01
On October 7, I married Mo Zhinan.
There are some feelings, the longer the time, the more boring, it is better to know the passion of people who have met for a few months.
And some feelings, but like old wine, the longer the time, the more mellow.
The relationship between Mo Zhinan and I is the bottle of wine that has been buried in the ground for more than ten years. The time of sixteen years is just like yesterday.
On the wedding night, we lay in bed, holding hands.
There are fireworks blooming in my mind, and I hear my own voice: "Fortunately, there is you."
Mo Zhinan's hand pressed my hand hard and said, "Fortunately , And you.”
After finishing talking, we two looked at each other and smiled. The sixteen years of tacit understanding allows us to look at each other's eyes and know what it means.
Who knows that the two people who were often bullied in the class were actually married.
Now looking at those years again, I just feel that nothing can beat us in the future, because we are each other's most stable backing.
02
My name is Kang Tian, and I was born in a small county town on the 18th line in 1991. When I was studying, I was considered half a celebrity in school, just because my face was near the bottom of my left eye. A dark red birthmark the size of a coin.
But my skin is very white, which makes that piece of birthmark look particularly eye-catching and look very scary.I used to scare and cry children from relatives.
Because of this birthmark, I often walk with my head down, and I don’t dare to look at other people. The eyes of others are surprised, disgusted or scared, and I always feel like I’m in this world. It was a mistake.
When my parents looked at it as a small dot, they didn't take it to heart. I didn't expect that the small dot at birth would grow bigger as I grew older.
At that time, the conditions of my family were not very good. Dad looked at me, who was getting more and more ugly, and the guilt in his eyes was replaced by disgust over time. No one likes ugly things, even relatives.
When I was 11 years old, my parents had younger brothers, who were more beautiful than me, smarter than me, and more pleasing to my parents.
The eyes and minds of the parents are all on the younger brother, and I knew then that I was the child they gave up.
So, I never talk to them if I don’t bully at school, and I just change the sentence why I only bully you and not others. You must have scared them.
Before the third grade, I was so eager for warmth and friends, but those things that are easy for others to get, seem out of reach for me.
I met Mo Zhinan at this time.
There are so many people in a class, but he and I are the only ones being bullied.
I am ugly, and he is because he is too beautiful, his voice is too slender, and his body is thin. He is ridiculed as a "sissy", a "sissy".
intersect with him for the first time, he handed me a tissue.
It’s funny,Because of ugliness, many classmates will draw a clear line with me even if they don't bully me, for fear that they will be treated the same because of me.
So, the first time I felt the kindness between people, it turned out to be on the tail of junior high school.
On that day, the sky was grey and the whole classroom was slightly dim.
Not long ago, a fat boy pointed to my clothes and said with a big smile: "School flower, you are wearing your mother's clothes."
" "School Flower" is the nickname they gave me, which is extremely ironic.
At that moment, everyone's eyes swept across my body like a laser gun. The shame of being stripped of clothes, even though I have experienced it many times, still makes me feel very unbearable. .
Fortunately, the school bell rang and I escaped a disaster.
It happened to be late self-study. While wiping my tears silently, I cried silently while covering my mouth. At that time, I hated the birthmark on my face and was at a loss for the humiliation of others.
Actually, I thought about it more than once in my dream. It would be fine if I died, otherwise everyone would die together. In this way, the world is quiet, there is no opposition, no discrimination.
But I was timid and afraid of death. I cut my heart into countless pieces and hung them on the empty branches, blowing them with the north wind. Maybe it will be better if you get used to it. At that time, I thought so.
When I cry silently, I carefully conceal the small fragility, lest it become another reason to be teased.
Mo Zhinan is sitting next to me. His slender hands are more beautiful than girls. I don't know how he knew I was crying.
He secretly handed me the tissue, without even looking at me, if I didn't see the white tissue under the table.
The moment I saw the tissue, I reflexively looked around, afraid that it was another way for them to tease me. But everyone lowered their heads to read, and the whole classroom was quiet.
It is estimated that I haven't picked up for a long time. He turned his head slightly to my side, and took a quick look at me. Just that glance made me sure it was not a prank.
I quickly took the tissue, but I didn't even dare to say thank you.
At that time, my tears were already dry, but I still pressed the tissue on my eyes. It was very soft and comfortable, and there was a scent of scent into my nose.
There is a saying that is right. People who have suffered too much can fill her up as long as there is a touch of sweetness.
My heart is filled with a small piece of tissue.
03
Although I knew before that Mo Zhinan was often bullied by boys, but I couldn't even take care of myself. How could I pay attention to someone who is in a similar situation to me. After
, I don't know whether it was intentional or unintentional. I always meet him after school. There is a river on the way back to my house. When I am in a bad mood, I often go to the riverside for a daze.
Under my deliberate attention, I found that Mo Zhinan would go to the riverside to sit for meetings from time to time.
Maybe it’s because of the tissue, or maybe no one saw him outside the school, so when I saw him by the river again, I walked over, I think I must say thank you to him in person this time .
"Mo Zhinan," I walked behind him and called him softly, "Thank you for the tissue that day."
