Hello everyone! I am talking about life with words, and I hold the pen in my hand to share the trivial things in life with you, taste the ups and downs of life, and the mood of the four seasons.
(For the convenience of narration, the whole text is in the first person)
Sometimes Responsibility and responsibility is more than anything else. For the elderly parents and for the deceased brother, I should give up and should not give up all of them abandon ...
In the eyes of outsiders, the fact that I marry my sister-in-law is full of sarcasm and ridicule . There are too many filthy words in the village poured into my ears, but I didn't know that behind their making fun of me was the I swearing into my stomach.
I endured so many rumors just to make my parents feel at ease . I believe that for my brother who has died, he will definitely understand my difficulties , and for my sister-in-law, I gave her what she called a "complete home"!
Things start from three years ago.
After my brother got married, in order to make more money, he left home with people from the same village to work outside. He worked in a factory that produces auto parts. When he came home during the Chinese New Year, he carefully brought gifts to everyone.
Happy days are always short, and the year has passed quickly, and it is time for my brother to leave home and go to work in another place.
Two days before my brother left, we brothers drank and chatted together. My brother was still imagining a bright future. He told me
"Work for another three to five years, and after returning home, I opened an electric car store. If I don't have enough money, I'll just go to the credit union to borrow tens of thousands of dollars. No matter how prosperous the city outside is, there is no home in that city. I always talk in my heart. It's better to stay at our own home. It's better to stay at our own home. It's better to stay at our own home. It's better to be warm and happy..."
After the first month of the year, my brother and his fellow villagers walked together and embarked on the road to work in the south again. I never expected that my brother would go to the future and become our forever .
The brother died unexpectedly in that city, causing the whole family to fall into deep grief.
The compensation for the death of my brother, but my parents were worried about the compensation. If I didn't give my sister-in-law the money, I would be uneasy and condemned her by the conscience , but I gave my sister-in-law the money. This was exchanged for my son's life, and I was unwilling to accept it...
The parents were thinking about it and were in trouble with how to deal with the compensation. When they were hesitant, the sister-in-law who was eating at the dinner table suddenly felt disgusted and started to retching. As a person who had experienced it, my mother immediately realized that her sister-in-law was very likely to be pregnant.
After taking my sister-in-law to the health center for examination, I confirmed that my sister-in-law was really pregnant this time, and it has been almost two months. It is definitely good news for my mother. She has been hoping that my brother can have a child for several years. Today, finally got what she wants and .
The pregnancy of my sister-in-law brought a glimmer of hope and courage to the mother who was on the verge of collapse of . It was like a dark night, torn a hole by the faint light and saw the light of hope.
Mother held the examination results with tears in her eyes , and called her brother's name one after another. I knew that my mother was crying happiness, but happiness was immediately replaced by worried .
The brother is gone now, is his sister-in-law still willing to leave the child in her belly?
With this Concerns , my mother planned to give all the compensation from her brother to her sister-in-law, just thinking that her sister-in-law could keep the child in her belly, whether it was a man or a woman, it was also considered that my brother left this only bloodline.
After making this decision, the mother began to worry about other things that might happen. What if the sister-in-law remarries after giving birth to a child? This pension became the private property of my sister-in-law, and she also has the right to take it away, but she did not give the money to her sister-in-law, and was worried that her sister-in-law would knock out the child in her belly at any time.
Although my sister-in-law always said that she would keep the children and would always be a family with us, my sister-in-law is still young after all, and her life is still long in the future. Who can guarantee what will happen in the future?
So, my parents quickly found me to talk to
That night, my father and mother's expressions were very serious . My father was pacing in front of me, smoking a cigarette. My mother's cramped look made me realize what they wanted to say and felt embarrassed. didn't know how to speak.
I was also a little at a loss, so I just opened my mouth to break the silence
"Mom, just say whatever you have, just say it directly, I am your son, you are my biological mother, you can't say anything you can't say anything."
But after waiting for a long time, no one from my father and mother spoke. I felt that the air around me seemed to have become solemn , and the room was so quiet that it seemed that a needle could be heard.
Finally, my mother spoke slowly,
"Gangzi, my father and I have discussed it and want you to marry your sister-in-law."
I heard this and thought this idea was really very absurd . I just felt that this scene would only appear in TV series, but I didn't expect it to happen at my home.
I hurriedly said
"Dad, mom, it's not that my son is unfilial and disobedient. I really can't marry my sister-in-law. The spitting stars of the villagers will drown me. If this happens, how can we behave in the village in the future?"
