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As business gets better and better, the quality of life between me and Chen Jiangnan has improved a lot.
However, the more money, the more empty the hearts of the people.
But even if something hurts and is hard to tell, it is still something to face.
I still remember when I first met Chen Jiangnan, it was late autumn, but Chen Jiangnan only wore a thin green sweater, a pair of washed white pants and a pair of very outdated slippers.
When Chen Jiangnan went to my dad’s restaurant to eat, he only had fifteen dollars on him, five dollars for a bowl of noodles, and ten dollars left after eating.
Just like that, he also said he was going to Beijing.
So the situation at the time was that he had to find a way to earn enough to go to Beijing, otherwise he might starve to death on the road.
That day, my dad looked at Chen Jiangnan so pitifully and a little stupid. Out of sympathy, he introduced Chen Jiangnan to the work on the nearby construction site.
If my dad knew what happened later, maybe he wouldn't introduce Chen Jiangnan to work that day.
Chen Jiangnan has been working at the place my dad introduced for a long time. Every time I get paid, I will buy something to see my dad.
At that time, I graduated from technical secondary school and helped out in my dad's restaurant. We got acquainted as soon as we visited.
After chatting, I learned about Chen Jiangnan's family situation after pieced together information.
Chen Jiangnan is an orphan. His parents died of illness when he was very young. It was his uncle who raised him.
But as she gets older, her aunt is reluctant to continue living at home.
Therefore, when Chen Jiangnan was 12 years old, he went out to work by himself.
However, Chen Jiangnan has been working in the county seat and he has not gone far.
Just like that, Chen Jiangnan turned 25 years old.
In the village, young people as old as Chen Jiangnan have gone to work far away, and only Chen Jiangnan still stays in the county seat.
On the eve of his 25th birthday, after the third blind date failed.
Chen Jiangnan felt that if he didn't do anything, he might have to be an old hooligan in the village.
Finally, Chen Jiangnan made a major decision. He is going to Beijing, the best place in China.
He felt that even if that place could not accommodate him, it would be worthwhile to go and see him.
Chen Jiangnan gave most of the money he had saved for a long time to his uncle, leaving himself a small part of the travel expenses.
But who knows, I met a thief as soon as I arrived at the train station. Chen Jiangnan's wallet was stolen, leaving a little money in his trouser pocket undiscovered.
The money left by Chen Jiangnan was not enough for the train ticket to Beijing, so Chen Jiangnan went to Xi'an.
I asked Chen Jiangnan why he didn't come out earlier. He said that the uncle is in poor health and he wants to help with the farm work.
At that moment, I was kind and sympathetic and distressed for Chen Jiangnan's experience.
Later, one of my classmates came back from Beijing, and we had a dinner together.
I called Chen Jiangnan together.
classmates told us a lot of stories about BeiDiao.
I don't know which sentence touched Chen Jiangnan, and Chen Jiangnan suddenly decided not to go to Beijing.
Chen Jiangnan has a stubborn and stubborn son who is hard to chase after a word.
Since that day, Chen Jiangnan has never mentioned anything about Beijing.
He started desperately making money, and he said he wanted to take root in Xi'an.
He started not doing work on the construction site, and started looking for promising things to do.
So, for a long time later, Chen Jiangnan would work two or three jobs every day, traveling between different industries, with the goal of finding something suitable for his long-term development.
And I often ran to Chen Jiangnan and asked Chen Jiangnan.
started out of sympathy, but slowly,Sympathy becomes like.
Just when I was wondering whether to express my heart to Chen Jiangnan, Chen Jiangnan confessed to me.
I always remember that Chen Jiangnan was a little shy and a little rascal asking me if I wanted to be his wife, silly but cute.
My dad always thinks Chen Jiangnan is okay, caring, grateful, honest and honest.
So he didn't show much rejection of me and Chen Jiangnan.
That's it, I'm ignorantly together.
When I was with Chen Jiangnan, he was 25 years old and I was 20 years old.
When Chen Jiangnan was 26 years old, he met the noble man in his life by chance, Mr. Ren. That year Mr. Ren took Chen Jiangnan and earned nearly two hundred thousand.
Two hundred thousand is really an astronomical number for us at the time.
Chen Jiangnan was so happy that he took my hand and said that everything is due to me and my dad.
Chen Jiangnan said, my dad and I are his lucky stars.
Chen Jiangnan used the first money he earned to make a down payment for a wedding house and a proposal ring.
I happily agreed to Chen Jiangnan's marriage proposal.
After the successful marriage proposal, Chen Jiangnan was happily like a child. He said he would make me happy for a lifetime.
