At the age of twenty-two or three, I have never been in a relationship, but in those two years there have been constant bad love, which makes me very upset. Serve men, serve families, raise children, no longer have freedom or self.

Original: The sky is high and the clouds are flat

01

At the age of twenty-two or three, I have never been in a relationship, but in those two years, there have been constant bad peach blossoms, which makes me very annoyed.

It seems that I have a scum-absorbing physique, and those who pursue me are ordinary people who are as ordinary as they are.

is indeed all scumbags, which makes me both innocent, ridiculous and even more sad.

To be honest, at that time, I was very confident about my appearance, 163 tall and weighed about 100 pounds, not to mention being arrogant, how could I compromise with these men who don’t have any advantages?

I like tall men. I don’t think about men under 1.7 meters, and I have no plans to get married yet.

Because I have seen too many girls aged 17 or 18, and a 20-year-old girl gave birth to a child like a child, she gave herself to men and children early on.

serves men, serves families, raises children, no longer have freedom, no more self.

So I set my marriage age for myself to be over 25 years old, but if I can meet a good man, I can fall in love first.

I am a very self-disciplined girl. I have many requirements for myself. I can do whatever I can and can’t do. I will clearly state in my heart that I will never do casual things.

So I didn't like any of the boys I pursued, but I didn't like that to me. Fate is really helpless.

But I was not anxious at the time because I thought it was still early. Moreover, I owed my father several thousand yuan, and I had to pay it back first.

Because I don’t believe that I can find a man who will help me pay back the money, and I will never fall in love and get married casually.

I have seen too many unfortunate marriages, as violent as playing with my wife like a missed ball, and as if I were hitting a child.

There are also those who are irresponsible, timid, lazy, eating, drinking, gamblers, selfish, masculinist, etc.

There is also my dad, and a man like my brother must not marry. Marrying is definitely a result of grievance, hard work, helplessness, love, and happiness.

02

There was a boy in my cousin's factory confessing to me, and I rationally rejected him.

That time, after dinner, I went upstairs to the roof to have a breath of air. Because the whole building is lived in by my cousin's factory, people often go upstairs to dry clothes, dry quilts and chat with the hair dryer.

Because they are all acquaintances, there is nothing to shy away from men and women. But when I went up that time, I was the only one, and later a male fellow came up from our county.

He often comes to his cousin's dormitory to play, so I talked to him. He came up and talked to me, and I chatted with him for a while. But since he confessed to me, he said he liked me.

I was shocked and surprised. But I knew I didn't like him at all, so I refused. He said I will continue to pursue you because I like you so much.

I said it was useless, it would be useless to pester me, I would not be moved, he said, what if I were the ones who were tough? I said I would rather die than jump from here.

After saying that, I went downstairs, and later he changed his tricks to buy me midnight snacks every day. But I didn't eat it, so I returned it to him.

Once he went back to his hometown and brought some specialties to his cousin. I ate this because he was for his cousin and it was my favorite snack.

Later when I left my cousin's office, he said he wanted to give it to me. I refused. But a few months later, he still knew where I was from my cousin because there were people from the same village as my cousin.

He knew where my factory was, so he stood at the factory gate waiting for me to get off work. But when I saw him pretending to be unaware of him, I walked straight away and ignored him. He had no choice but to come twice, and he gave up.

and my cousin’s fellow countryman. Maybe my cousin asked him to take care of me, so he just fulfilled the obligation of a fellow countryman.

helps find a house, helps find a factory, and has had fast food twice. Later, after finding a house, a fellow villager's sister also came to find a job and lived with me.

so that I have a companion, looking for a factory, buying vegetables together, and cooking together. Every week, her younger brother and cousin's fellow villagers would bring some fellow villagers from their factory to buy vegetables and cook.

In the two months when I didn’t find anything to do, my cousin’s fellow countryman did help me a little. But he is a very stingy and stingy man.

The heart is as small as the needle eye. He took us to shopping, but he took us to remote streets and did not give us to the market to buy things.

