Author | Zhou Yihui Source | Zhou Yihui (ID: zhouyihui1004) After interviewing Teacher Zhou Yihui, it seemed like he had experienced a great spiritual feast. She is gentle, harmonious and full of vitality. Wisdom and compassion flow between the lines. It is hard to imagine that t

Author | Zhou Yihui
Source | Zhou Yihui (ID: zhouyihui1004)

After interviewing Teacher Zhou Yihui, it seemed as if he had experienced a great spiritual feast.

She is gentle, harmonious and exudes fresh vitality. Wisdom and compassion flow between the lines.

It is hard to imagine that this bald woman sitting in front of the camera has wade through the sea of ​​fire in life and walked through the tip of the knife of life.

She committed suicide countless times, was tied to a mental hospital, cried bitterly, collapsed....

From the darkest moment of life to today's inner growth mentor, what did she experience in this spiritual journey? Where have you been now?

cannot feel the life of love, it is dark

969, Zhou Yihui was born in a family of scholars in Beijing.

She is the second child in the family.

After my mother gave birth to her, her body began to be obese, and she suffered facial paralysis and stroke . She often said, "I want to die."

These unconscious behaviors of mothers have covered Zhou Yihui's little heart with dust.

Her father is a professor who receives scientific research allowance, mother is an engineer who studies chemistry, and sister is an excellent academic master.

But she became a child who made her family naughty and headache.

At that time, Zhou Yihui often used poor grades, illness, premature love, and laziness to attract the attention of her parents.

But my sister is the halo of the family, and she only has the loneliness in the corner.

"I am simply a redundant person."

When she was a child, she often thought this way.

But what she didn't know was that after her mother gave birth to her, she had many problems in her body and fell into postpartum depression .

This kind of sad and depressed dark emotions were all accepted by the young Zhou Yihui.

Mothers and children naturally have deep links.

Zhou Yihui equates "mother's despair for life" with "his own responsibility".

"My arrival makes my mother unhappy."

"My arrival makes my mother look like this."

Since then, Zhou Yihui began to attack herself in her heart.

She can no longer feel the love of her parents, she can't feel the meaning of life, and even she has only disgust for herself.

5 years old, Zhou Yihui was misrepresented as the school beauty, was jealous of her classmates, bullied by the campus, and she dared not go to school and chose to escape.

8 years old, she became a model and an actress. At the age of 21, she moved to Guangzhou with her parents and went into business.

She made more and more money, with exquisite beauty, enviable figure, many friends, sweet love...

After buying a house, she fled from her family non-stop.

On those days, she spent a lot of money to eat, drink and have fun with her friends, but her relationship with her parents became more and more distant, and her heart became more and more empty.

Until the age of 28, my boyfriend who had been in love for many years left her.

The incident became the fuse of Zhou Yihui's emotions, and she completely collapsed.

She seemed to have fallen into an abyss in an instant, suffering from severe depression , commit suicide, changeable emotions, and persistent collapse.

In desperation, his family sent Zhou Yihui to a mental hospital.

Recalling the scene that day, she said, "I kicked the door hard, and I knew I was going to be tied up. I was very angry, I was very explosive."

Zhou Yihui only describes her experience in a mental hospital.

She was locked up in a small dark room, taking medicine and injections every day, and often hears the sound of electric shocks coming from the next door. A group of naked and very listless patients were shuttled around her.

Zhou Yihui felt deep fear and resistance in her heart.

In such an environment, her face began to grow acne, and her weight changed from 100 catties to 140 catties.

She dared not look in the mirror anymore. She stared at the spider crawling on the white wall every day because it was the only living life she could see.

Her only had one thought in her mind: "I must go out. "

With the support of her strong desire, her condition improved and she finally released it from the dark room. On the day she went out, Yihui's parents came to pick her up and packed a lot of food she loved.

Facing such parents, she was at a loss. Regret and guilt As soon as it surges into my heart, at that moment, the love that Yihui suppressed for many years began to flow.

When love is awakened, bad encounters also have gifts

"Some people say that our lives are born twice, one is the birth of the body, and the other is the rise of the soul. "

Now when talking about her feelings when she left the mental hospital, Yihui used this sentence to describe it.

After she was discharged from the hospital, her parents took care of her daily life every day. She arranged for her to take medicine and cook for her.