Chen Jiangnan worked harder.
Mr. Ren is very good to Chen Jiangnan, and he is willing to take Chen Jiangnan with him for everything.
In the following three years, Mr. Ren made a lot of money with Chen Jiangnan.
Chen Jiangnan respects and trusts Mr. Ren more.
In 2011, with the blessing of everyone, I married Chen Jiangnan.
After marriage, Chen Jiangnan was gearing up to concentrate on his career, but suddenly, Mr. Ren had an accident.
Overnight, no one can find Mr. Ren. And the company's money is gone.
Chen Jiangnan was dumbfounded. It was obvious that Mr. Ren had run away.
Found that after Mr. Ren ran away, everyone asked Chen Jiangnan for money, because Chen Jiangnan was the closest to Mr. Ren.
Everyone thinks they are in the same group.
But in fact, Chen Jiangnan was the worst.
Chen Jiangnan only knew that he had been deceived after calling the police.
Except for the money that Chen Jiangnan invested in President Ren and some of the workers' wages.
President Ren also borrowed a lot of money in the name of Chen Jiangnan, and the money was also taken away by President Ren.
Chen Jiangnan didn't go to school for a few days, so he didn't understand many contracts, so Mr. Ren asked him to sign.
He never thought that Ren always lied to him.
The police said it was difficult to catch President Ren, and Chen Jiangnan handled a lot of things himself, so even if Mr. Ren was caught, it would not be of much use to repay the loan.
In those days, Chen Jiangnan suddenly grew older.
In the end, there was no way. Together, Chen Jiangnan and I had to sell the house and car to pay off the debt.
But even after the final calculation, even if I sell the house and the car, it is not enough.
Because in addition to bank loans, there are many private loans.
Seeing more and more people come to collect debts, Chen Jiangnan and I are in a hurry.
My dad found us when he heard the news. My dad sold the restaurant when he said he couldn't. If he sold it, he would pay off his debts and earn money slowly.
Chen Jiangnan heard my dad's words and knelt in front of my dad with a plop. Chen Jiangnan said he was sorry for me and my dad.
My dad watched Chen Jiangnan crying with his nose and tears. He touched Chen Jiangnan’s head and said that no one would go well. It’s okay to fall once. If you don’t know the people, you will have a hard time. ,everything will get better.
Now think about it, if I knew what happened later, I would definitely not let my dad sell the restaurant anyway, but there is no if in life.
My dad knew that I was reluctant to bear Chen Jiangnan, so he reluctantly gave up his love. He didn't want me to be threatened by debt collectors.
That day, my dad took Chen Jiangnan and me by the hand and said, as long as we are in a good relationship, nothing else will matter.
Chen Jiangnan cried even harder. He said he would return the noodle restaurant to my dad, and he said he would be nice to me.
Because the location of the noodle shop is very good,So sold a lot of money.
On the day the noodle restaurant was sold, I saw my dad secretly wipe his tears, but I didn't know how to comfort him, I only hated my incompetence.
I paid off most of the debt by selling the noodle restaurant. Finally, Chen Jiangnan and I no longer have to worry about it.
After selling the house, Chen Jiangnan and I moved to our old house to live with my dad.
But at the hardest time, I found out that I was pregnant. It has been two months.
I cried for a long time when I heard the news, because I knew that kid couldn't have it.
There is no house, nothing, we are still carrying hundreds of thousands of debts, giving birth to a child will only be more difficult.
So Chen Jiangnan and I unanimously decided not to have that child, even though I was already at the age when we should have a child.
Chen Jiangnan said that he did not want a child to be born as poor as he did.
So we think the child can ask for it again, but it is important to earn money first.
Chen Jiangnan and I took advantage of my dad’s visit to the wedding of my cousin to go to the pharmacy to buy medicine for abortion.
Originally, both of me thought that as long as I took the medicine, the child would be discharged. But I didn't expect that the drugstore gave me the wrong amount of medicine, and I was in poor health.
After taking that medicine, I bleed and the pain in my lower abdomen was unbearable.
At first, I thought that pain and bleeding were normal. It was not until I passed out and Chen Jiangnan sent me to the hospital that everything was too late.
really complied with that sentence. All the major turning points in life are actually an ordinary day.
Who would have thought that the wrong medication caused heavy bleeding, and the optimal treatment time was missed when I was sent to the hospital, which led to my lifelong infertility.
Chen Jiangnan cried bitterly after knowing that I would never have a baby again, saying that he was not a human being, it was his fault.
In the later days, Chen Jiangnan took care of me every step of the way.
And because I am an only child, I dare not seek death, I can only hold on.
