The current relationship is really tasteless. It is painful to force it to break or let it go.
During this period, the epidemic rebounded in a small scale. Although small places like ours have always been low-risk areas, considering that in case of accidents, unforeseen things happen in the flow regulation traceability, the result is that we can't bear it. , So the private meeting was suspended. For about half a month, the daily chat did not show stronger feelings. If it is not for work reasons, I may not contact me for two or three days.
Two days ago, maybe it was because I hadn’t seen each other for a long time, or I met in the car. I just hugged and talked about some things about the unit. I can feel that he is If you want to happen, you should have said that if a man needs sex, he will find you in any way.
I told him, it’s Chinese Valentine's Day soon, won’t you accompany me? He said that he had something that day and he could accompany me one day in advance. I said that I had an appointment with someone else, and something happened, and then changed to Sunday. He said that he came back early in the morning just to be with me.
Not long after I got on the bus, I asked jokingly, shouldn’t you bring a flower to see me? A chocolate is fine. He said directly, “I’m here as a gift.” , To be honest, I won’t have any interest in playing again later.
I feel that I am not a materialized person. Ordinary things like flowers and chocolates are actually a bearer of a sense of ritual, but sometimes I just need these to reflect what, after all, I once told him, It’s okay to buy something in the supermarket during the festival.
It was close to noon, and I said to take me home. He said that he would accompany me to lunch, but I refused. I really didn’t want to eat with him. I was surprised at my own thoughts. If it was before, I will be very, very happy,I just want to be with him, after all, I like him so much. But at the time, I was really bored.
When I got home, I reviewed our relationship carefully. From a monetary point of view, he did not lose. Generally, he only pays cash. I am responsible for all online expenditures, but now I usually do It’s the online payment; the gift is only once. He saw that I was really angry. The supermarket bought one, which is worth a little more than a hundred; and the intangible investment of emotion, I have more chances than him; other things are to my career. The tangible help on the job is limited, almost none, so I have always known that I can only rely on myself for my career.
The current mode of getting along has been solidified. His emotional investment is no longer highly focused, and the emotional value provided cannot meet my needs. Thinking about it carefully, it is not that my requirements are high, but that his investment is getting less and less. .
In the past, he drove me away. He usually watched me enter the building before leaving. Now it is the moment I get out of the car, he will leave. I used to send messages most of the time to find him. I don’t know when, except for work during working hours, he rarely returns me messages. A few days ago, I accidentally confirmed that he set Do Not Disturb, hahaha, at that time His mood is "sorrowful."
Recall that after eight hours, I really didn't send him many messages, because I knew that he had a lot of meals and a lot of cards, and there were a lot of inconveniences, but the setting of Do Not Disturb really shocked me. Think about it, in fact, there is nothing wrong with him. Protecting himself is also protecting me, hahaha.
From meeting him on Sunday, to now, I suddenly became bored with him and this relationship for no reason. In fact, I have always known that the heights of my thoughts cannot be synchronized with him. After all, there is a round and a half age gap. So every time I meet, I feel like naked sexual attraction and demand. I even teased him every time. Once you’re satisfied, you don’t need to contact me for the next two days. Later on,He may be trying to prove that my feeling is wrong, he will send me a symbolic message, I will not reply, there is no text.
This relationship is getting more and more disgusting to me. On the other hand, what can we talk about? With different circles and different experiences, there is really nothing to talk about about those units. Moreover, I found that in the process of getting along with him, sometimes I couldn't express my true thoughts in my work and life, so I wanted to maintain some decent image in his impression.
Maybe this kind of boredom will last for a while, maybe it will last for a long time, I hope it will last for a long time, so that it’s not far from ending this relationship.
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