"Do you still have any conscience? I'm your mother. You haven't been home for a long time, and I don't know how long you can call me back. Is the phone bill expensive? How about I pay you 100 yuan for the phone call? Will you accompany me? "The old woman who talks to me is like chatting for a while." After listening to my mother's words, I felt a little guilty and was about to apologize. Unexpectedly, what my mother said next made me want to sever the relationship between mother and daughter.
Many people say: Parents love their children. I have always thought this was the case. I have told myself countless times that you should repay your parents for their upbringing by reading books. However, my parents didn't show any gratitude for my efforts, and they always laughed at me for not doing enough.
Facing reality, I have to admit: not all parents love their children, or in other words, she just loves a certain child.
When I was young, my family was poor, really poor, a kind of poverty that people can’t imagine.
There are only three rooms in our house: one is the kitchen, the middle is a sleeping room, and the remaining one is used to raise livestock.
My brother is two years older than me, and the room is only big enough for two beds. My father and mother sleep on the same bed, which is said to be my mother’s dowry. The beds my brother and I share are wooden boxes used to hold grain. When the grain is harvested in the fall, our pillows are filled with grain. The food was gone, and there was straw to sleep on.
When I was young, my mother would mix cornmeal into the rice. There was rice in my brother’s bowl, but there was always noodles in my bowl.
I once asked my mother: "Why can't I eat rice? But my brother can"
"Because you are a girl"
I only have one set of clothes a year, which is a required school uniform. During the Chinese New Year, I could only wash my school uniform and use it as Chinese New Year clothes, while my brother wore newly bought clothes and shoes, and his pockets were filled with snacks and firecrackers.
My shoes had holes. My mother blamed me for not taking good care of my shoes. She asked me to take off my shoes when I was playing rubber band with my children.
My mother will give my brother baked sweet potatoes , baked potatoes . I can only eat them if my brother is willing to give them to me. My mother would secretly boil eggs for my brother, and I was slapped when I ate them secretly.
I have to learn various housework since I was a child: washing and cooking, weeding pigs, and feeding pigs. But my brother, I don’t need to learn anything, as long as he can command me.
Two factories were opened near the town. In addition to farming, my father and mother had other incomes, and the family's life began to slowly improve.
But my parents are still very strict with me. In their eyes, what they want is for me to work in a factory to earn money.
I studied well, but because I had to pay a 100 yuan registration fee for the high school entrance examination, my parents were unwilling to pay. The class teacher paid the final registration fee for me with his own money.
I ranked first in the school in the high school entrance examination, achieving the highest score since the school was founded. The school advertised it everywhere and I became a celebrity in the village.
My parents were not happy at all about my results. I still remember when my junior high school teacher went to our village to publish the results, many people said it was a pity to be born in such a family.
My junior high school teacher is a really good teacher. He contacted my high school teacher and informed the school of my family situation, hoping to exempt me from tuition and fees.
My notice was personally sent by the principal of the high school, telling me to go to school, but my parents refused to let me go. They said that it was good enough to go to junior high school. Even if the school waived tuition and fees, what about living expenses?
The school in high school gave me a scholarship. When I was in high school, I didn’t use my parents’ money. My brother occasionally gave me money.
Later, he was admitted to college, but his parents said that going to college would not include a job, and that he might not even be able to find a job after going to college, and it would also delay him from making money.
In fact, my family’s life was much better at that time, and my parents were preparing to build a house.
My parents and I needed 1,000 yuan to go to college, but my mother said: "Your brother is getting married, and we haven't even collected enough money for the bride price. How can we have money to study for you?"
My dad said: "You are 19 years old this year. It’s time to get married in a year.”
I stole 1,000 yuan from my mother and ran away to work in the provincial capital.
I used a student loan to apply for university admission.
I have been in college for four years. In fact, I am only 300 kilometers away from home, but I dare not go home. I know very well how much my parents hate me.
After graduating from college, I found a job. During the first Spring Festival after graduation, I went home with the 10,000 yuan I had saved. My mother seemed to be kind to me.
I told myself: My parents still love me, just because our family is too poor.
I work hard to make money. As long as I can make money and work overtime, 996 is nothing. I even hope to be 007.
In my fifth year of working, a boy came into my life. After two years of falling in love, we got married.
My mother asked for a bride price of 66,000 yuan. My boyfriend and I raised the money together without a dowry.
My husband is actually a very good person, and he knows how I feel.
After getting married, he would accompany me back to my parents’ home once a month, and he would buy various things every time he went back.
My mother was polite at first, but later she directly said that it was not affordable to buy things, so she might as well give her money directly.
also said that my husband and I have gone to college and have jobs, so it is easier to make money than them.
Every time I go home, my mother always thinks of various ways to get my husband and me to pay.
In fact, my parents' life has been very good these years. They built a new house and raised 6-7 cows. My brother is also married and has two children.
I started to avoid my parents intentionally and did not want to go home, but my mother came to the door and said that I was unfilial and that I was avoiding her now that I could make money.
I could only keep apologizing to my mother and promise not to avoid her in the future. But my mother refused to let me go. If I didn't spend any money at my parents' house for a month, my mother would definitely make me uneasy.
My husband and I moved quietly, but my mother couldn't be found. I occasionally call my mother, but every time she calls, besides complaining that her life is not good and she is short of money, she doesn't care about my life at all.
Every time after a phone call with my mother, on the one hand, I hate my mother for being selfish, but on the other hand, I feel useless and unable to make money.
My husband also found that I would feel very depressed every time after making a phone call. Coupled with the impact of the epidemic, my personality changed drastically. The doctor diagnosed me with anxiety disorder, which will develop into depression .
I decided to get rid of my mother. I stopped calling her and added her phone number to the blacklist.
I had no contact with my mother for a year.
I changed my mobile phone, and my mother’s call came in: “Do you still have any conscience? I am your mother. You haven’t been home for a long time, and I don’t know how to call you back. Is the phone bill expensive? Otherwise I'll pay you 100 yuan for the phone bill, and you can chat with me, an old woman who has no one to talk to."
Listening to my mother's voice, I felt a little guilty. I blamed myself for being hypocritical. I was about to apologize, but I didn't expect what my mother said next. I regret taking this call.
"You must have made money, so you don't want to care about the life and death of your dad and me. Do you know how sad your dad and I are. Your dad is over 60 years old and still has to work in a factory. Just so I can eat. Your dad has been suffering from back pain for several months and has no money to go to the doctor. My blood pressure and blood sugar are high and I feel dizzy all the time, but I can’t bear to take medicine..."
My head feels like I was wearing a tight band spell, and my mother's words at this moment were like Tang Monk reciting a spell, which gave me a splitting headache.
"Are you still my daughter? I worked hard to raise you and provide you with education, but now you are successful and you don't even recognize your mother."
I said to my mother: "Mom, I am sick."
"Sick?" Who are you lying to? Don't think you can avoid me just because you said you are sick. Let me tell you, your father and I gave birth to you and raised you..."
I didn't listen to what my mother said and hung up the phone.
If possible, I really want to break off the mother-daughter relationship with my mother.
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