I am a patient with severe depression. I went to the hospital to see a doctor for medicine a few days ago. My attending doctor repeatedly reminded me to go out of the house and go out to bask in the sun more and to bask in enough sunshine.
I have been taking the medicine to treat depression for almost four years. I have become a doctor with some long-term illness. I know that patients with depression should exercise more and contact and communicate more with people, which will help relieve and improve the condition. This is the first time I have heard that more sunlight can improve my condition.
Speaking of sunbathing, I have really lost my time with the sun. The sun is too strong in summer. I love beauty and I am afraid of being tanned, so I basically don’t go out. Even if I have to go out, I will wrap myself tightly with sunscreen , sun hat, and sunglasses.
Now it is slowly entering late autumn. The weather in the north is getting colder. I am afraid of the cold and I don’t want to go out anymore.
The most fundamental reason is: my depression symptoms include social fear; square phobia; fear of sounds; and easy to panic. So I don’t want to go out, I’m afraid of seeing people, I don’t want to communicate with people, I just want to stay at home alone, and I want me to go out for a walk and bask in the sun, which is really difficult for me. Normal people probably cannot understand these.
I have been an obedient child since I was a child, and now I am also an obedient patient. I firmly believe in the words of my attending doctor.
Get up at around 6 o'clock this morning. The thick curtains blocked the light. The room was still hazy, with only a little light.
came to the living room, ah! The rising sun had already passed through the layer of linen tulle and came to my home, gently and soothingly throughout the living room. The white, thin gauze curtain bathed in the morning light, looking elegant and free. I opened a gauze curtain with a "swish" to let myself enjoy the comfort of the morning glow.
The tall buildings in the distance are still shrouded in the undispersed mist, majestic and mysterious, and the various trees nearby are still lush and the autumn is not strong. I looked down and saw that there were already people walking the dog downstairs who were getting up early. The little guy who had been holding it in the night was jumping around in front of his owner.
This situation, if a patient with severe depression usually cannot see the vividness of life. Everything I see is depressed and dull. Or, I wouldn't open the curtains to see the outside world at all, but I kept imprisoning myself in my own small world and didn't want to have any contact with the outside world.
Depressed family members are both anxious and angry, and they are helpless because when you advise patients not to think too much, think about happy things, and go out for a walk more. These kind words of comforting not only fail to be understood by the patient, but sometimes they will arouse his anger, saying, "You can't understand me at all, you don't understand me," or he doesn't say anything, just lazily as if he didn't hear you. At this time, the family felt helpless and very helpless, and didn't know what to do.
I have experienced all these. When my condition was serious, I closed my doors and windows all day long, and the curtains were not opened. I just lie on the bed or on the sofa, and I didn't want to move for a day. When my daughter comforted me, although I heard her words, I thought to myself, "You don't understand my pain at all."
Later, after several years of treatment, I finally got much better now and I have been well controlled, but I occasionally feel depressed. In order to improve the condition and to get better as soon as possible, starting today, I have to go out to bask in the sun every day and have to go outdoors to bask in the sun. The sunlight at home is not good for the human body after being refracted by glass (I heard from the doctor's popular science).
It was past ten o'clock in the morning, and the sun was already very bright. I'm going to set out to bask in the sun outside. Because it had just rained two days ago, an autumn rain and a cold, and the temperature outside was only 18 degrees.
I have always been a pretty person. Although I just go out for a walk and bask in the sun, I will not see anyone. Then I have to dress myself up properly and beautifully.
I chose a pair of pants I bought this spring in the closet - 16-needle imitation full wool knitted wide-leg pants, light brown.She wore a thin olive green bottom shirt on the upper body, a black shirt trench coat on the outside, a pair of black Mary Jane square shoes on her feet, echoing the black windbreaker, and a Raffia woven top hat on her head, which echoed the color with her pants.
I took a look in front of the mirror, it's okay. Haha, after I dressed up like this, I felt that I was not sick.
went downstairs and saw that there were fallen leaves on the ground, but holly tree is still green. The slight autumn wind blows over, a little cool, but it is just right. The sun shines on my body, and I feel like I am surrounded by a layer of warm power.
passed through the fitness square in the community. Some elderly people were stretching with fitness equipment, some were massaged on their backs, and some were doing various exercises on equipment that I couldn’t even name. Some of the children were slid on scooters, some were riding small bicycles, and some were just running around happily.
I walked very slowly, looking at them silently, and could feel the tranquility of the elderly and the happiness of the children. But I didn't have the courage to go among them.
I left the community gate, turned right, and walked through a lively street. Not far ahead there was a relatively secluded woods. During the period when I was in serious condition, I was sometimes very depressed, but I didn’t dare to cry loudly at home. I once entered the woods and wailed loudly, which made me release the pain suppressed in my heart. I like it very much.
I slowly walked in the sun, my thinking was scattered, as if I had something to think, and as if everything was empty, only the scenery, the thing, and the sunshine in front of me!
The grove soon appeared in front of you, with lush branches and leaves, slightly yellowing, dancing in the slight autumn wind, making a pleasant sound.
I looked into the depths of the woods, a tranquility and tranquility. I used to cry bitterly inside on a winter afternoon. Maybe every tree once knew my pain. I have been much better at this time. I wonder if these trees still remember me?
I didn't walk into the woods. I came out to bask in the sun. I sat down on a bench next to the woods in the face of the sun. I sat upright, with my legs together, and my hands spread out and placed them flat on my legs. The burgundy nail polish shines in the sun, making it look particularly enchanting and beautiful. I love burgundy nail polish. I think it is full and strong, which is very suitable for me, a middle-aged woman who is still charming in her fifties.
The warm sun shines on the body warm, without the scorching sun in summer, nor is it like the bleak and thin winter sunshine. The current sunshine is just right, like a girl in her twenties, who has lost her youthful youth and has not been stained with the fireworks of half-old Xu Xiong. So gentle and passionate. She gently stroked my cheeks, my hands, my whole body...
I closed my eyes slightly and bathed in the sun. The warmth entered my heart through every inch of my skin - it turned out that the world was so beautiful.
It turns out that the violence and cold violence in marriage, the abuse has gone away from me as I escaped. Although the scars in my heart are still there, they have scabs. I don’t want to uncover them anymore. I want to take the initiative to isolate the original pain and let the warm sun soothe my heart.
I sat on the bench and in the sun for half an hour. Occasionally, vehicles and pedestrians were passing by, looking at their backs away, and watching them rushing to their future. It turns out that life is still so hot. Although it is difficult, my original intention remains unchanged. I know that I must also work hard, first try to get out of my own haze, and then devote myself to the hot life.
When I got home it was already noon. I felt hungry and made ten fried dumplings for myself. Today's dumplings tasted particularly fragrant because I was in a good mood. I looked at the dumplings I made.
Today I just took the first step to go out for a walk and bask in the sun. I will go tomorrow and will stick to it. I think the so-called sunbathing can improve the condition of depression. It is not the physical effect of sunshine. It should be to change the mood of depressed people. This is the reason why the heart is wide and fat.
walk out of the cage that traps one's heart, accept your current illness, and coexist with it, accept the love of your family, feel the care of your family, and for yourself and for our family, bravely walk into the sunshine, and everything will slowly get better!
Dear patients and their families, although we are sick, don’t be afraid, accept yourself, accept your family, accept all the unhappiness, find the sunshine in the difficulties, embrace the sunshine, and a beautiful life will give those who work hard and never give up. come on! Thank you for your reading, welcome to discuss together.
