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"I don't know who he is, but he takes my heart bit by bit"
When he appeared on my Weibo , those days were my lowest period . At that time I just started a job in a new company, because my age is no longer the advantage, so I started from the lowest level of work. During the interview, the little HR girl looked at me with strange eyes, which seemed strange. Why do the leaders agree to an older woman like me to apply for the job? The new colleagues treat me like they do. They are all young and beautiful girls, and I am too ordinary. They discuss where to do beautiful manicures, and I can’t get involved at all. Speaking, because I don't even know how to make up.
I return home every day with exhaustion from work. When facing my husband who has been playing games as long as he is at home, I have no thoughts at all. No one could say that I was depressed, so I registered a new Weibo with my work phone number where I submitted my resume and complained on it to clear up my emotions.
He showed up at this time. One day I was visiting Weibo. Suddenly, a strange fan followed me. I was surprised. Can anyone want to pay attention to complaining like this every day? At first I didn't care, but gradually I realized that he cared about me very much. When I spit my colleagues, he would comment and help me talk bad things about them; I wrote some interesting words, and when I was in a good mood, he would give me a thumbs up; when I was down and sad, he would directly send me a private message and ask me what’s wrong. What happened, we slowly talked about everything. He was humorous, well-informed, and often made me laugh. I had a strong curiosity and a little moving feeling towards him. These feelings have never been experienced by my husband.
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"My husband and I met on a blind date, and we got along like a partner."
'S married,But we have never experienced the sweetness of love, and my husband has never pursued me. I feel that it is time to get married. This person is also suitable. So just like completing the task, we handed over ourselves. The process of getting married is very simple. The relatives and friends of both parties had a meal together in the restaurant and received a certificate in the afternoon. The major events of life ended in a hasty way.
After getting married, I found that my husband’s personality is very introverted and timid. Although I am two years older, I can’t do many things. I will give up when I encounter difficulties. I go to get off work and go home to play games every day, even after eating. Knowing that washing the dishes, the clothes are dirty and piled up into a mountain, and I will not wash them myself. A T-shirt can always be worn until it smells of oily oil. Life is as plain as water, but I think marriage is like this.
In 2018, there was a change in my family. I haven't logged on Weibo for almost a year. When he posted again, his private messages popped out one by one. Looking at this line of worry and anxiety, this is my first time. I have the feeling of being cared for and needed by others. So I couldn’t help posting a Weibo with only a loving expression. Soon, he replied with a hug expression in the comments below. My heart was beating wildly, and my heart was moved by such a little tacit understanding, and my heart was moved by his understanding. .
The turning point of things happened one afternoon. When I logged into Weibo, I found that he had left me a WeChat account in a private message. I added him with anticipation and anxiety. I passed in seconds. I was stunned when I saw his WeChat profile picture. Yes, I’m very familiar with this person, because I meet almost every day. He is the leader who invited me to work through my resume during the interview. I can’t believe it. I sent him several question marks and he replied, yes, It's me. This is my personal WeChat account. There are few friends, and they are all the closest people.
When I heard this dearest person, my heart couldn’t control the beating, and I still couldn’t believe it, because our leader was young and promising, steady and responsible, and he worked vigorously in meetings and meetings. I couldn’t post on Weibo. The gentle and watery man above connects with him. Gradually, when the staff morning meeting was held, his eyes always looked at me; when he reported to him on work, his tone was always very gentle; he always helped me solve the big and small things at work at the first moment Dropped; I finally believe that he is the man who cares about me on Weibo, who accompanies me whether he is happy or sad.
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"He confessed to me.
Maybe he thought I was divorced, so he confessed to me before long. I told him that I have a family, and he didn’t believe it. I emphasized it several times before he said that he would be willing to be a spare. When it came to the distressing pain. He said that he was just paying attention to me, caring about me, and not breaking the law, and hoped that I would not refuse him. He could protect me silently. My mood became more and more complicated, nervous, excited, flustered, secretly happy, Fear, intertwined, and tortured me. During that period of time, I had insomnia every night.
Slowly we chat on WeChat more and more frequently. Although we talk about work, we seem to have more talk about company affairs. If I can’t finish talking, he gave me great emotional and psychological support, like a wandering boat leaning on a comfortable shore, very at ease. I am on business trips, and will habitually report to him that he is safe and let him Don't worry about him; he will bring some snacks that I like and put them on my desk secretly. I haven't seen how he put them out, but I know it's him. I rely on him more and more. The deeper you get, the more you get angry and frustrated because he is slower to reply to WeChat. He feels that he is leaving, is he starting to hate me, and worry about gains and losses more and more. I am afraid of this feeling and hate my own. This kind of feeling.
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"I decided to leave you"
The more dependent on him, the more afraid I will be. I know I can't do this, and I can't sink. No results. I want to save myself. After making this decision, I plan to change my job and leave this company, so that I can really leave him and stay away from me who depends on him. I submit my resume online, look for a job, and start WeChat no longer active Reply to him, he was very anxious, he didn’t know why I was like this suddenly, he said how could you be so unfeeling, can you bear it? When I received the new interview notice, I handed over the resignation report to his desk. He didn't say anything, but talked about work handover. I didn't dare to look at him. I was afraid that I would regret this decision at a glance.
I deleted him on WeChat. He asked for verification several times, but I failed. The new job is very busy, and I often work overtime. And there are no more people like him to help me and speak softly to me. But I am very satisfied. I want to keep myself busy, as if nothing has happened, still go to get off work and go home to cook, wash my husband's oily clothes and smelly socks, because this is the life I should choose.
Friends, did you say I did the right thing?
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