If you are the one who will accompany me to the end, then the suffering, pain and despair you have experienced before will no longer be important. You may not have to be the sunshine in my life, but you must be my destination.
Contributor: Wang Xiaoyun (pseudonym)
My name is Wang Xiaoyun. When I was 25 years old, I married my boyfriend who I had been in love with for 7 years as soon as I graduated from graduate school. We started to get to know each other and fell in love since college, and worked hard to get into the graduate school of our favorite university. We were called a fairy couple by our classmates and teachers.
At that time, I was young and beautiful, from a good family, and had a sweet appearance. I have been proficient in piano, chess, calligraphy and painting since I was a child, with temperament and high education. My boyfriend is also talented. As soon as he graduated, he joined a central enterprise to engage in R&D work. He is young and promising, full of energy, and has a promising future.
Because we have been in love for 7 years, our parents are very satisfied with each other. In order to enable us to better develop our careers, we happily held a grand wedding shortly after graduation. The so-called: "First start a family and then start a career."
didn't expect that life after marriage was not as beautiful and romantic as we thought. After getting married, he was busy with work and under great pressure from scientific research. He often stayed home all night in order to get a data. I am also busy with my work, and it is common for me to work overtime.
At that time, we were all young and energetic, and we all wanted to achieve excellent results in our lives. After all, we were used to being excellent since childhood. However, when I walked out of the campus and first entered the workplace, there were mountains outside the mountain and people outside. I suddenly realized that I was no longer so shining and no longer so dazzling. The gap in my heart was indescribable.
We two can spend less and less time together every day and say less and less. There is no considerate care between each other, love communication, and communication becomes more and more impatient, and often quarrels over small matters.
Once, after a big argument, we might have disturbed our neighbors. When we were arguing, we heard someone knocking on the door. I cried so hard that I went to open the door with rain. I saw that it was a handsome and sunny boy. It felt like I had returned from studying abroad. I said very gentlemanly and gentlely, "Sorry, I am really too noisy to sleep, and the sound of your crying makes people feel uncomfortable."
I didn't answer or say anything. I just looked at him and closed the door again. I walked to the bathroom, turned on the faucet, and let the water wash itself numbly.
We love each other deeply, but we were all too young at that time, and our edges and corners were too hard. We didn’t know how to bow our heads for love, and no one would give in. In the days to come, we will quarrel more and more, and the love and beauty of the past will be constantly suffocated in the quarrels.
However, that neighbor seemed to be paying attention to me. When I was at work in the morning, I often encountered it in the elevator. I never speak, and there is no smile on my face. He seemed very embarrassed and wanted to say hello to me, but he always wanted to speak but stopped. In this way, life is living day by day.
However, in life, some people and some things are missed or done wrong, the consequences will never be restored. This is the so-called price to be borne by young recklessness, lifelong regret and regret.
One night, when I was staggering back home after work, dragging my tired body, I was about to change my shoes, but my phone suddenly rang. It was a strange phone call, but I will never forget it for my life.
called by the traffic police, saying that he had a very serious car accident and was unconscious and in danger of his life. He asked me to rush to the hospital immediately. My trembling hands were at a loss. I paused for a few seconds, and suddenly burst into tears, shouting "No...!" and then stumbled into the corridor, pressing the elevator's hand for countless times.
At that moment, I finally realized how much I love him. Endless regret and tears hated what I had been doing for so long, except quarreling with him or quarrel.
I feel that time and space are so slow. The elevator finally drove, and I fell in and hit someone.It was the man from the neighbor. Seeing that I was pale, he asked anxiously, "What's wrong with you? What's going on?" This was the second time he talked to me. I don't know what he said, but he didn't get out of the elevator anyway, so he accompanied me to the hospital.
Along the way, my deaf-like eyes and expressions are probably unforgettable for him. He looked at me from time to time, but he was helpless. He just patted me on the shoulder, the only thing he could do was drive the car to the fastest speed. It took me half an hour to get to the hospital, and I felt like I had walked for a century. My husband at that time ran into a large truck not far from home, and he was obviously distracted while driving.
