girl, if you are in love now, you must finish reading my story, maybe your life does not need to take many unnecessary detours.
01
It’s already eight o’clock in the evening, I checked the route, and it’s about 3 hours from Nanchang to span 21span. My daughter asked why my father hadn't come back. I dialed the video and it was connected. It turned out that he was eating at Old Zhong's house and said that he had something to do. He would live with him today and come back tomorrow. Looking at my daughter's disappointed expression made me feel desperate. I can't help but sigh how sad this marriage is. I haven't come back for half a year, and I'd rather live in a friend's house when I reach the door of my house.
02
I came back after having dinner at Lao Zhong's house the next day. Seeing her daughter surrounded by his father, please don't want it. Her heart is mixed. She is still young and doesn't know yet. His father never wants to go back to this home.
03
After taking a shower, I took my daughter to watch TV in the room. He walked in and asked me if I had any clothes for a bath at home. I said no, you took them away last time. Then he took his daughter downstairs to buy food and went to the car to get clothes. Now the two of us stayed under one roof, even the air was frozen, which made me feel suffocated.
When his daughter fell asleep, he lay on the bed and played on the phone without making any noise. I couldn't help but hysterically questioning him, what exactly he wanted, what is the meaning of such a marriage, why not divorce, I can't stand it anymore, it's about to collapse. He still looked down at his phone like a okay person, saying that I knew crying,Just know it is noisy, but a good day. Divorce is impossible in this life. He is a child of a single-parent family, and it is impossible for his daughter to live his childhood. No matter how I cry, how hysterical, it seems that everything that happened has nothing to do with him. I am like a clown jumping on a beam, crying and making noises all by myself, from beginning to end he is just a silent spectator. He didn't do anything, but his heart hurts more than cutting my heart with a knife. This is the person I have loved for ten years.
04
We have been together for ten years. I never thought before that he would become like this one day.
The two of us met at the university. He was two years higher than me. He was a senior in my same major. At that time, he was in charge of receiving freshmen. And because we are in the same major, we are more cordial. More contacts. Although we are in the same university, we are on a branch campus. Freshmen are in the west campus and are under closed management. They can move to the headquarters until their sophomore year. Although I went to college, it was basically the same as high school. At that time, I could not bring a computer. I could not go out of school from Monday to Friday. I had to study myself in the morning and evening, which was a bit boring. I told him why our school is so perverted and there is no personal freedom. After that, he found various reasons to approve notes to the teacher every day, and had a good relationship with the door guard. After class, he came from the school headquarters and stayed at the school training ground. After my military training, he took me to play everywhere. Bring me breakfast every morning and collect my favorite books for fear that I will be bored in school. There are many other things, all of which are arranged for me in every detail. He is not tall, not handsome, but makes me feel safe, roses, candles, cakes, he also gives me all the sense of ritual that girls want, so we fall in love.
Together we wandered around every corner of the city and tasted all the snacks. At the end of the first semester, I grew up to 120 kg from 95 kg when I enrolled. At that time, the 600 monthly living expenses his dad gave him could not afford our daily food and fun. He would always find a way to earn some extra money. When I went home during the winter vacation, he went outside to make money and returned to school at the end of the Spring Festival. , He held a large bouquet of roses to pick me up and saw his thin face. At that moment, I thought there would be no one who loved me more and spoiled me more than him. In those two years, although there were occasional quarrels between us, we never doubted. We loved each other deeply.
later,He joined work, I was still studying, and started a long-distance relationship. He is a single-parent family, and the family conditions are very poor, and everything depends on himself. After graduating, he worked very hard, and the result was okay. In less than two years, he had some achievements in his career and was able to make a lot of money. At that time, I was about to graduate and worried about finding a job. He said that he supported me. , Our family does not expect me to make money. I am happy. When we have a baby, I will concentrate on taking care of the baby at home. So when I graduated, I didn't think too much about my work. I went directly to the unit he arranged. The salary was not high, but I was very leisurely.
