To be honest, I am really afraid of getting infected with COVID-19.
I was terrified during the Spring Festival in 2019.
At around 4 pm on New Year's Eve, my wife and I picked up my daughter from the high-speed rail station. Before we got home, the leader of my daughter's unit called and asked her to return to the unit as soon as possible. My daughter checked the train tickets and had no flights. She asked the leader to ask her to buy the tickets for returning on the first day of the Lunar New Year.
Although the New Year’s Eve dinner was very sumptuous, the whole family was eating endlessly and they were talking about the lockdown of Wuhan. Their lover received a notice that they were not allowed to leave the city, and their daughter kept making calls.
On the first day of the Lunar New Year, I sent my daughter to the high-speed rail. My daughter wore an N95 mask and a disposable raincoat as an isolation jacket. We give her many instructions and remind her to pay attention to safety. On the way home, the highway intersection was already preparing to close. In the next week, I have been paying attention to whether the high-speed rail my daughter is taking has had an epidemic.
On the second day of the Lunar New Year, my wife received the order and immediately packed her luggage and went to the unit to implement a closed office. I was the only one left at home. In the TV and mobile news, there are more and more news in Wuhan, and I am nervous.
I found the thermometer and took my temperature in less than half an hour. The house is deserted, and I feel that the indoor temperature has dropped a lot, so I can't feel warm when I lean on the radiator .
Suddenly, I found that the number of the thermometer rose to 37.3, and my emotions collapsed instantly. When I called my lover, my voice was trembling. My lover comforted me: Don’t worry, keep calm. I suddenly realized something and laughed. The rise in body temperature turned out to be caused by the right arm leaning against the radiator.
On the third day of the Chinese New Year, the leader called me to arrange for me to participate in the community fight against the epidemic. I felt much quieter. Although there was danger in epidemic prevention, I was not so scared after all, I could go out and see people. Wear masks and gloves and start fighting on the front line of the community's fight against the epidemic.
I am afraid of getting infected with the new coronavirus, not because I am afraid of death, but because I am afraid of bad effects. If I am infected, my family, my unit, and my community will be wiped out, the places I have been to will be closed, the people I come into contact with will be isolated, I will be criticized by everyone, and I will be infamous and have been infamous for thousands of years.
In the three years of the epidemic, I dare not visit relatives and friends, I dare not go to large supermarkets, travel, eat in restaurants, shop online, or even go to hospitals when I get sick. I avoided when I see a lot of people. I wear a mask all year round when I go out, and when I get home, I put soap on my hands. My red and round hands were once washed roughly by me.
Once, I had a cold and I didn’t dare to do nucleic acid test , for fear that it would be positive. Later, I checked the information and found that the real cold could not be positive, so I went to do nucleic acid test with peace of mind.
That day, I went to the pharmacy to buy some medicine that would kill fire. When I entered the store to scan the code, a young man also went to buy medicine. After scanning the code, he found that his code was an orange code and asked the pharmacy staff what was going on. When I saw it, I jumped three feet away from him and was extremely frightened: "You are still going out? Stay away from me!" The pharmacy staff quickly called the police, and later found out that the orange code was the reason why the young man did not participate during the sieve in the morning. When I got home, I took a hot shower, disinfected all my clothes, put them in the washing machine and washed them, fearing that I would be infected by the virus.
I used to be like this. Since I was a child, I have never been afraid of dirty work. I have cleaned the toilets at work. I used to like lively and go wherever there are many people, but now, the epidemic has made me like this.
Is there a psychological problem with me? Is there anyone like me? Can you tell me?