When I arrived at the hospital, he was no longer breathing and his heart stopped beating. I didn't see him for the last time. I hated myself and I wanted to slap myself. Why do I quarrel with him every day for some trivial matters? "I don't know which tomorrow or an accident will come first, so cherish the person in front of you." Why do we put it all behind when quarrel?
I lay on my lover and cried loudly, asking him to wake him up, but just saying that you should not fall asleep like this. When you wake up, I will never quarrel with you again. However, my cold body never responded to me again.
In the dark night, you can no longer see the moon, and in the bright morning, you can no longer see the sun.
Three days later, my love will be buried in that cemetery forever. I touched the cold and hard tombstone and didn't know how to tell it.
On a sunny morning, I packed up my room, made a simple breakfast, made two servings, and quietly placed it on the dining table. Then, he walked towards the window with a smile, and the white gauze curtain swayed gently in the wind. I closed my eyes slightly and said softly, "Don't be afraid, I'm here, you will never be lonely again."
I didn't feel the wind or sinking, but I felt that I was hugged hard by a big hand and threw it back heavily on the ground. My body pressed against a soft and strong body.
"Are you crazy? Why do you do this! You know, once you jump down, it will make the people who love you so sad, how can they still live!" I don't know what happened next to
. When I woke up, it was midnight. I saw me lying on the bed with yellow lights on in the room, a man was guarding me, his hands tightly holding my hands.
I suddenly pulled out my hand and he woke up suddenly. He asked with concern: "You want to wake up, are you hungry? I'll make some food for you."
I stared at him blankly, unable to say a word. He could see my nervousness and anxiety, and he felt my pain and sadness. He hurriedly said, "Don't talk, don't move, I'll give you a hot cup of milk."
After a while, he brought a cup of hot milk and handed it to my hand. I drank it because, I felt like I was exhausted, my throat was so dry that I couldn't make any sound.
I am like aphasia , without vitality, without words, empty eyes, and as if I have died. But he suddenly said gently: "Listen, I know I'm saying this is not suitable now, but I just want you to survive. I have liked you for a long time. I am your elementary school classmate, the boy who was bullied by his classmates, and the inconspicuous boy who blocked me and stood up for me."
"Once upon a time, when you stood in front of me and angrily scolded those who bullied me, you were in my heart. It was you who made me start working hard and want to become excellent and strong."
"I was not in the same school as you in junior high school and high school because my family moved. However, in college, I tried hard to get into the university where you are, but you no longer know me. God has not given me a chance to protect you. I can only watch you silently behind people."
"You got into graduate school, and I got into graduate school, but I went abroad to make myself more capable of protecting you. But I only realized that you were married after graduation."
" However, my heart cannot deceive myself. I just want to protect you, it's better to be silent. After inquiring from many sources, I became your neighbor. I have loved you for many years. I want to protect you for the rest of my life. I want to love you for many years. You come back to life. "
" In fact, the past, the elevator encounters were not accidental, but my intentional encounters. I just wanted to see you. I know the time you go out every day. When it was time to come, I went to knock on your door. Later, I found the security guard and broke into the door. "
" No matter what, you must live well, and your life has just begun to bloom. I will always protect you. "
At that time, I felt like I was acting in a TV series. I felt like God was an old man who loves to joke and was teasing me. I walked out of the room silently and fell on the sofa. I was stunned.
He accompanied me every day, cooked all kinds of delicious meals for me and chatted with me, but he chatted alone without any response from me. However, he was never bored.
Half a year later, I returned to normal. I no longer sought death. I felt warmth in my heart and hope of living. But, I I don’t know how to face this sudden accident. I still meet you by chance every day. I still don’t speak, he is still gentle and gentle.
How should I spend my life?
. Do you think I should promise him?
The most luxurious thing in my life is to meet you on the way, then support each other, smell the fragrance of flowers, and in my lifetime, I only tell you warmth but not sadness, meet you in my heart, and accompany you with warmth.
