My son just went to elementary school and my husband and I had a red light on my marriage. My son became my whole life in the failure of marriage. My husband threatened his son, and I endured all the grievances and maintained the superficial integrity of the family. I didn't expect that my son is insisting on not getting married now, and the reason is because of me.
My husband and I met in a factory where we worked in another province, and later became boyfriend and girlfriend.
After half a year of marriage, I became pregnant. In order to live, my husband continued to work in other provinces, so I stayed in my hometown and lived with my in-laws.
I originally planned to wait until my son could go to kindergarten and hand over his son to his in-laws to take care of him. My husband and I went out to work in other provinces.
Unexpectedly, my son had not yet entered kindergarten, and my mother-in-law had a stroke, was bedridden and needed someone to take care of her, and I naturally took on the responsibility of taking care of my son and mother-in-law.
The main source of income for the family is my husband’s work income. I can especially understand his pressure and want to share it with him.
I have never done farm work before, so I took my children and my father-in-law to farm, and raised pigs, chickens and cows at home.
In a few years, I have changed from a spoiled person since I was a child to a village woman.
I thought my husband could understand my efforts to my family, but what I didn’t expect was that my husband had a problem outside.
My husband's scandal was revealed, and it was discovered by people who went to work with the same village. When I questioned my husband, he also admitted it.
Thinking of the days I spent over the years, taking care of my children at home, helping her take care of her mother, and having to work in the fields, this result is the result!
I filed for divorce, my husband knelt down and begged for mercy. I don’t want to forgive me, so I firmly demanded a divorce, and my husband threatened his son.
In that era, divorce was still a very embarrassing thing in the countryside.
My husband said, if I divorce, the child will not be able to follow me. As long as I leave this door, he will remarry and ruin his son.
When I think of my son, I feel soft. I think I will bear it for my son.
The failure of marriage has made me take care of my son even more, and my son has become my whole body.
I endured my inner discomfort and tried my best to play the harmonious harmony of my husband in front of my son, and maintained my tall image in my son's mind. But what my husband does is a thorn in my heart, and I can't ignore it.
At that time, someone in the village started to develop breeding and breeding, and my husband also returned home and started growing greenhouse vegetables and raising chickens.
Because of what my husband did before, I changed me. I manage the money at home, but I don’t do dirty work and tired work.
Because of the scandal that my husband did, we only have one son, which is extremely rare in rural areas.
I use my love for my son to support my life. When I am sad, I tell myself that everything is for my son.
My son signed up for a university in another province after the college entrance examination. He was unwilling to go home after graduating from university. It would be fine if he didn't go home. Unexpectedly, he is now 30 years old and doesn't even have a girlfriend, which makes me very anxious.
After he graduated from college, I started urging me to get married. My son would be perfunctory at the beginning, but later he was reluctant to even be perfunctory. It's a complete showdown now, saying that I'm a non-marriager and never want to get married in my life, which really makes me difficult to understand.
I cried and asked him the reason, but my son said it was because of me, and he didn't want to live the same life as his father in the future.
I don’t understand what my son said, so I asked my son where his father was not doing well, so that he would have such an idea?
The son said, "My father took on all the dirty and tiring work in the family, and he gave it to you after earning money, but you are still not satisfied and always treat him coldly."
"He spoiled you and coaxed you, but you ignored him.You have become a person envied by many people in the village, but my dad can't even lift his head. Everyone says he is cowardly"
"I really don't know why my dad is suffering such a crime? I don’t want to marry my wife and let myself suffer like my dad. "
I felt very uncomfortable when I listened to my son's words. I didn't expect that I would have such an image in my son's mind. But I was obviously the victim, and it was my husband who did the wrong thing at the beginning.
I especially regret helping my husband maintain his tall image as a father in front of my son. I endured decades of grievances, wasted most of my life, and in the end it turned into harming others and myself.
Before hanging up the phone, I was still hesitating whether to confess to my son and tell him The father did the ugly thing? But I am worried, will my son think I was lying to him and deliberately arranged his father in order to get him married?
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