After graduation, the two places were separated. We began to look at the house slowly, planning to get married, and the two of them took wedding photos together. The white wedding dress and the beautiful flowers are as beautiful as a fairy tale. I look around the house every day and imagine the good life in the future. After watching it for almost half a year, every time I wanted to buy it, he always said don’t worry, don’t be fooled by the real estate sales, and look again, the house is a big deal, and I didn’t think much about it. Later, I became pregnant suddenly, and he took good care of me. I asked when we got married. He said that we must give birth to the child first. We must be tiring to get ready for a lot of things to get married. Moreover, our two families are thousands of miles apart. Working in a field, tossing back and forth, is not good for the child, and the safety of me and the baby is the most important. I said that the marriage certificate must be laid down, or my maternity insurance is useless, tens of thousands of dollars, he still said that it is a small amount of money. Your safety is the most important. At that time, I still didn’t think much. Later, I insisted on getting a marriage certificate, so I went to his hometown for the first time. We talked and laughed all the way on the high-speed rail. When he got off the train, he suddenly asked me to forgive me. He didn't tell me something, please don't be angry, the baby is still young and I can't be angry. He was hiding things from me and it made me thunder. It turns out that we didn’t buy the house for a long time. It was not because the house was not suitable, but because he took all his savings home and built a three-and-a-half-story building for his father in his hometown in the countryside. For a house of nearly 500 square meters, all savings were spent and more than 200,000 foreign debts were owed. I couldn't control my emotions and cursed him as a liar. He didn't love me at all, deceived my feelings, and never considered me and the child a little bit. I collapsed and sat at the train station crying, not going to his house alive, and crying for almost an hour. His cousin called to ask why he hadn’t arrived, and then drove to pick him up.I still couldn't help crying in front of all his relatives. Later, considering the children, we still got a marriage certificate, and from then on we had endless quarrels.
In this way, we got married, no flowers, no wedding, I was pregnant with my child, and with him I was carrying hundreds of thousands of foreign debts. And two months later, our child also miscarried unexpectedly. The last line of defense just collapsed, and then I was depressed. Blaming his dad and hating his deception, we started an endless quarrel. He said that he had hinted at me, but I was indulged in beautiful imagination without noticing it. He didn’t want this either. His father said that if he didn’t go home to make a house, the son would be raised for nothing. The whole village would be his old house. He was looked down upon by others because he was poor, so he decided to go home and build this house. Live for his father.
His father's good son of 24 filial piety fulfilled his filial piety and shattered all the goodness of my life. I can't forgive his deception. If this didn't happen, we should buy a house and get married like most couples, and then wait for our baby to be born happily. The vanity and excessive self-esteem he wanted was also broken because of my crying, and he felt that I had overreacted from beginning to end. He was sorry for me, but it was his father who repaired it for his father. It's right to live in a house. If I am not noisy, our children will not be gone, I am immature enough.
After two years, I have been paying off my debts and arguing. We are reluctant to be separated, and we can't let go of the past. We used to think that our constant quarrels were just too poor and the children were gone. Later, we had our current daughter, bought a house, and had a car, but we still couldn't go back to the past. Our feelings were exhausted in the endless quarrel.
We who have been in love for ten years have turned our marriage into a depository for our children. Mother loves her, and father loves her, but father doesn’t love mother, mother doesn’t love father anymore. This is the kind of love I once believed in. Time has passed and the taste has long since changed.
The best ten years, I forgot about myself, everything revolves around him, my heart is tired, and my feelings are gone. There are a few years in my life, and I will be a child for the rest of my life. When everything is settled, How many years will it be?
05
.a song,The last person perfectly described the end of the story between us. Now we really won't hug each other and turn around and leave, we will just stop there in a daze without talking coldly. How much I love you, how much you love me, in fact we can't tell. We are no longer reluctant to hurt as we used to, but say the most cruel and painful words and say goodbay, you forgot the promise, I abandon the favorite, love, love, we separate like this.
