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Yesterday's diary, I haven't written it. The original plan was to write yesterday's diary this morning. Things were chaotic until now. It is now 22:21 on the 20th. The two children are already lying on the bed, but they seem to be asleep. They are listening to Bobbixiong telling stories.
Yesterday, especially last night, my lover told me that she suddenly felt that life had no meaning, she was very blind and empty, bored.
We chatted with video three times. The first time was around 19:00 pm, the second time was around 20:00 pm, and the third time I sent her a video, from 22:00 to 23:00 pm, and chatted for an hour.
physical and mental fatigue
I guess that since the outbreak of the epidemic in Lhasa, my lover has been working in the unit for more than 30 days and has not received effective rest, resulting in physical and mental fatigue. She told me many times before that she hoped to take a shower, but the actual conditions did not allow it. Although there is a small bed in the unit that can sleep at night, that's all, there are other colleagues in the same room.
I told her to find the meaning of life and the value of life by herself.
She said, "I used to want a house, but later I bought a house, and I wanted a child. Later, I had a child. I originally wanted to own a car, and later I also bought a car. Now I have no hope for life and can be said to have no pursuit. What should I do?"
"So you need to discover your interests. Interest beyond these eight hours can improve your quality of life. Some people like to dance, some people like to play accordion , some people like to write something, and some people like to calligraphy. We need to find a kind of sustenance to the soul, even if there is no utilitarian purpose, it is purely because of love!"
See the blue sky again
"Please find one for me!" she said cheatingly.
"I can only find mine. You need to find your own! My work is full of phone calls, meetings, customer complaints, and the system is online. In addition, it is to show the homework for children, focus on correcting homework, washing vegetables and cooking, and all kinds of things. I had unimaginable before, but the days came day by day, and week by week, so I adapted. Fortunately, I still have two preferences, one is reading books, and I like to write something after reading books. Although I wrote very badly, almost all the books were recorded, but I finally had a statement in my heart!" I posted a long speech.
"Have you been writing for a while?" my lover asked me.
"This month, there were ten days, I stopped for a while, but ten days later, I felt empty and bored again, and I had nothing to do, so I started writing again! I suggest you write too. There is a statistics saying that writing can reduce the probability of depression by 50%!"
"I don't want to write, I can't write!" My lover answered lazily.
"What are you doing now?" I asked again.
She changed the camera of her phone and I saw that she was playing the card game that comes with Windows!
Interests and hobbies
"I have been watching the computer for a day, and I am still watching the computer?" I shook my head and said helplessly, "Have you brought a book with me?"
"No", paused for a moment and continued, "What book have you read recently?"
"I am reading " Karamazov Brothers " by Dostoevsky , and there is also " Way to make a living " by Krishnamuti !"
"I know Krishnamuti", my lover said, "How do you read?"
"I read Krishnamuti's book, I can read it!"
"I know Krishnamuti", my lover said, "How do you read?"
"Krishnamuti's book, I can read it!" It's very hard, I can't understand a few pages every day. It seems that I have to really comprehend it to understand a little! "
" I have also read Ker's book before, but I can't understand it either!"
" I'm reading "Brothers Karamazov" recently and I feel dizzy, but sometimes some of the descriptions in it do touch the soul and deeply write about the goodness and ugliness of human nature!"
Home
Later, the two of them had nothing to talk about, and the video was just hanging like this. Although I tried my best to comfort my lover, I had no specific measures. I could only watch and bless them from afar. I hope that the clouds of the epidemic would dissipate as soon as possible, and I could freely get the community, breathe free air on the streets, and enjoy the warm sunshine.
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