People are emotional animals. After living together for a long time, feelings will inevitably arise. The nanny is no exception. I can see all of her kindness to me, but I don’t want to take that step. I don’t want people to point me. , And don’t want to embarrass the children. No matter how good it is, it is an employment relationship, and it will not become a family after all.
I am 62 years old and have been retired for two years. It has been 11 years since my spouse left me. We have a son and a daughter, both of whom are married, and our grandchildren are in elementary school.
The year my spouse just left, I was sad and broke. We are a family of free love. We have a very good relationship. We have never blushed in my life. Apart from work, my life is a mess. I can make our marriage almost perfect.
But there were unexpected events, and breast cancer eventually took her life. When she died, she was still worrying about my daily life, fearing that I could not cope with it alone, so I must explain to my children. Take care of me, she also told me that the next half of my life is still a long way, let me find another woman.
With tears in the corners of my eyes, I held her tightly, and shook my head constantly: "I will not look for anyone, I will only have you in my life". After I called for her, he still didn’t keep her. He disappeared from me like the wind...
I spent more than half a year in a daze. My life was in a mess. At that time, I had not retired, and my children were far away. Only when I drove over to see me on weekends, my children had a family meeting. They felt that my body would not be able to bear it if this continued, so they discussed finding a babysitter for me. At first, I was particularly reluctant. Very uncomfortable.
But my sons and daughters insisted on insisting. They talked a lot of worry. They also talked about my lover. They said that if I didn’t settle down well, their mother would not be at ease. He nodded and agreed.
The children soon found a nanny,This nanny was also a woman who had a hard life. She was called Bai Xiaomei, a native of Sichuan, 10 years younger than me. When she was young, her husband died in a coal mine accident. All the money she lost was taken away by her in-law’s family. Older daughter.
When she first came to my house, her daughter had just entered college and she chose the industry of nanny, not only in charge of food and accommodation, but also in making money. The person is pretty good. The Sichuan woman has big eyes and watery. She is also very diligent and winking. She always calls me long and short.
In the family building of the factory area, it is inevitable that someone will joke, saying that I have found a treasure. I don’t want to explain too much. I just laughed bitterly. When Bai Xiaomei first came, I had an appointment with her for three chapters, except for washing. She is free to cook and clean up the house during the rest of the time. She can’t enter my room without my permission. She must pay attention to what she wears in her daily life. Don’t be too “random”...
She listened carefully, Nodded unceasingly. In this way, Bai Xiaomei and I started a ten-year employment relationship. He was also very careful. Knowing that I am not very talkative, she wrote the recipe for the next day on a piece of paper, which made me dissatisfied. Write it below.
She actually hung up a whiteboard in my bathroom. No one knew it clearly. If it was a bath, she would also write down the time specially. A very warm little act made me feel for this woman for the first time. The strange feeling may be just a good feeling, not a liking.
I bought the TV again in my bedroom. Bai Xiaomei and I have our own space. He also takes care of me very comfortably. The three meals a day are changed. The clothes are always clean and ironed. Flat, the comfort I have never had before.
I thought that my babysitter and I would only live like this. I did not expect an accidental fall, which brought me close contact with her. That was when she first came to my home for almost a year, and one day I woke up in the middle of the night Drink water and you'll fall down all at once!
She heard the sound,But she didn't dare to enter the door and called me vigorously. After hearing my voice, she pushed the door and came in. That time, she dialed 120 in time and sent me to the hospital. There was nothing wrong with me.
But I still remember her nervous expression at that time, she kept wiping sweat on me, and she almost cried in a hurry. She is really good and very hard on me. I am a normal person, of course I Can feel it. That year, she was 42 years old, which was when women were very charming.
But no matter how good she is, I only pretend to be my lover in my heart. I also tried to ask him, so young, why don't I look for one again? She was silent for a while, and said that she had survived when she was young. Now that the child is older, she doesn't want to look for it anymore. She can earn more money while she is able to move, and follow her daughter when she is old.
Seeing her calm expression and thin shoulders, I suddenly felt distressed. I increased her monthly salary by 500 yuan, but she should not give it back to me. Taking what she deserves, she also said that it is easy to work at my home, and she is very satisfied.
"Satisfaction is good, satisfaction is good", I said, carrying a briefcase and went out, "Brother Zhang, I will cook sweet potato porridge for you tonight". This is the Sichuan hometown meal that Bai Xiaomei came to my home, and I only ate it. Our relationship became less rigid and less rigid!
I didn’t notice any changes in myself. I even hummed a little song. My daughter came back to see me that day, and her unintentional behavior surprised her. She hugged me and said mysteriously: "Dad, it seems that you had a small life. Not bad", "What nonsense, no big or small one day". The daughter smiled strangely: "I didn't say anything, why are you nervous".
