01. Last month, I submitted my resignation application to the company, less than a year after my promotion. When I said goodbye to my colleagues, facing their doubts and questioning, I just smiled and told lies that even I would not believe. "I'm going back to inherit the family

01.

Last month, I submitted my resignation application to the company, less than a year after being promoted.

When I said goodbye to my colleagues, I just smiled in the face of their doubts and questioning, telling lies that even I would not believe.

"I'm going back to inherit the family property, everyone, take care."

I really want to go back, to the small county where I was born and raised.

has no great ambitions and no hidden secrets.

I'm just, so tired.

When he was young and frivolous, his beating heart was just to fly to a bigger city and start a life of making waves.

In big cities, luxury goods are surrounded by warm yellow lights. Casual corners are full of stylish cafes. Even the people walking on the road have a sense of cutting-edge fashion.

That "gray" small county gradually began to fade out of my sight.

Like countless young people, even if I have nothing in my hands, I still come to this huge prosperity with a lonely heart, as if I have ten thousand soldiers behind me, vowing to take root here and be connected with everything here. melt.

The ideal fire is burning and exciting my young life.

Even if I am burdened with high rents, calculating daily favors, living expenses, and mediating among the cumbersome requirements put forward by various customers, I will feel a sense of hard work. I believe that if I continue like this, I will definitely succeed. Wait for the light.

It’s just that people cannot stay enthusiastic forever. If they remain enthusiastic, they will die suddenly.

02.

I was crowded in the crowded morning rush hour station, followed by message reminders that seemed to never stop, casually dealt with every breakfast and lunch I had planned, and finally sat down on the subway seat on the way home as if I was dehydrated. Tell myself over and over again: "I am the one who works the hardest, I can definitely do it."

I tried my best to ignore the growing doubts and uneasiness in my heart. I couldn't lie to myself at first. In the face of competition, my efforts and dedication became more and more important. The more it depreciates.

I also forgot that at a certain moment, I was standing in the office area looking at the bright lights downstairs.

This city still smiles as thrillingly as when we first met, but there seems to be no light here that truly belongs to me.

Suddenly I remembered the small county town I had been desperately trying to escape from.

Although there are not many delicious foods there, there are also a lot of "junk foods" that should be available. The red-oil dandan noodles are fragrant with the first bloom in the morning, and are paired with fried, crispy and golden green onion pancakes.

Accompany the night with the noisy charcoal barbecue, and the self-service hot pot that never seems to stop at night.

More importantly, I don’t have to rush through things in a hurry, and I don’t have to eat food that’s even gone warm.

I can have a little leisure time, pick my favorite vegetables and fruits, smell the aroma of unknown flowers on the road, and start my day's work.

Although I don’t earn much, the housing prices here are not high. If I work hard with the people I like, I can own a house of my own one day in the future.

I don’t have to work overtime all day long, or painstakingly stage a fish-fishing philosophy in front of everyone. I can use the extra free time to walk to my parents’ house to be lazy and bask in a quilt filled with sunshine.

In the evening, I bought another half of a just-right watermelon, blew the warm wind, and watched the sun disappear gradually, rendering the sky a stunning red.

These tiny dreams are difficult to realize in big cities, but in this leisurely and peaceful small county, we can realize them one by one.

I am not a person who can persevere very much. When I was in my twenties, I chose to give up working hard in a big city, and instead turned around and returned to a small county to start the "retirement model."

03

I don't think this is such an honor. thing, but I don’t feel that shameful.

Some people are born to dominate the eccentric workplace, and little by little they have their own place in this crowded world.

But there are also people who have no grand ambitions, and all they long for is the simplest dream in life, a room for two people, three meals for four seasons, just for that little seemingly ordinary sense of belonging and security.

I will still envy the countless opportunities to seize wealth, convenient infrastructure and high-level medical and educational conditions in big cities, but I clearly know that a stable job in this small county seems to be about the same. The various facilities are more than enough to meet the daily needs of me and my family.

The glamorous life in TV dramas always belongs to others. I just want to seize the happiness that is within reach, rather than the "high-quality life" that seems far away.

If it is the general trend for young people to choose to stay in big cities, then it is also a way to return to their ideal life if they choose to retreat and return to their hometown.

No one can define what life should be like, and there are no rules stating that we all have to walk on the same single-plank bridge.

I know that in the eyes of many people, this may be a sign of being greedy for comfort, worthless, and useless, but so what?

I want to make myself happier, that's all.

So, although I am young, I returned to this small county town because I understand that the happiness I want is there.