"Men don't shed tears lightly. I want to cry. I can only try my best to hold back my tears in front of my mother, for fear that my mother will be uncomfortable when she sees it..." My cousin shook his head sadly and said.
Last night, I went to my mother’s house, and my cousin, who had just returned from Guangzhou, was also at my mother’s house. As we chatted, we started to talk about why my cousin went out to work.
My cousin is a middle school student who fell in love early and was born in the 1970s. At that time, there were still relatively many middle school students falling in love.
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Cousin said: Xueyan and I fell in love so innocently. We liked each other very much. We hid it from her parents at first, but later her parents found out and they didn’t agree with us. Together, isn’t it just because my family has a large population and is poor? The cousin sighed.
We are very close to each other and have been quietly in love for more than three years. We often play together while working uphill. She is very kind and pure. I like her very much. Although she is the third child at home, her brothers and sisters are all studying in the city. She does a lot of farm work at home. Every day when I go to school at noon, I see her still carrying water. It’s really I couldn't bear it, and I wanted to help her every time, but I was afraid of others' suspicion and laughter, so I never dared to go. I watched her thin body swaying with water from a distance.
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One day, I couldn’t stand it anymore. I looked around and saw that there was no one around, so I mustered up the courage to help her carry water. The bucket was so big, and I felt so heavy carrying the water that it almost weighed me down. Out of breath. I bumped my body and moved forward unsteadily. The road was too narrow and it was difficult to walk due to the bumps. I shifted from my left shoulder to my right shoulder, and then from my right shoulder to my left shoulder. The pain in my shoulder was really severe. I wanted to put it down and rest for a while before walking, but I was worried about losing face, so I gritted my teeth and took small steps forward slowly. Suddenly, there was a "thud" sound under his feet, and before he could scream, he fell to the ground more than ten feet high. At this time, she saw it from the front, ran down in panic, carefully helped me up, and asked me where I fell. I shook my head, no, I was just wet all over like a drowned rat.
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When she saw that I was really not hurt, she covered her mouth and laughed, and I laughed along with "hehe" in embarrassment. She is two years younger than me, but she can carry a bucket full of water. I really admire her strength. After returning to her house, her mother happened to go uphill to work. She took her brother's clothes and put them on for me, and then we went to school together. At that time, I felt very happy and warm.
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We are often together. Once we were cutting pigweed together. I accidentally cut my finger and blood came out. She looked at it and couldn't find anything for me. He just tore off the pocket of his own clothes and carefully bandaged my wound. I can never forget the tenderness and warmth to this day.
My cousin spoke movingly, as if he could see him returning to his happy past. He smiled as he spoke. His eyes were still shining with enthusiasm.
We were really happy at that time, my cousin continued, and we walked together to and from school. She doesn't care about other people's opinions or opinions. She likes to listen to me playing the flute. Every time I play the flute to her, she listens very attentively and is fascinated. She also compliments me and says that I play the flute very well. . We are like a pair of happy birds, laughing, chasing and playing in the free space. The cousin said with a colorful expression on his face.
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At this point, I couldn’t help but feel a little envious.
But after a while, my cousin's face began to slowly sink, and he sighed.
Hey! I remember one day, she asked me out, and I saw a sad look on her face. I asked her what she was doing, but she didn’t answer me. After asking me again and again, she shed tears and took out a letter from her bag and stuffed it into my hand, and then she said Not to mention turning around and leaving.I was stunned there, not daring to catch up, so I opened the letter hastily. The first sentence in the letter said,
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"Li Jun, let's break up..." I only read the first sentence, and my head was buzzing. My heart suddenly sank, and tears were about to flow out. I suppressed my sadness and read it hastily. The main content of the letter was that her parents somehow knew about it and would not let her continue to fall in love with me. He said that if he continued to see her with me, he would no longer let her go to school. Her grades were pretty good at that time. That night, I didn't go back. I walked aimlessly up and down the hillside. Later, I sat down on the hillside opposite her house and looked at the lights in her house. I knew it was her room, so I took out the The flute played a sad song. I knew she would hear it. I also knew she would cry quietly after hearing it, but I still couldn't help but play. As I continued to play, tears rolled down my face. Falling on my flute, dripping from the flute to the ground, my heart is like falling into a ravine, dark and damp.
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Seeing my cousin’s sad mood at this time, I couldn’t bear it anymore. I advised him that it was over, don’t be so sad, and turn her into a beautiful memory and a landscape in your heart. My cousin smiled and continued to tell us. He said:
Not long after, the high school entrance examination came, and we both failed. Later, I went to repeat the third grade of junior high school, but she didn't study. Before she went to Guangzhou, she asked her sister to give me a letter asking me to Forget her and let me study hard. But I know that after she went to Guangzhou, she had no intention of studying. Her shadow, her smile, and her sorrow always appeared in front of me every day in class. After studying for one semester, I really couldn’t study anymore, so I asked my parents to borrow travel expenses from others, went to her sister to quietly ask for her address, and then set off on the road to Guangzhou to find her.
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When I found her, she was very surprised and pleasantly surprised. After her introduction, I also entered the factory where she entered. We met again and happily went to and from work together every day. It was a good time. Not long ago, when the Chinese New Year was approaching, she fell ill, and the illness was not serious. The factory leader sent her to the hospital, and she gradually recovered after being treated for half a month. During this half month, the factory arranged for me to take care of her. Of course, if I was not arranged to take care of her, I would take leave to take care of her, and then booked two tickets for us, and I would return to my hometown with her.
On the way home, I was always worried that she would be opposed by her parents when I returned. But seeing her weak body, I had to send her home.
Sure enough, after returning to her hometown, her parents strongly opposed our being together. Maybe she couldn't bear the pressure, maybe she didn't love me deeply at all. She said to me,
"Li Jun, let's break up, I can't Against the wishes of my parents", but I don't believe she really wants to break up with me. I won't give up like this.
One day, there was a wedding receptionist in our village, and I saw her parents going to have a wedding reception. Finally, I couldn't help it, so while her parents were away, I ran to her house and begged her to elope with me. She saw me, although there was joy in her eyes, but when I asked her to elope with me, she was silent for a while, and then closed her eyes. I saw a teardrop hanging on her face, and she said weakly, "Let's break up." Well, I won't run away with you. I only have one parent. I can't make my parents sad and shed tears..."
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I was silent. At this time, I felt that her tears were fake and that she loved her. It was not me, but her parents. I began to hate her a little, and I hated her parents, but I would not be impulsive. I would just grit my teeth with hatred. I wanted to shed tears, but I couldn’t. I just felt like I was in my heart. While bleeding, I turned around and walked back home in a jittery step. Then I cried loudly under the quilt. After crying, I stared at the skylight and remained motionless until dawn.
The next day, I decided to leave. With a broken heart, I arrived in Guangzhou again. Until these years. We each have our own homes, but I think back on it like it was yesterday.
My cousin finished telling his story and smiled hard at us.
After listening to my cousin’s story, I couldn’t help but sigh, yes! Everyone's experience is a story. Some people bury it in their hearts, and some people tell it to their relatives. Life is like this, there is sadness and joy! I hope everyone can turn the sad past into a beautiful memory! Let her always have beautiful flowers blooming in her heart.
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