"Gangzi, don't worry first. Your father and I have thought about it. You use this money to join your aunt and buy a house in your aunt's county town. The house will be written by your sister-in-law. The name of the child born in the future is worthy of your dead brother and your sister-in-law
Your sister-in-law is a good girl. I also want her to be our wife, but she is still so young. Even if she has a child, she cannot be a mother. strong dominance . She will not let her leave and not let others remarry!
Only when you marry your sister-in-law can you make your sister-in-law like this person forever Stay in our house!
Mother just has this plan. Let’s talk about the future later. Let’s talk about what’s happening first!
You have the technician of electrical welding , and you can find work everywhere. You can live in your aunt’s county town first, so that your sister-in-law will not make the children in her belly. We are still a family. Don’t you remember your brother’s good to you during his lifetime? Is this a matter after your brother died Do you refuse to do love for your brother? At least let your brother's blood be kept!
A hundred years later, at least someone will burn a piece of incense to his grave in front of his grave. Your father and I are both old, so what else can we hope for? This white-haired man has already killed your mother for most of his life. You are still so stubborn..."
After saying this, my mother sobbed .
I opened my mouth and wanted to say something, but I still didn’t have the courage to speak again, so I had to lower my head.
"Mom knows to do this is wronged you, but in this situation at home, your father and I really can't think of a better solution. Your father and I just want to leave this blood for your brother, and I want your sister-in-law to stay in our house forever.
The child has no biological mother after birth pitiful . The child follows his mother. If his mother remarries, he will have a stepfather. After he has a stepfather, the child will be pitiful. It is your sister-in-law who does not remarry. She will take care of the child for the rest of her life. When the child is in school, other children laugh at him for not having a father and the child is suffering...
If we are still a family, then the child will not face such grievances when he grows up. He has suffered innocently for adults, and your sister-in-law will not live so hard. If you can give your child a complete home, let’s try to give your child a complete home!
Gangzi, I beg you..."
As my mother slowly kneels down in front of me, I quickly stepped forward and hugged my mother.
That night, I ran to my brother's grave like crazy and cried to tell my brother what happened just now. I don't know when my sister-in-law stood in front of me, looking at my sister-in-law with a haggard face. I don't know how much she heard what I said just now?
I saw my sister-in-law crying and said
"He Gang, don't worry! I will not abort this child. He is your brother and my child. My only child. If I abolish this child, I will be condemned by the conscience of in my life. And you told my parents that I didn't want all your brother's pension. After all, it was the money your brother exchanged for his life. Mom is so old, and the pain of losing a child in her old age makes them sad. I can understand whatever they do..."
Looking at my sister-in-law who is so reasonable , I shed two lines of tears without realizing it.
In this way, I was in conflict and helpless. In order to have a good family, I had to come to my sister-in-law's small county town with my sister-in-law, bought a house and settled the house. I also relied on my own skills to support my sister-in-law and the children in her belly.
Later, my sister-in-law successfully gave birth to a baby boy, and her eyebrows were exactly the same as my brother. My mother came to serve my sister-in-law during confinement. She watched my mother hold the child and burst into tears. She kept talking to her mouth
" Chunfang, you are the benefactor of our whole family !"
Sister-in-law said in tears
"If He Tao was still there, how happy he would be to see his son..."
Sister-in-law said as she said She burst into tears and burst into tears. My mother quickly advised her to
"Don't cry during the confinement period. Crying is not good for your eyes, and the child eats your milk. You let Xiaotao have a son and a continuation of blood. He can keep his eyes open even if he knows it." The people here don't know the specific situation and think that my sister-in-law and I are husband and wife, but we both did not get a marriage certificate , and my sister-in-law and I have always adhered to our duties , , and we are clean and have never done anything contrary to morality or conscience.
I want to slowly tell my parents about this, so as to save them from being worried when they know the truth.
I want to wait for my little nephew to grow up a few years later. I can also retire from with success and . I hope my parents can understand me at that time.
I feel like I am in a vast wilderness. I always want to reach out and grab something, but I can’t catch anything. I dare not think about what my future will be like, how will my life go in the future, and where will my life come from?
Over the past year, I have lived a very bitter heart. I can’t tell the pain. I’m exhausted both physically and mentally, but I have nowhere to vent . I always think that one day I can find and pursue my own happiness.
I don’t know if I can still have that "free" day. These responsibilities are like invisible shackles , which binds me firmly. I want to escape but find that I have nowhere to escape...
The world is so big. Thank you for meeting you. May you all be fragrant all the way through it.
