Narration / Ms. Zhang, 52 years old, currently lives in Suzhou .
Chief Writer / Tuantuan Editor / Mu Mu
It's been a long time since I went out. The Suzhou sun is very good. I walked out of the house and met an old sister who had known each other for 20 years.
The old sister asked me with concern, what happened to make me so haggard? I don't know how to speak.
But my heart is still like a stone, I can't breathe, I don't vomit. I have been reading "Ugly Stories", knowing that your "Ugly Stories" had just moved to Hangzhou, and I found them by myself.
Daughter Xiaoxi has been in love with her boyfriend for 7 years and plans to hold a wedding on New Year's Day, but two weeks before the wedding, a huge change has occurred.
I haven't dared to close my eyes for several nights, and I feel anxious and angry. The last thing I want to see is that what happened to me back then is repeated here with my daughter.
01 A daughter far away in Australia has a roommate
Xiao Xi has been very well-behaved since she was a child. She is a quiet and beautiful child. We never have to worry about learning.
When Xiao Xi was in high school, we decided to send her to Australia to study, first take a one-year language class, and then attend a local university.
Xiao Xi is not sociable. Being alone, I am afraid of her being alone, and I video with her every day. Her father is busy at work and rarely stays at home. Xiao Xi is my spiritual support. I always feel that as long as she is good, I can do anything.
Soon after entering the university, when Xiao Xi and I video chat, she occasionally mentioned a "male classmate who can sing very well". I asked her if she was in love, but she didn't admit it.
After a while, Xiao Xi moved out from the original host family and said that she was living with friends, so she was more free. But every time I want to see her "roommate" in the video, Xiao Xi always says that the roommate is not there.In other words, roommates are embarrassed to appear on the scene.
I suspect that Xiao Xi has made a boyfriend. This matter is inseparable.
On the one hand, I am worried that pure Xiao Xi will be deceived and hurt; on the other hand, if there is a boy who really takes care of her and loves her, that would be a good thing.
Freshman year Christmas, Xiao Xi is back from Australia. There was the "male classmate" who came back with her.
On the day Xiao Xi returned to China, my husband and I rushed from Suzhou to Shanghai Hongqiao Airport to pick up the plane. From a distance, I saw Xiao Xi walking out with a boy talking and laughing. The boy's dress is very fashionable, a bit Korean. He is not tall, has single eyelids, thin lips, long hair and bangs covering one eye.
Seeing me and Xiaoxi's father, the boy did not speak. He just looked at us and put his head off.
Xiao Xi is very enthusiastic. She has been looking for topics with him and said that she wants to show him all over Suzhou.
The boy has a cold expression and doesn't talk much. I have been wearing headphones, but the headphones seem to be just a pair of decorations for him, and he doesn't look like listening to music at all.
To be honest, my first impression of the boy was not good. The daughter seemed to be more active, but he ignored it. I am afraid that my daughter will suffer with him.
I invited Xiao Xi and her "male classmate" to come home for dinner.
At the dinner table, I asked Xiao Xi how long he and the boy have known each other. This time, Xiao Xi generously admitted that he is her boyfriend, and they have been together for a year. The boy is from Nanjing, one year older than Xiao Xi, and his parents are businessmen who work in the hotel industry.
But the boy just nodded and immersed himself in the meal, without any other sign.
My husband and I looked at each other, filled with doubts and puzzles. I asked the boy what he planned for the future.
didn't expect him to say something like this: "I don't know, take one step and count one step."
The air suddenly stagnated. My face must be ugly at this time. I feel that he is very irresponsible and has no plans.
Xiao Xi said that they will take the postgraduate entrance examination together and continue to study in Australia.
The boy whispered: "I don't know if I can pass the exam..." After
,I don't want to say a word, so I clean up the table and wash the dishes. Xiao Xi approached me and asked in a low voice: "Mom, what do you think of him?"
I looked back at the boy lying on the sofa playing with his mobile phone, shook my head and said, "Not so much."
In the next few days, Xiao Xi went out early and returned late. She spent almost all the time playing with the boy, visiting the main attractions in Suzhou. She also bought many souvenirs for the boy's parents.
After a week of playing, the boy returned to Nanjing. Xiao Xi finally had the opportunity to stay at home for a while. After dinner, I talked to her.