Actually, it’s not what I think, but once life is comfortable, eats refreshing, lives at ease, and feels better. When my lover is alive, even though she is obedient to me, she People from Jiangsu don't care about life and eat well, so you can live it on the whole.
but Bai Xiaomei is different,The meals are different, and they are still ingredients that I have never seen before. Mung bean stewed pork knuckle, steamed pork , brown sugar rice cake ... everything suits my taste. The house is also spotlessly cleaned, and the windows are bright and clean at all times.
Sometimes I'm really lucky that I have picked up treasure, not love, but life care, Bai Xiaomei also respects me very much, has never crossed the slightest, the behavior depends on the character, she is indeed Not to lose to the educated women in the city.
The old households in the factory gradually got acquainted with Bai Xiaomei, and wentssiping about me and her story, but Bai Xiaomei told them righteously that she was just my family's nanny.
The people in the factory saw that I and the nanny had nothing to do, so they enthusiastically showed me the object, but I refused. One day, Bai Xiaomei opened her mouth for a long time and swallowed it back. I endured it for a long time. Ask her what she wants to say?
"Brother Zhang, I see that the older sisters introduced to you are in good condition. They are not teachers or doctors. They are all educated people. Why don't you want to?" I paused and looked at the portrait of my lover. : "I only have her in my heart". Bai Xiaomei laughed happily and turned me back into a yellow smile.
Seeing my expression, she smiled more happily: "I can't see that Brother Zhang is still an infatuated man, the older sister is really blessed." Seeing Bai Xiaomei in front of me, I felt melancholy, different people, different lives, such a good woman, there is no good life!
My sons and daughters are also very open. Seeing that my life is gradually returning to normal, I worry about business and said that no matter how good the nanny is, after all, I can only take care of my life and cannot fill my emotional gap. I have to introduce someone to me. He also said it was to fulfill his mother's last wish.
This time I couldn't help but get angry. I'm going to live well by myself. In this life, I won't find a woman again. My daughter looked at Bai Xiaomei and looked at me meaningfully.I understand what they mean, but I really don't want to make the relationship too complicated, Bai Xiaomei turned around and went into the kitchen.
That day I specially left my children at home for dinner. They were also the first time to taste Bai Xiaomei’s craftsmanship and praised again and again. In fact, I just want them to understand that I am not looking for someone, not because I and Bai Xiaomei have it. The relationship is not clear, but she is really a good nanny and takes care of me very carefully.
She has taken care of my life for ten years, and all I can repay her is payment. In the 10 years I have been with her, she has taken good care of my family and it is also special She’s very hardworking and sincere to me, but I really can’t be with her.
I have been together for ten years. If you say there is no emotion, it is fake, but it is definitely not love. Under the same roof, in and out, but I always act soberly and stick to the original intention, and she does things very well. Pay attention to proportion, it can distinguish our relationship.
She is very careful, all the accounts are clear, even the expenses of my family are clearly recorded. It really helped me a lot, saved me troubles, and saved my children a lot of worry over the years.
Bai Xiaomei's daughter has already graduated from university, has joined a job, got married, and always wants her to resign, but Bai Xiaomei said she doesn't worry about me, and said wait a minute, she will go after her daughter has a child Help, I also said that she was finally getting out of her way.
She smiled and said that she was a toil, how could she be blessed, looking at her, I was a little bit reluctant, I knew that one day she would leave me and leave this home.
In fact, it is not nostalgia for her, but the reluctance should be the dependence on her. Over the years, I have been used to her taking care of everything for me. Only with her can I be healthy over the years, and I can read books and play chess in a leisurely manner.
Maybe we have all missed too much these years,Maybe it was too worrying before, but now, at the age of more than sixties, he thinks more thoroughly, not to embarrass himself or to provoke her.
In my heart there is always only my lover, no one can replace her, can walk into my heart, even if Bai Xiaomei leaves one day, I will continue to live and live alone as optimistic as her This life...
This is an online story of emotional confession
I regret an employer relationship. The employer sticks to his promise to his lover and forcibly missed his ten years, which is also a vain period. Xiaomei's best ten years, two people are indifferent to each other under the same roof, it is really hard to believe.
Bai Xiaomei's appearance is as good as her character, and the only thing that may not be worthy of her employer is her school hours and status. If you can really let go of the staleness, maybe it will be a good match.
It’s a pity that the employer always carries his lover in his heart. The love for Bai Xiaomei is at most reliance. Although he is not a lover, he is better than a lover. Except for no skin relatives, nothing else is different, even better than him. My lover takes care of me more attentively, but it's a pity that God is not willing.
Wish both the employer and Bai Xiaomei can find their own happiness. After all, life is short and there are not many years. The pretending and thinking in my heart may not be the same, and I hope they can bring us more surprises...
(Note: the picture has nothing to do with the article, all from the Internet)
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