As soon as I finished speaking, I took a breath and prepared Leave.
When Mo Zhinan heard me call him, he turned to look at me, his eyes flashed with surprise and shyness.
As soon as he heard what I said, he waved his hand and said nothing, then peeked at me and said: "I just think you should not be treated like that."
My nose is sore and my throat is tight, I don't want to leave.
Facing him, somehow, I suddenly had a desire to talk.
"Every time I am bullied, I like to come here after school. Once, I looked at the water in the river and it was like jumping." I looked at the one that was dyed red by the setting sun. The river said.
"Me too, I also thought about jumping down otherwise." Mo Zhinan said suddenly.
Then, we both looked at each other, and then we laughed
Mo Zhinan's blush, a little embarrassed, and then he took out a toffee from his pocket. Hand it to me and say: "Eat it?"
"Thank you, you shouldn't be treated like that." I took the toffee, and just blurted out.
I discovered that Mo Zhinan is only thinner than other boys, speaks more like girls, and behaves softly. There is no doubt that Mo Zhinan is an extremely gentle boy, he is not a sissy.
can be a different boy to others,He deserves to be ostracized and ridiculed by nature, just because he is not gregarious.
That day, we talked a lot, picking up rocks by the river and playing water drifting. He will always fight one or two more than me. The sweet and greasy toffee in my mouth is stored in my memory and will never be erased.
Since then, I know that I will not be alone anymore.
But in school, he and I will pretend to be very unfamiliar, and try not to say anything. It's just that when each other is bullied, they will run to the river together to comfort each other.
At this time, there is always a candy in his pocket waiting for me. I folded a thousand paper cranes for him, and every folded represents my best blessing to him.
When he gave me the 50th candy and I gave him the 99th paper crane, we graduated from junior high school.
At the same time, I was admitted to the same high school as I wished. I still have some regrets. I couldn't make a thousand paper cranes. I don't know whether those wishes can be realized.
But Mo Zhinan didn’t mind, he still said in a gentle tone: “It’s okay, you can go to high school, you can continue to fold. As long as you are sincere enough, the gods can hear your wishes.”
At that time, we were both weak and secondary. What I was thinking in my heart was just hoping that the other party could go well and stop being bullied.
04
Mo Zhinan was still bullied just because he couldn't play basketball.
Every sentence of that boy was ugly, and several boys squeezed Mo Zhinan together. I really can't stand it anymore,I don't know where the courage came from, I got up from my seat and said loudly that you can't bully people like this.
As a result, the two of us were teased and laughed at them saying that an ugly girl is a perfect match for a sissy. They laughed and banged the table. Mo Zhinan and I were like two actors, watched and pointed by them. At that moment, I was suddenly pulled back into the darkness of junior high school.
Once I really thought that as long as I left the previous environment and people, everything would change. It turns out that as long as there are birthmarks on my face, and as long as Mo Zhinan is different from them, nothing will change.
My hands trembled because of anger, and I thought Mo Zhinan was still as silent as before. Unexpectedly, he actually resisted this time.
He pushed those people away hard. He did not experience the change of voice. His voice was still so slender. He kept roaring: "You guys get out of here." People criticized it.
The head teacher is a very good teacher, and Mo Zhinan and I are still very grateful to her.
is her, in front of the whole class, telling them the difference between people and the need to respect each other and reject school violence among classmates.
is also her, she talks to me again and again to resolve my inferiority complex. In her eyes, I can only see equality and equal treatment.
On the way home with Mo Zhinan that day, I asked him: "When did I learn to resist?"
Mo Zhinan looked at me with deep eyes, which led me to see The emotion of understanding said: "Then why do you stand up and speak for me?"
He said confidantly: "This, isn't it just being uncomfortable. Moreover, I don't want to see you being bullied again. We are all grown up."
"Yes, we are all grown up, so I I also learned to resist. Don’t resist, how to protect the people I want to protect.” Mo Zhinan looked at me and said, I saw infinite brilliance in his eyes, so determined and full of power.
banged against my heart.
Although the head teacher taught everyone an anti-school violence class, I was still sensitive to the discovery that no one wanted to play with me.
Even when I was in the bathroom, I heard a girl whispering: "That Kang Tian, the first time I saw her, she scared me to death."
"Yes , Yeah, how could anyone grow up like this. If it were me, I would be embarrassed to go out." The girls beside them also agreed.
After I listened, I came out of the bathroom blankly, which surprised them.
In fact, there is nothing to care about, and I have never heard of it before. Besides, now they are only secretly saying that it is much better than before.
Compared to me, Mo Zhinan's situation has changed a lot.
Mo Zhinan looks good, and his eyes are still popular Danfeng Eyes at the time, somewhat similar to Li Junji . Instead, it attracted the likes of some girls.
In addition, because his anger exploded before, some boys did not dare to provoke him, but they also made some friends.
Seeing that he is not being bullied, I am happy for him from the bottom of my heart. It's just a little sad, will he and I finally drift away? after all,Walking with an ugly girl still affects him.
I gradually alienated Mo Zhinan, he deserves the best of all.
