(The characters in the text are all aliases )
"Hello, I am here to find my sister, is my sister there?"
"I am here! Why are you here?" Yanhong sister is here Shouted inside.
"I'm passing by here, and come to see you by the way. Grandma's birthday the day after tomorrow, you remember to ask for leave."
I asked him to come in and said, he entered the room and sat on Yanhong's bed, keeping his eyes on the bed. Glanced at me and Xiujuan. I took a pair of disposable chopsticks to him and said, "Let’s eat together, we are just starting to eat, don’t dislike it!"
"This is my cousin. I have been like this since I was a child. Don't be polite. Don't blame me!" Sister Yanhong was a little embarrassed when she saw her cousin like this.
"It's okay, Sister Yanhong, you are all a family, what are you polite! Eat quickly, or the dishes will not taste good if they are cold." I smiled rounding the scene and motioned for everyone to eat.
"Let me introduce you. My cousin is Chuanliang, who belongs to my second uncle." Sister Yanhong introduced us to ease the atmosphere. "Chuan Liang, this is An Min, this is Xiujuan. They have been here for a short time. You haven't seen them before."
"Good two beauties, there are two big beauties in my sister's dormitory, and she won't tell me. , Let me know! It’s not interesting enough!"
"Hehe, what a beauty in our place! Thank you for complimenting." I am a little uncomfortable. I have never been stared at with this kind of eyes, and no one is like this. I praised me exaggeratedly.
02
Since that day, Chuan Liang will run to our dormitory every week.
At first, I hated him a lot, but when I got acquainted, I gradually didn't hate him so much. I even started to like him a little bit.
Later, after being matched by Yanhong Sister, Chuanliang and I fell in love.
Four months after being together, I got pregnant unexpectedly. I was so panicked that I didn't dare to tell my mother,Discussed with Chuanliang to kill the child. Chuan Liang didn’t have any money. He went home and asked his mother for money to perform surgery on me. He didn’t expect that after his mother knew about it, he asked him to take me back and insisted that I give birth to the baby. She said that she was born and raised. , We don’t have to worry about it.
It sounds smooth, but something seems wrong!
I asked her: "Auntie, when will we get married?"
"Girl, you are not old enough to get married, and you have children in your belly. Can’t wait, give birth to the baby first, and get married when you are old enough. Don’t worry, even if you are not married, I won’t treat you badly."
"What did my mom say?"
"You find someone Excuse me not to go home, anyway, many people who work outside will not go home for a year or a half, and it is normal!"
Chuan Liang also helped out: "My mom said so, and I will definitely not treat you badly. . Besides, my mother said to bring us a child, so you don’t have to worry about it when you are born. If you kill it, this is your child too, are you willing to do it?"
There was no way to resist, and finally agreed.
03
Before my belly was pregnant, I went home a few times, took some thick clothes, and told my mother that there was a recruit from Beijing, and a classmate was there, I’m going to prepare Go to Beijing to work.
My mother didn't want me to go. She said that Beijing is so big and the consumption is high, and it will suffer a lot if you go there.
I persuaded her that she would suffer a little bit when she was young.
In the end, she didn't scold me, and she agreed! But the worry in her eyes is in my heart.
My belly is getting bigger every day. At four months, I can’t do it anymore. Work in the workshop requires speed and efficiency. Because of the inconvenience of pregnancy, I always want to sleep and doze off. I can’t help it, I can’t do it anymore. Bright family raises a fetus.
During this period, Chuan Liang’s mother still took care of me and often bought me some fruits, but Chuan Liang never took care of me.His mother asked him to accompany me, so he took me reluctantly. He often played games until the middle of the night, and he didn’t work. I asked him why he didn’t look for a job. His reason was that it was too restrictive to work for others. His family contracted 100 acres of land to grow cotton. I can't finish it, why go out and get angry?
Just like that, our expenses are all from his parents, and we dare not ask for too much every time. If it is too much, his mother will slap me off and not give too much. The money I earned during the months I worked was quickly spent during the half-year when I was expecting labor. Sometimes Chuan Liang played games to recharge and asked his mother for money. If his mother didn’t give it, just ask me. I don’t. Yes, he quarreled with me, and finally forced me to give him some each time.
The expected delivery date came in an instant, and the check-ups became more frequent. Chuan Liang didn't have the patience to accompany me. Later, his mother went to the check-up with me at all. The doctor told me that the baby had an incorrect fetal position and was ready for a caesarean section. Chuan Liang's mother heard this, and she muttered, and she didn't stop her mouth all the way. It was nothing more than to make me move more. Maybe the child's position will be adjusted after a few days of birth. More activities are conducive to production.
Three days before the due date, at ten o'clock that night, the amniotic fluid broke. The family drove me to the district hospital quickly. I was on the road for half an hour. I didn't want to move.
When I arrived at the hospital, the doctor sent me to the delivery room and checked me. Osteosynthesis opened two fingers, the baby's fetal position has been normalized, but half a circle around the neck.
By the next morning, it was not fully opened. I was suffering from pain. I weakly asked the doctor if I could get a painkiller. The doctor said to ask my family members for their opinions. The answer they gave was It will affect the child and cannot be beaten. I began to hate them in my heart!
Until the afternoon, I finally opened my fingers, and I gave birth to my son in tearing pain, weighing seven kilograms. When the nurse held it to me, tears came out of my eyes. At this time, how I hope my parents and family can be with me!
04
was discharged the next day,Return to Chuanliang's house for confinement. I want to call my mother, but I dare not call. I feel wronged in my heart, and I don't know who to talk to. Looking at the wailing child waiting to be fed, I have mixed feelings in my heart.