"Xiao Xi, mom thinks you should think about it again. There are many excellent boys, so you don't have to decide so early..."
"Mom, I just like him. He sings very well. There are many Chinese students in our school. I know him, he is a celebrity in our circle."
"Xiao Xi, he doesn't seem to care about you very much, he has no plans for your future..."
Xiao Xi interrupted me and said: " Mom, we are still young. Now we are mainly reading books. Who knows the future?"
I think this boy is unreliable. I am afraid that my daughter will be unfair to others.
But this is my daughter's choice, I dare not intervene too much. I have already tasted the bitter fruit of parents overly interfering in their children's emotional affairs.
02 Threatening daughter to break up with her boyfriend
When I was in my twenties, I also had a "vigorous" love.
He and I are classmates, we love each other very much. He was born in a rural area and the family conditions were not very good. After his parents knew about it, they strongly opposed it.
With a "try it" mentality, I take him home. Sure enough, his mother turned him away, leaving only one sentence: "Want to marry my daughter? You are not worthy!" She closed the door heavily.
I have cried, made trouble, and sat down to have a deep conversation with my parents, but my mother was very tough and asked me to break up with him, otherwise I would not go back to this house. The mother said that he must be right in order to find someone, and he is by no means a good match.
Mother won't let me go out to see him, nor let us talk on the phone. I wash away with tears at home every day, lamenting God's injustice, why should we abruptly break us apart... Our love is finally broken.
I also don't want Xiao Xi to follow my old path. As long as they truly love each other, I will not be the "murderer" who broke them up.
After Xiao Xi returned to Australia, I would ask the boy every time I video with her. But the boy never showed up, either hiding in the room to play games, or "going out to meet friends".
Once, when Xiao Xi was videoing with me, she cried as she talked, and my heart became tense and asked her what's wrong. She said that recently boys always come back late, for fear that they are in love with other girls.
Seeing Xiao Xi shed tears, I feel distressed.
I stubbornly believe that the reason my daughter suffers so much grievance is because of this boy. This time, my attitude was very firm: "Daughter, listen to what mom said, let's break up, he is a person who only cares about himself and is irresponsible to you."
Xiao Xi cried and said, "Mom, he is not like that... _P2p
When I heard Xiao Xi still talking for him, the fire in my heart burned to my throat. Just about to have an attack, Xiao Xi said that the boy was back and hung up the video in a hurry.
Xiao Xi, like me, has a stubborn personality and always thinks of things as a stick. But can the person she recognizes give her happiness? Is she trustworthy?
The next Christmas, when Xiao Xi returned to China, the boy didn't come with her and flew back to Nanjing, saying that he was going to travel with friends for half a month.
After Xiao Xi came home, I kept my face calm. She was not in a good mood, locked in her room and couldn't get out.
This time, I must convince Xiao Xi to break up with the boy. I told her that long-term pain is not as good as short-term pain. A bad relationship is like a rotten apple. The longer it goes, the deeper it will rot.
I knocked on Xiao Xi's door. She had just cried and her eyes were red and swollen. I was also uncomfortable, there was something stuck in my throat, and I couldn't vomit or swallow.
I sat down next to Xiao Xi, patted her back lightly, and said, "Hurry up and break up with this person, he is not worth it."
"Mom, just leave my business alone, you don't understand. "Xiao Xi turned her face away abruptly, as if not getting in.
As if an inexplicable force suddenly dominated me, I stood up and said loudly: "Your wings are stiff, and you won't listen to what mom said. Do you have to behave yourself and post others? You don't want to talk to him. Break up,Don't go back to this house, and don't recognize my mother! _P2p
I turned around and left after speaking. My head buzzed and blood rushed up. I slammed the door, rushed out of the house, walked out of the complex, and came to the street.
aimlessly, I didn’t know I was gone. How long. A cold wind blew, and yellow leaves all over the ground. I had a cold war.
I suddenly realized that what I said to Xiao Xi just now was just like what my mother said to me back then. No room left.
I sat down on a bench by the river and remembered a lot of the past, the past that I had worked hard and struggled with for my feelings, as well as my unwillingness, regrets and regrets.
When I got home, it was already dark. Xiao Xi and his father were not at home. I found the phone in the bag I threw on the sofa. There were dozens of missed calls, all of which Xiao Xi made.
