1987, our family bid farewell to the day of accompanying the army and came to the rich water town. The parents rented a room in the remote suburbs, and the family of four lived together.
First arrived in a foreign land, my father took on all the burdens of the family.
Go out early and come back late, working hard day and night.
Mother, I found someone to take care of my family, my sister and me. She didn't even have the interest to take a look at the world of flowers outside. She turned a deaf ear to her neighbor's parents and other families. Firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar, tea, diaper, tablecloth, , curtain, , are all her life. Reading has become nothing to do with her. For a child, the most important thing is to have a breakfast with food and clothing when going to school and a warm lunch after school. Whether my mother's spiritual life is fulfilling or empty is not within the scope of my concern. It was not until I became an adult and got married that I realized how great the sacrifice my mother made for this family was!
I felt guilty about my mother.
In those young days, I was a hedgehog in my mother's eyes. I inherited my mother's stubbornness and developed my own tenacity. Self-confidence is strong, but what is ten times stronger than self-confidence is self-esteem. No criticism or scolding. One word of criticism, two words of replies; a few words of scolding, a few days of bad face. The pointed thorns on the body were standing upright unreasonably.
Once, I was in a state of emotion and was scolded. I didn’t talk to my mother for a few days. One night, she sighed while wiping the table and said, "I am your mother. Why do you think I am an enemy if you say a few words?"
I looked up at her. Just under the bright light, I saw a few dazzling white hair flashing on her head, and several eye-provoking wrinkles were also drawn from her eyebrows and eyes.
I was shocked.
Mom actually has white hair and small wrinkles!
Thousands of sentences "I'm sorry", quietly ringing in my heart a thousand times, but I can't say it.