In the afternoon, the two breasts were swollen and painful. The child’s grandmother said that this was about to be breasted and asked me to hold the baby to breastfeed, but the child couldn’t suck it out at all, but I was so painful that I finally used it. The breast pump, finally started to deliver milk.
The child was born, but the attitude of the child's grandmother slowly changed!
The dishes she usually cooks for me are tasteless, saying that I cannot eat salty in confinement, I know this. But she often gave me the leftovers of the family's meals, and then brought them to me to eat after the family had finished eating. At first, I was angry and didn’t eat, but I didn’t have milk if I didn’t eat, and I cried when I was hungry. I felt pain in my eyes. After several resistances, they finally brought me some decent meals, but there were still leftovers. Rice.
A few days later, the child cracked my nipples, and the child bleeds as soon as he eats milk. The child ate all the milk mixed with blood, and I only need to feed the child every time. , The pain instantly spreads from the top of the head to the heel, the pain is no less than the pain during childbirth.
In this way, I passed the confinement under both physical and mental torture, and the grandmother of the child began to mumble about letting me go to work with them after the confinement.
"Xiao Min, your confinement is over. Just after it rained, the cotton in the ground has grown wildly and needs repairing. You can rest for a few more days and go to the ground to repair the cotton with them!"
"Mother-in-law, I have just finished confinement, my body is very weak, and the child is still nursing, I really can't live without it!" I heard her let me go to work, my heart was very angry, 100,000 people did not want to go.
"What's wrong with this? Didn't we also come here at that time? Besides, going out for activities will help you recover!" The grandmother of the child refused to give in.
"I'm not going, I haven't recovered my body yet, I don't have the strength to work!" I'm getting angry too, and I won't be allowed to eat well during the confinement, and it makes me angry every day, and now I am asked to work, this Is it still a human?
"Xiao Min,We have served you deliciously and drankly for so long, so have you been overworked? Where do you make you eat and drink for nothing?" she yelled.
"Am I eating and drinking for nothing? I ate for nothing, who gave birth to the child?"
I quarreled with her, and the grandfather of the child came over and took the grandma away to their bedroom. I vaguely heard him persuading the grandmother of the child: "Xiao Min Gang Out of confinement, the child really needs to take care of her. Don't let her work for the time being. If she gets tired again, don't we have to spend money to treat her illness? Originally, she spent a lot of time to give birth to a child. Don’t embarrass her too much!”
In this way, with the persuasion of the child’s grandfather, I did not go to work for the time being.
05
The weather is getting colder , I didn’t have the right clothes to wear. After giving birth, the baby gained more than 20 kilograms fatter than before. I couldn’t wear the clothes before. I asked the grandma of the child for money to buy clothes. Unexpectedly, it caused her dissatisfaction again. I had a fight, but Chuan Liang just watched the excitement next to him, and would say something cool from time to time, and would not help me at all. In the end, the grandfather of the child gave me two hundred yuan and asked me to go to the store to buy two. It’s a piece of clothing that has stopped our quarrel.
Until the child is more than three months old, my mother called to ask me when to go home. I haven’t been home for almost a year, and I can’t help it anymore.
"Mom...I am stupid by myself... I was wrong... You scold me!" "I couldn't cry on the phone.
"Is it useful for me to scold you?" Everything is like this. How can I scold you to save the past? You tell me the address, and your dad and your brother will go now!" My mother yelled furiously on the other side of the phone.
Actually I am away The home is only more than 40 kilometers away. My parents and my brother drove there in more than 40 minutes.
When the two families met, when the swords were drawn at the beginning, my mother raised her eyebrows and accused them: "Why lie to my daughter to give birth to your family?" "
His mother said: "We didn't lie to her, Xiao Min was willing, and the two children have a good relationship.I want to give birth to children after I am pregnant. This is a life. I can’t help them.”
My mother asked them: “Then why not get married?”
His mother said: “Two children The age is not enough, the child is already pregnant, can't wait! When they are old enough, we will hold a wedding for them!"
Faced with the fact that the child was born, my mother compromised and sat down to discuss the marriage with them, but here is not willing to give a gift.
Finally, the grandfather of the child said that he is a family Discuss again and give an answer when the discussion is over. The quarrel will be over.
My dad said he would take me back to live for a few days. My mother said, "I haven't had a wedding and have children. Xingzi drowned! I will see her again in a few days and bring her some food!" Finally, my parents left me with two thousand dollars and left and asked me to buy some decent clothes.
06
As the child grows up, there are more and more conflicts between me and the grandmother of the child. She will not let me go out to work, let me grow crops with them, and will not give me money.
I was obsessed with online gambling when I was 10 years old. Before I knew it, I stole over 200,000 yuan of savings from my family and lost everything overnight.
The grandmother of the child knew that she would be seriously ill in the future. She was not sick yet. Okay, Chuan Liang was arrested for theft.
This house is completely over. I want to take my child back to my natal house. The grandmother of the child will not let me take it away, but this house is like this, she My temper is getting bigger day by day.
One day, I said to buy a pair of shoes for myself and my child. She was so furious that she didn't give me a penny. She scolded me over and over again while scolding Chuan Liang, and vented all the grievances against Chuan Liang. It came to me.
The grandfather of the child saw that the more noisy he got, he took three hundred yuan to me. I didn't go far, but when they heard the two of them arguing, the child was so scared to cry.
I Turned back, threw the money on the table, took a few pieces of clothes, and returned to her parents’ home. I knew that as long as the grandmother of the child was still there, she would not let me take the child away.
I communicated several times later,She refused to pass the child to me. It has been seven years now, and I have never seen a child again! Only when I dream back in the middle of the night can I hear the child calling my mother...
I woke up from this nightmare, but the thought of the child has been torturing me...
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