It was after I went to college that I first heard about someone becoming a monk. In the past, it was only seen in TV dramas. I thought it was far away from me. After all, it had never happened around me. But when I met her, my mind The blanks about becoming a monk were filled in.
She is a girl who seems to be very independent but very dependent on others. This may be due to the unstable factors brought to her by her family. I always thought she was an only child, but later I found out that she also had two half-sisters and a brother. Their relationship with each other didn't seem to be harmonious. When she got married, only her mother came, and no other relatives came. Not a single one was seen.
We have never asked her in detail. She said it herself. After her biological father divorced her mother, he became a monk. It is said that the salary is not low. She also went to see him. In addition to saying a few pleasantries, Just give her the money I saved. I have always thought that monks are very miserable, but this is not the case. They have more freedom and a fixed salary. They are just cleaner than our six senses. They can calm down and do what they want and are willing to do without being pulled by worldly emotions. , it feels pretty good.
She didn't say much about her father becoming a monk, but she just said that it was good for him there, at least he didn't have to travel around for a living. And her mother remarried after the divorce, and now this stepfather treats her indifferently. Of course, the biological child is much better than the foster child. I have never seen her contact any relatives at home. Whenever she calls, it is to ask for money from her mother. She spends money lavishly, has a unique and avant-garde vision, and the clothes she buys are all very nice. After graduation, she used her potential to sell things and make money.
There is no fixed time for her to visit her father, but she will still meet once within a year, whether it is to support her old age or to visit. Anyway, her mood is quite low after she comes back. At this time, she feels that money is not the only purpose of her visit. More of a helpless feeling. When people come into contact with different things, the concepts they form will gradually become no longer overlapping. Although the two people met, there were very few topics they could talk about. The mother who was the only one who could connect them didn't mention a word. There must be a reason for this.
Sometimes she would worry. After she started a family and started a career, her father's health was not as good as before. If he got sick, how could she take care of him? Even though she was usually carefree, she still had a lot of sadness in her heart, but she just didn't want to talk about it in front of everyone. She didn't care about her kiss or step-by-step. She was just a biological mother and had to share it with two strangers. Loneliness should be the reason. From deep within. Sometimes she would talk in her sleep late at night, with Lihua sobbing incessantly. The other roommates in the same dormitory actually heard it, but the next day we were all silent, letting some things end in dreams without mentioning reality. After all, there are many things in this world that we are helpless about...
[Rose] Past highlights:
- What is home? Home is a responsibility that neither you nor I can escape.
- My father is an ordinary and ordinary Hegang coal miner.
- I am not worthy of such a high-spirited family
- The more people lack love, the less they know how to love, and I donโt want to be a beggar for love
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