When I went to my cousin's office to get only 150 yuan back after my money was stolen, it was cold and I had not paid my salary. When asked him to borrow money, he bought me a 30-yuan low-quality quilt in the shop at the entrance of the factory.

was confident and threw it out with anger. I don't know where he got his sense of advantage? And the sense of superiority that is high above.

Later he spread rumors in his factory that I was his wife because I entered the main factory and his branch factory, and people from his factory often came to our main factory to transfer work.

Ask me if I am XXX’s wife? I was surprised, it was simply inexplicable. Later, I went to his factory to transfer the shift and heard people say this.

When he came to me again, I asked him, "How can you say that." But he said you are not my wife, but my girlfriend, otherwise how could I lend you money and buy you something?

I said you are so funny, when did I promise you? Besides, if you buy something and I lend you money, the additional purchase is not enough for 500 yuan.

Where can you get the confidence to force me? I said it would be impossible for me to die. He said if I insisted on it, I would say everything and everyone in the factory knew it.

I said that it was your business, you talked to yourself, it was not my fault. If you dare to force me, I will jump from here.

Again, I said this because it was also at the corner of a corridor, and there was no high support for the wall. I didn't deal with him again after

, when he knew that I didn't pay my salary and I didn't have money.

He wrote a note and stuffed it to the door lock. I forced me to return all his money to him within three days, which was only 430 yuan in total.

I can only find a fellow villager in the county who came to have dinner with him and borrowed the money and returned it to him.

When he returned the money, he asked me where the money came from. I said, since you can do that, can you still care?

He said, don't think I don't know. I have been in the same factory as him for several years. I know who he is. He is from a veteran in love. Since you have an affair with him.

I said, don’t throw dirty water around, it’s just a few hundred yuan. If you don’t force me, I don’t have to borrow it from him. Anyway, the salary was paid soon, and he would return it to him after the salary was paid.

03

But what I didn't expect was that the fellow villager who lends money to me was really another man who has made up for me. Although he didn't force me, it was another ridiculous act.

From the time he borrowed his money, he often came to me alone. He said he felt pitiful to me just because I was treated like this, so he wanted to be nice to me.

He also wanted me to be his girlfriend and asked me to go to the movie again and again. After making an appointment for more than a dozen times, I explained to him that I would go with you once for the sake of my fellow villagers.

He said okay, I just accompanied him to see it once. He also often asks me to have midnight snacks, but I don’t go. Only once did I go there by calling other fellow villagers.

Later, I paid back his money after I paid my salary, and he also felt that he didn't come to me so diligently.

But once his brother came and they ordered midnight snacks in the shop at the entrance of our factory.

I asked me to have midnight snacks after work. I couldn't say it, I'm not used to midnight snacks. He said my brother is here and wants to see you.

I was puzzled, what did your brother see me? He said he would meet him if he didn't do anything, and you would come here for a midnight snack and give him some face. Please give me a message.

For the sake of his helping me, I went there. I greeted his brother and asked ok. I rarely talk, but I just listened to them and left after the midnight snack.

Later he told me that it was because he liked me very much, so his brother came to see how I was.

I said so what if I read it, so what if it is okay or not, I won’t agree to be your girlfriend. He was speechless, with a look of embarrassment.

Because I kept refusing, he slowly stopped disturbing me and retreated.

is a manager in my factory, who is a playboy. Every time I meet me, I always call you. I ignored him and nodded at most.

As time goes by, he becomes more and more excessive. He always meets me on purpose and then talks to me. I ignored him and walked away quickly, staring at me and walked away.

Until one time he followed me off work and was about to get to my rented house. Since he ran up and hugged me, he said to be my girlfriend, and I said to be your big head dream.

I kept struggling. Since he came to kiss me, I used all my strength to break free, slapped him twice and ran away. After

, he didn't dare to provoke me anymore, so he went to chase a little beautiful girl in our workshop.

That beautiful girl is still proud of him every day. My boyfriend is so good and how good my boyfriend is to me all day long.

