo Qing are both my brothers, but you and Guo Qing are different. He is just my brother. Do you understand what I mean?" She said a little lonely, "But what qualifications do I have to be your sister? No matter who among you, what my sister wants to do, as long as my sister can do it, you will definitely do it, wuwu..."
She sobbed before she finished speaking. I couldn't bear it and said, "I believe you and Xiao Guo are innocent, okay?"
"Brother Guo Qing wants to kiss me, but I didn't let him kiss, he hated me, where can I go to reason, wuwu..." She finally shook her true thoughts.
"He may have misunderstood some things. He is also a simple person. Don't blame him. His heart is quite kind, I know this." I understand everything, but what can I say more?
A brief silence, she suddenly asked me: "You were drunk that night, why did you pretend to be asleep? Tell me!"
Alas, it turns out that she really knew that I was pretending to be asleep, and no matter how much she quibbled, it would be useless. I reached out to her, held her hands tightly, and said, "Lianlian, I don't want to hurt you, please understand my hard work."
"But you have hurt me." She didn't follow my wishes and broke free.
"Sorry, I still don't want to hurt you now, but I want to say: I really like you..." My voice was a little choked.
"Brother..." She finally stopped being reserved and threw herself into my arms.
This is not true, absolutely not true! But why is my heartbeat accelerating? Why was her hair blown onto my face by the wind? Why can I smell the girlish breath on her again?... It's so incredible, I must be in a dream.
When I left Luojia Village, I felt heavy on my shoulders, as if I was carrying my back not my luggage, but my debt.I owe too much Lianlian and I owe too much villagers. How can I afford it in this life?
I deeply think that the embrace between Lianlian and me is of great significance, because what I hugged is not her, but Luojia Village, but the entire countryside. I have never let go until now. I wish my peasant brothers and sisters a safe and happy life!
