hesitated for a long time whether to write it or not. After all, the ugliness of the family cannot be publicized, and finally I decided to write it out. After considering it for a long time, I decided to write it in the form of an article. When people reach middle age, it seems that the road is getting narrower and narrower. At this time, I am like a prisoner who has been caught in a catastrophe and has been caught. Faced with all kinds of narrow and breathless, I have no reservation. Spit it out quickly!
Well, this article I am trying to break free, break free from the restraint that has been suppressed in my heart for a long time.
Chatting with my wife tonight, chatting in a serious way, chatting and chatting, I went off the topic again, and talked about the life of couples. She said what happened to me recently? Why are you always talking about sex.
I said it without even thinking about it: I feel very depressed recently. I haven't had this feeling before, or it's psychological depression, but later transferred to the physical, so it became sexual depression.
My wife was a little confused, and said that I was idle and nothing to look for.
I said, how can I be free? I work 12 hours a day, and I don’t even have one day off a month.
Thinking about going, I couldn't bear to confide my inner feelings: "The life of a middle-aged person is really as plain as water, and there is no vitality"!
"Then everyone is like this, go to work, go to get off work, eat, and sleep". she says.
Our child is almost 5 years old, and now the two places are separated. I have never felt sexually depressed before. Recently, I have indeed been mentally unhealthy. I even feel that the depression that has disappeared for several years is coming again.
Actually, I haven't confronted it. For example, online shopping and takeaway have become my way of entertainment. For this reason, I placed 6 orders in one breath in the first two days. One of them was a box of kidney and yang health medicine (actually, my physiological function is normal). I just went in and took a curious look when I saw it.
just took a look and killed the cat because of curiosity. He bought 3 boxes in one go, mainly buying 3 boxes to get cups. My water glass fell on the train not long ago, and I drank a full month's drink for this.
then told her about it. Who knows that she said that her father knows this best, because my old husband pays great attention to health care, and often treats all kinds of Chinese medicine to regulate the body.Otherwise, let me go with her dad to buy some conditioning. Besides, the Northeast has everything, deer antler , ginseng, if it doesn't work, she will buy me a deer knit.
Can I tell your dad about this? Really don't need to think about it. Besides, why should I make up? Mine is not abnormal. I bought this medicine purely for this water cup. Speaking of this, I feel baffled by her remarks.
She couldn't help but laughed out on the phone, as if she couldn't go to Ang, even if she bought it, she went quietly. she says.
However, I have another curious place: how effective are these drugs?
Having said that, I laughed awkwardly again. Still this sentence, people in middle age feel that life is really boring, not even a little sense of humor, let alone expecting an interesting life, going to work, earning money, and raising children day after day and year after year. , After a long time, it is strange to have no illness in my heart, and even really collapse. Even though I once taught myself psychology and successfully combated depression, now I not only attach great importance to my psychological activities, but also understand it very well. But so powerful, who would have thought that he would be defeated by a middle-aged person, and even defeated.
Sex is a very low-level fun, not even fun. But the other side of the psychological activity reflected by sexual depression is precisely the boring interest of middle-aged people. So many things are here, I can really think about it and understand it.
If life is meaningful, or if it can be a little more interesting, if there is a moment of tranquility and moments of beauty, if there are days off, even slower, or if I have even a close friend...maybe not Become this way.
As stated in the sketch of Ma Li : Since the other half left, she and the heavy wall in front of her are left at home. In fact, for many middle-aged people, are they not?
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