I thought to myself that if you suffer in the future, you will be so naive, you will not even be able to see that the scumbag will be so naive. Of course there are exceptions to

, maybe it is true love? So I could only shut up and let him go with the flow. After

, I returned the rented house and moved to the dormitory in the factory. My fellow cousin also asked me to move all the things he bought back. Although I had to pay it for it, it was useless to give it to me, so I returned it to him.

04

Later, a retired military soldier came to the workshop next to us. He was quite special, more upright, and a gentleman.

When I saw him, my eyes lit up because he was writing poems on the blackboard. Although he is not tall and should not be 1m7, he is still handsome.

Later, we learned that he was my fellow villager, but in different cities, we gradually became familiar with each other, from saying hello to chatting to becoming friends.

A few months later, a security guard in the factory resigned and he went to work as a security guard. I feel that he is a special existence, unlike other men in the factory, he looks like a literate person.

So slowly, I followed him very much, and seemed to have a good impression of him. He also likes me, but is not sure.

Once I accidentally slipped while drying my clothes and knocked my head. He accompanied me to the hospital for medicine. We talked a lot that time and felt like we became good friends.

But our relationship is kept in greetings and chatting, and there is no further development. But with him there, I don’t feel that tired of working and have a happy life.

Suddenly one day, he told me that he had resigned and was going to Shenzhen. I felt it was dark all of a sudden, and I was very helpless, but I could only hope that he would have a good time.

But since he left, everything here seems to have changed. I was in a mood to go to work and I was boring to get off work. I felt that I really fell in love with him.

I quit a job a month later and went to Shenzhen to find him. I thought he shouldn't have surprises, he just thought I was the arrival of an ordinary friend.

I asked him one-sidedly and knew that he didn't like me and already had a girlfriend. Although I was very disappointed, I had no choice but to accept my fate.

Although we did not become boyfriend and girlfriend, we are still good friends because we did not break the paper. I would go out together to play and read books in the library together.

05

05

In Shenzhen, there were tens of thousands of people. I had to queue up for work, eat, and take a bath. There were as many people as Ant , and the beds in the dormitory were all on the third floor.

I was not used to such an environment, and after enduring it for a few months, I still resigned. Later, I entered a factory with hundreds of people, and I like it very much.

And there is also a young, handsome and tall security guard. I met him on the first day of registration. He took me to the office to fill out the form and complete the procedures.

It can be said that I liked him at first sight, with white skin, big eyes, 1m8. height, and a figure of about 150 kilograms.

To be honest, I saw such a handsome guy on the spot for the first time, and he was easy to talk to, so I had a lot of chat with me.

It’s just that he is from Shandong, it’s too far away. At that time, it was difficult for us to accept cross-provincial love.

Every time I go out and buy delicious food, I will give him a serving. He will open the door for me every time. He doesn’t open the other people, so they will open it themselves.

But every time he sees me, he comes from afar and opens the door for me. On several occasions, I went in and out with my colleagues, and he also opened the door.

colleagues said why are you so good today? When he helped us open the door, he said, I opened it for her. It made me blush, embarrassed and moved.

Although I am bigger than him, although that far away? But after careful consideration, I confessed to him. Because of the lessons of the past, I don’t want to be confused anymore, I want to understand clearly.

But he rejected me, he said his feelings were in his hometown. This time it hit me a big blow, and I couldn't believe in love anymore.

I slowly let go of my enthusiasm for him, and the only thing I feel relaxed is that I don’t have to betray my mother anymore, and I don’t have to marry that far away.

It turns out that I have been worried that I have become an ungrateful person. My mother has raised me for so many years, but I can let her go for a strange man from a foreign land.

A month later, he went back to the factory once, and I happened to go to work and saw him coming.

We didn't say hello or stop. He stared at me, and I stared at him, and then he couldn't see it.

After all, we all lost to reality, or because we are young and do not understand love, we will let go of each other.

A year later, I also left Shenzhen. It was the fellow villager I came to send me away for, and it also brought an end to this trip to Shenzhen.

Encourage with friends, good choices and good life, let us move towards a better future together, create our own miracles, and strive for the meaning of life!

May my words warm you up, thank you for reading!

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