I no longer go to school with him, no longer go to the river, and no longer talk to him. It's like, he and I have never known each other before.
He finally got out of the mud, I must not drag him down again. I think so.
However, what I didn't expect was that he would stop me.
He intercepted me at the school gate that day. I pushed the bicycle hand for a while, then turned the bicycle in one direction and continued walking, but he stopped again.
"Why ignore me?" he asked, and I could hear the unhappiness in his voice.
But I also felt a bit wronged, tears completely invaded my eye sockets, and the big ones fell down.
Mo Zhinan suddenly became a little flustered. While he helped me tears, he coaxed me and said, "Don't cry or cry, who is bullying you? I'm going to find him!" Then he took it out of his pocket. A lollipop was stuffed into my hand.
When I heard this, I couldn't help but laugh.
The lollipop is on the palm of my hand, it is sticky and greasy, I am not willing to throw it away. He just shook his head, raised his head, lifted the heavy bangs that covered the birthmark, and said, "Look, I am so ugly." After a while, I said, "I haven't seen it before, and I haven't told you before. I always think it's not ugly. Don't you think it looks like a rose? How beautiful."
Mo Zhi Nan turned his head to the side as he said, and I saw his ears were red.
I am a little dazed, and I haven't recovered for a long time.
But he was a little frustrated. He said, "Don’t think about these. We said that we have to take the exam. I found that your mathematics and English have regressed badly recently. Based on your previous mistakes. Questions, I have a few more questions for you. I will ask you for them tomorrow."
said, handing me the two notebooks in my hand.
After saying that, he left, he walked halfway, turned around, and said to me: "From now on, you can't ignore me."
I went home in a daze. , And then opened the book he handed me. It turned out to be the question I had done wrong before, as well as the test questions by analogy.
It can be seen that the person who made the question really took a lot of thought.
The flower in my heart began to spread in the wind again.
At the beginning of the sophomore year, the two of us were addicted to the sea of questions.
said nothing, promised nothing, but I know that the love between us is not looking at each other, but looking in the same direction together. That is to go out together and leave this Where we have suffered.
He and I supervise each other. Although the head teacher knows that we are in early love, but does not interfere, because she knows that our love is built on a better foundation for each other's growth.
We all hope that each other is better and better than ourselves.
Time is fair, and every step taken counts.
Mo Zhinan and I were admitted to the same university again! And the thousand paper cranes folded to Mo Zhinan,It was finally folded before the start of the university, and a whole can of it is now in our new home.
05
After we went to university, we did not relax.
I know that because of this birthmark, I am born to work harder than ordinary people to reach their daily level.
So, in addition to taking professional courses, I also pay attention to expanding practice. The university is more tolerant. The first sight of many classmates seeing my birthmark is just surprise and sympathy, and there are not many negative emotions.
I also gradually learned to ignore those unkind eyes. This is the corresponding method that Mo Zhinan and I worked out together.
The more you behave indifferently, the less others will tease, because it is boring.
Because of my excellent grades, I have won the scholarship every year, plus some part-time expenses, I counted them all.
Then, in my junior year, I finally realized my wish to save money and get rid of the birthmark.
Mo Zhinan accompanied me on the day of the operation. I was a little scared, and my hand was shaking. He kept comforting me. Just before I entered the operating room, he kissed my forehead. He said, "No matter whether it succeeds or not, I will not leave you behind."
The birthmarks on my face for more than 20 years have disappeared without a trace, as if they had never been here.
I took the mirror and looked at it, tears fell off guard.
I think, why do I cry so much? This is obviously a happy thing.
Mo Zhinan looked at me,Some are dumb, but some are weird.
He didn't react until I pulled his sleeves. The first sentence was: "Sweet, you look so good."
My eyes are round apricot eyes and nose It's quite pretty, the skin is still white, and without the birthmark, the beauty that was once overlooked is suddenly magnified several times.
Inevitably, there are more boys around me, and they all exclaimed that I didn't expect me to have such a beautiful birthmark. But I still like the boy who gave me candy first.
Mo Zhinan and I got married after ten years together.
He is always worried that I am too beautiful and will be snatched away by others.
But he forgot that when I was the most unbearable and ugliest, he always stood by my side, accompany me to resist the gossip, and stepped on the thorns to see today's flowers blooming.
On the day of the wedding, Mo Zhinan released the video he prepared for half a month. The video shows the bits and pieces of his and me together, from acquaintance to acquaintance to love.
At the wedding, many people couldn't help but burst into tears.
At the end of the video, Mo Zhinan wrote: "Sweet, how lucky it is to meet you, your thousand paper cranes are a thousand blessings to me, I dare not be greedy and want too much , I just want one, and I’ll be with you.”
I watched the group photo of the two in the video, and tears fell unconvincingly. I forgot to tell him that the candy he gave me in those years, I still keep those candy papers.
We used to be two injured children warming each other, and then it was a ray of moonlight in each other's lives, and the road in the dark was illuminated by moonlight.
hope our future,Joyful, Changanning, worry-free, and hopeful, a total of white heads.
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