Once she used to believe that she was disliked by her parents and was not cared for and cared for.

But then, she saw her mother bringing a lot of milk back every day; her father tailored a weight loss meal for her, and every I prepared an egg and an apple to accompany her to the park for a run; when she was suffering from bipolar disorder , I searched through books to help her find solutions.

During the days of recuperation, Yihui's heart was also awakened bit by bit.

Whenever I talked about that memory, Yihui would remember two words my mother said to her:

"Look, you don't eat much, and your father and I have a high salary. There is no problem in raising you, so you can't even have no problem in not working. "

"Oh, I figured it out now. As long as you are happy, even if you don't fall in love or get married, there is no problem. "

These two sentences opened a door for Zhou Yihui who was at the trough of life.

In the past 28 years of life, she has always felt that she was not accepted and loved.

She used illness to attract the attention of her parents, faced the family with an escape attitude, immersed in luxurious entertainment, and burned her life.

But when her mother said those two sentences, Yihui felt an unconditional love and acceptance.

"It turns out that no matter how she is, her parents accepted me. "

When she felt loved, a feeling of gratitude slowly rose in her heart.

However, in the face of the disease, Yihui still felt powerless.

Taking medicine for a long time made her head very unconscious and she had suicide thoughts Head. After being discharged from the hospital, she kept committing suicide, but God kept holding her every time.

After countless suicide failures, Yihui gave up.

It was these failed suicide experiences that made her change her mind: "Since you can't die, then live well."

She began to ask herself every day: What's the use of living?

With this question, she went to see her master.

In the conversation, the sentence "You come to this world, you have a task" hit her heart.

In her opinion, she firmly insisted on her heart to live well.

l2She wanted to know where her life would go.

That year, she was 29 years old, dragging her incomplete body and mind, embarking on the learning journey of inner growth.

She planted seeds of inward growth and harvested the entire forest

999, Yi Hui stood at the age of thirty.

She once again went to Shenzhen alone, but This time, it was not to escape, but to face herself truly.

She started the journey of inner growth.

All the whole year, she kept learning, looking for courses in the newspaper, reading books all night.

Every time she learned, it seemed that she was pressing a "confirm key" for her heart.

A seed of growth continues to grow in Yihui's heart.

One day, in a parent-child course, Yihui heard many parents accuse their children of being ignorant, poorly studying, and disobedient.

Yihui's heart instantly aroused anger.

At that moment, she raised her hand and stood up.

"You don't understand the psychology of children at all, you don't understand the importance of parents' affirmation to children. Your harshness, harshness, and denial of children will really leave a deep mark and a deep hurt on the children. "

After saying a few words, Yihui cried.

The parents at the scene were shocked and speechless. The teacher in the class ran to Yihui and said excitedly:

"You shared so well, we never knew that these children's voices were like this. ”

Many people are asking Yihui what job she does.

She just shook her head and said lightly: "I don't do anything, I just love to study psychology. "

It was also at that moment that Yihui suddenly discovered-" it turns out that it is from faith, and it can be found slowly inward. "

She became more and more fond of sharing the knowledge she learned, and also received a lot of affirmation.

Everyone said to her: "Yihui, you are the fate of being a teacher. "

Now, every time I think of this sentence, she sighs: "I was so scared at that time. How could I be a teacher like me? "

But that's it. Under the guidance of many opportunities, Yihui really took this step.

In 2005, she founded a training company, which brought together many top psychology masters from abroad.

She has awe and humility and has been learning from the teachers. That feeling is like being in a class, completely accepting the baptism of the soul.

Yihui felt worshipping the masters. While admiring, her desire to be a teacher became stronger and stronger.

Once, in class, she met her "inner child".

In meditation, she saw that in front of a window, a little girl was sitting alone.

Yihui didn't understand at that time, and she asked the teacher why she saw this picture.

The teacher asked her back: "What do you want to say the most?"

"What I want to say the most is, I want to tell my mother, I am very obedient, don't put me in other people's house. I am very obedient, I will obey, you can take me home."

After the words fell, Yihui cried heartbrokenly.

The sadness hidden inside her for many years surged out in an instant.

"I don't know either. I used to be so afraid of being abandoned."