I dialed the phone and heard Xiao Xi's gasping voice: "Mom, where have you been? Dad and I have been looking for you for a long time, and we are all anxious to death! "_P2p
"I just went out for a walk and forgot to bring my mobile phone. It's windy outside, come back soon..." I said.
Isn’t it too much to run away from home?
Yes, I was wrong, I overdoed it. I failed to control my emotions and behavior, and at a critical moment, I became an object of resistance—a arrogant one. _P2p
03 I received a text message from her boyfriend on the eve of the wedding
. Four years have passed. In the summer, Xiao Xi and the boy both graduated from postgraduate studies and are preparing to return to China for development.
The boy works in a construction engineering company in his hometown of Nanjing. I travel a lot and go there for a few months. Xiao Xi was admitted as a civil servant in Suzhou. Near the unit, she bought a two-bedroom new house, and my husband and I paid the down payment.
Xiao Xi said that they planned for New Year's Day The wedding is held. The boy is busy at work, and she handles all the wedding matters.
Two people can finally get married and spend a full moon, of course it’s good. Xiao Xi is very excited, but there is always a faint anxiety and pull in my heart.
" You work in two cities, where will your home be? "I asked worriedly.
"It should be Nanjing, his father owns a lot of real estate in Nanjing," Xiao Xi said.
"Then what about your job in Suzhou, do you want to quit and go to Nanjing?"
"Nanjing does not have a suitable job for me at the moment. I will work here first and return to Nanjing on weekends. It is also very convenient." Xiao Xi Say.
"The separation between husband and wife is not a long-term solution. Having children is even more troublesome..." The more I thought about it, the more anxious I became.
"The future...there is always a solution!" Xiao Xi said.
"Why didn't he come to think of a solution? He didn't think about you at all. Whether it's work, buying a house, even the wedding is done by you alone, what did he do?" I said, getting angry.
"He is busy at work, he runs all over the country, I have a little more time, I can do more..." Xiao Xi said.
Going on, it's going to quarrel. I shut up.
The wedding is getting closer, Xiao Xi is busy preparing for the wedding as she goes to work: ordering banquets, buying wedding candy, watching wedding dresses... the boy never showed up. I even accompany her to choose the wedding ring.
One afternoon in the middle of this month, I was at work and suddenly received a call from Xiao Xi.
"Mom, can you come home now..." On the other end of the phone, Xiao Xi's voice was choked and trembling.
My hand holding the phone is a little unstable, and I hurriedly asked: "What happened?"
Xiao Xi has hung up the phone.
I rush home. When I walked in, I saw Xiao Xi slumped on the sofa, and the coffee table was piled up with crumpled paper balls. She has been crying for a long time.
Just last night, the boy sent a cold message to Xiao Xi: Let’s put the wedding period on hold, I have to think about it again.
Xiao Xi picked up the phone and called.
At first, the boy faltered on the phone, but then he said straightforwardly: He fell in love with a girl in the company, was a work partner, and often went on business together; that girl was also from Nanjing, several years younger.
Xiao Xi cried loudly on the phone, asking why the boy betrayed her.
The boy was very calm and said: "In a foreign country, I have taken care of you for so many years,We owe no one to anyone, so get together and get together. _P2p
In foreign countries, they stayed together every day; less than half a year after returning home, the boy had a new love. It turned out that she was the only one caring about this wedding.
Seeing my daughter crying in tears, I couldn’t say a word. , Thousands of words turned into tears. I can only cry with Xiao Xi.
I know that she can't listen to any comforting words at this time. All I can do is stay by her side and guard her.
04 Will the mother’s love story repeat itself on her daughter?
Xiao Xi locks herself in the room every day and does not go out to eat.
When it’s time for dinner, I will put the food in the door of the room. Time to take a look. Sometimes, she will take it in and eat, sometimes, the food is still intact. The next meal I will give her a new one.
At night, I will look through the crack in the door to see her room Is the light turned off? The light is often on until one o'clock in the morning, sometimes it is three o'clock in the morning, and sometimes it stays overnight.
I often put my ears on the door and listen for strange sounds in the room.
I silently Say, Xiaoxi Xiaoxi, don’t do stupid things, don’t be like your mother was when she was young.
That year, after countless quarrels, between my parents and him, I finally decided to choose him. I want to be with him Privately set for life", stole the account book and registered for the marriage.
But just before the agreed date, he disappeared and left a letter.
He said in the letter that his parents had arranged for him in his hometown. A marriage, he is going home to get married.
He said, can’t be with you anymore, your parents gave me too much pressure.
His parents don’t want us to be together.
I’m so The helplessness. Mother said in her ear: "Look, I didn't support this marriage at the time, but it is true now. _P2p
I feel like I have fallen into a bottomless pool.
On his wedding day, I hid at home alone, locked the door, and swallowed a bottle of sleeping pills.
Father smashed it open At the door, I picked up the unconscious me and went to the hospital for gastric lavage.The doctor said that if he was a little later, he would not be saved.
woke up in a hospital bed. Counted as dead once, I decided to completely let go of this relationship.
Before long, I agreed to a man’s proposal, my current husband. He is much older than me, but he loves me very much.
After that, we have Xiao Xi, my most beloved daughter. She is all my sustenance.
When I was learning to walk, I was looking forward to what she would look like when she grew up: a beautiful girl who reaped the happiness that belongs to her.
When Xiao Xi called "Mom" for the first time, I was very excited. I want to give all my love to this child, protect her, and let her grow up carefree.
My daughter is in love. I hope she can find someone worthy of entrusting her for life, who can take care of her and protect her instead of me.
but the ending is so similar. The tragicomedy of life is repeated in the daughter again, like a reincarnation.
It has been more than a week, and I have been with Xiao Xi at home every day, making her all kinds of delicious food, and looking for every opportunity to talk to her more.
All I can do is stay with her and comfort her.
I hope that after this disaster, my daughter will find the home of love again.
Chou Chou said
Use blessings instead of worries to escape the fate of reincarnation
This is really a sad reincarnation. It makes people feel distressed and regretful.
The mother in the article was repented of marriage.
So, she hurriedly married with her unhealed trauma.
She treats her daughter Xiao Xi in every possible way and takes care of her carefully. She does not want her to suffer any harm, especially emotional harm.
She takes care of her daughter with fear and worry.
The daughter who is protected by her mother 360 degrees without blind spots, does not understand the world, does not have the ability to live independently, and has no chance to develop many abilities that should be developed in the process of growing up.
Xiao Xi was so well protected,She lacks the ability to recognize and deal with feelings, the experience of reading people and things, and the ability to heal herself after experiencing setbacks.
She could have gained her own life and emotional wisdom through her experience, but under the overprotection of her mother, she lost the opportunity to grow herself through interventions again and again.
Mom’s fears and worries not only fill up her own life, but also fill up Xiao Xi’s space.
Emotional failure is really painful. But compared to a long life, it was just a setback. Both Xiao Xi's mother and Xiao Xi had the opportunity to repair themselves and regain happiness.
When a daughter encounters an emotional crisis, the mother's fierce intervention without boundaries will only bring greater pressure to the daughter.
Happiness is never given by others, it is only related to oneself.
Looking forward to finding a perfect other half, and bestowing happiness on oneself, is the illusion of beautiful flowers.
Parents only need to manage their own lives and let themselves have the ability to be happy, and the child will naturally look for her own happiness.
Only by giving children enough space and letting them experience the ups and downs of this world by themselves can children have inner growth. Allow the child to fail, and she will gain wisdom and happiness in frustration.
An emotional failure does not mean a lifetime failure. As a mother, as long as she unconditionally supports her daughter emotionally, accompanies and encourages her, she will have the strength to come out of her pain.
Let go, from now on, as long as Xiao Xi’s mother walks out of the shadows of the past, leads a good life in the present, and learns to let go, her daughter will be able to escape her mother’s unfortunate cycle and be healed.
The worries and fears from parents will only dissipate the energy of the child. Only blessings and love that leave space can empower children and let them grow their inner strength to overcome the trials and frustrations of life.
is really lucky for Xiao Xi. Marrying someone who doesn't love her is the greater pain and tragedy in life. Now, the people who don't love her are gone. In the future, Xiao Xi will have the opportunity to meet the person who loves each other, appreciates each other, and is willing to guard her for life.
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