After seeing his inner child, Yihui's heart to explore life became stronger and stronger, and her desire for knowledge was burned.

She wanted to see how much trauma she still has and how she can live her life.

This courage to face it also inspired her to continue to travel through the pain and start the undiscovered gift of life step by step.

Through pain, love and healing began to occur

In 2005, when Yihui held a training class, she made a great wish: "I want to help 100,000 families."

How did it do it in that era without the Internet? Is it really possible?

When fear and worry challenged her, Yihui still chose to strengthen her original intention: "Share my life story, and you can make one."

In 2009, Yihui did it. She carried out countless offline classes, helped hundreds of thousands of families, and officially became a teacher of inner growth. The goal of

has been achieved, and the original intention is still continuing. At the age of 40, she vowed again: "I want to support 200 million people and live the joy and bloom of life."

.2 billion, not 100,000. Others thought Yihui was crazy and questioned her: "Where is the resources of 200 million people coming from?"

Only she herself knows that this road is difficult, but there will be no end.

It was also after this wish was released that Yihui attracted Zhang Defen teacher.

They talked about the process of inner growth together.

Teacher Zhang Defen took Yihui to the healing course and invited her to be the guest speaker at her new book launch conference.

The good fate has accumulated again and again, and Yihui's resources have also come.

She became the first inner growth mentor signed by Zhang Defen Space, and met and knew more lives, and faced and healed the pain of life together.

In this process, Yihui felt the miracle of life every moment.

On the body, she used to be a standard sick cat, and all kinds of diseases always entangled her.

But in the process of healing again and again, the body also gave her positive feedback.

She accepts her body, takes care of it, and uses it from the bottom of her heart.

At home, Yihui has become a pistachio for her family from a rebellious child.

In interpersonal relationships, she can always see and understand the difficulties of others, and develop more tolerance and compassion.

All kinds of changes make Yihui exude a lightness from the inside out.

also made her understand the sentence more deeply:

"Life is the relationship with yourself. When you accept your imperfection, you can accept the imperfection of the world; when you reconcile with yourself, you are reconcile with the world."

This real healing and change has made Yihui more determined to be the path of inner growth.

with the wish of "can make one, it's one". She hopes to light up even a glimmer of light for more people who are experiencing the darkest moments.

As arises a sense of gratitude and loves every life

Until this year, Yihui has been an inner growth mentor for 13 years.

learn and prepare lessons day after day, create links with various lives, and give them real love and warmth.

Someone once asked her: "Why are you so tired and willing to support these students?"

She choked up and said slowly: "Because I have experienced those despair and those darkness."

Perhaps, it is because I have been wet from the rain that I always want to hold an umbrella for the people in the rain.

Every time the students who come to Yihui courses carry their own life pain.

But no matter what shape their pain is, even to outsiders, these pains are difficult to speak, ashamed, and strange...

Yihui will give gentle permission, respect and acceptance.

Just as she said herself: "I have experienced so many tragic things, so I accept everyone's feelings, and I don't think they are strange."

Once upon a time, Yihui met a female student who wrote poems to her in the group every day. During class, she stayed away from the crowd, and she was not allowed to touch or hug her.

Yihui chose to allow her to stay in the area she thought was safe.

The next day, the female student began to vomit, like a "cleaning up" happening in her body.

On the third day, the female students chose to integrate into the group. She began to approach Yihui and released her emotionally with her body dancing.

In the classroom that day, everyone who witnessed the body dancing cried. seems to witness a process of slowly awakening of life.

This woman who isolated herself from the beginning is gradually willing to open her heart and tell her story.

It was also at that time that Yihui realized that this uneasy woman in front of her had been tied to a mental hospital, so she was particularly insecure. She could not let others touch her body, and she had a deep sense of shame for her body.

3 years, Yihui has met too many life stories that shocked her heart, and has also witnessed too many life miracles together.

That blooms from the trough, and the brilliant flowers of life.

Many people who meet Yihui say that her body is full of love. Those students who came out of the trough and desperate situation regard Yihui as the noble person in their lives.

But she never thought she had such great contributions.

As she said:

"Some lives, when they meet, fate resonates, and they create many miracles together. In fact, this credit does not belong to me, I am just a pipeline, which we created together.

I committed suicide so many times, and God doesn't accept me, just keep me to work hard.