I forgot how I made it through that period, maybe I was heartless.
Anyway, I made it through.
After my body recovered almost, Chen Jiangnan and I began to think of ways to make money.
Inadvertently hitting the event planning and execution.
At the beginning, I followed others to learn planning, and Chen Jiangnan followed others to learn construction.
The first two years are the most difficult, often because a design drawing is studied until midnight, and then go out to build early the next day.
In order to save labor, we often use one as two.
Regardless of the extreme cold and heat, Jiangnan Chen and I will drive a van and pull a cart of various racks to shuttle through the city.
I used to be unable to lift a bag of rice. At that time, I could lift four trusses with a length of 2 meters.
I remember that one summer was really hot. After working for three hours under the scorching sun, I had a heat stroke. Chen Jiangnan helped me under the tree and told me that it was all his fault.
Seeing Chen Jiangnan's eyes full of distress and guilt, I feel as if everything is worth it.
In order to make more money, Chen Jiangnan and I went to set up a stall when there was no work.
can be regarded as worthy of the effort, two years later I pieced together to open my own studio.
Since the good time has come, business will pick up soon.
Time flew for five years. Chen Jiangnan and I not only paid off all our debts, but also ventured into other industries and made some investments.
In 2014, Chen Jiangnan proposed to use the money in his hand to reopen a noodle restaurant for my dad.
After all, the old man has done things his whole life, and it would be a pity that he didn't do much suddenly.
Soon Chen Jiangnan chose the place, which is a lively crossroad.
has a lot of people. On the day the small noodle shop opened, my dad cried and laughed.
That day, after watching Chen Jiangnan wear an apron and busy, I felt that marrying Chen Jiangnan seemed worth it.
In 2015, we bought a house and the day the new house was renovated, Chen Jiangnan hugged me and said,Sorry for making me suffer.
But at that time, I was not bitter at all, because Chen Jiangnan was really nice to me.
After the business is good, I hardly go to the scene, just do some reception and planning work.
Time slipped away from our fingertips in a hurry, and Chen Jiangnan and I seldom worry about money anymore.
When people are satisfied in material, they will pursue some spiritual things.
As we get older and older, our days with Chen Jiangnan are getting more and more boring.
I went to all the places I could go to travel, and all I could play, there was nothing new, and the days became repeated day after day.
Although Chen Jiangnan treats me well as always, I can still feel something missing between us, but I never know what it is.
Until that day, when we went to a friend’s child’s birthday party, Chen Jiangnan and a group of children became a group. I didn’t know that we were missing a child.
I know that Chen Jiangnan has never dared to talk about children. He is afraid of my sadness, but he still wants a child in his heart.
So, in June 2016, we decided to adopt a child.
signed up and waited for review. The review went well. Soon we adopted a two-year-old boy.
After having a child, there is more happiness in the family. Because there is no in-laws, my dad is old and there are restaurants to take care of, so I put more thoughts on the child.
Slowly, I rarely go to the company.
Maybe it is so happy after having children, so happy that I forgot to pay attention to Chen Jiangnan's dynamics.
Until the Dragon Boat Festival in 2018, I saw photos of dinner parties sent by the company's employees in the circle of friends, and I realized that Chen Jiangnan had cheated.
They went to barbecue outdoors that day.
The photo is a selfie of two employees. When zoomed in, you can see Chen Jiangnan's blurred back. A young woman is feeding Chen Jiangnan.
The back is very vague, so I just guessed it and didn't confirm it.
But at that moment my heartbeat was still half a beat slower.
But I quickly confirmed that I checked various consumption records of Chen Jiangnan and retrieved Chen Jiangnan's chat records. Various results showed that my guess was true.
After I really learned that Chen Jiangnan was really cheating, I was not hysterical, but surprisingly calm.
Later I learned that the reflection arc will become longer when people are sad and angry.
Just when I didn't know what to do, Chen Jiangnan's uncle passed away.
Chen Jiangnan was brought up by his uncle, so his death was a big blow to him. He was very sad and drove back overnight.
Time is very tight, Chen Jiangnan is walking in a hurry, I don't have time to talk with him.
After all, no one would have thought that a farewell in a hurry was a farewell.
I didn't go back to my hometown with Chen Jiangnan on the pretext that the child was too young and the company was unattended.
I need time buffer. After Chen Jiangnan left, I started to think about divorce.
At that time, I remembered all the past, and I began to hate Chen Jiangnan.
I decided to divorce, but I want Chen Jiangnan to leave the house.
But it is difficult to let the other person go out of the house unless he volunteers.
I found a professional lawyer, and the lawyer suggested that I can talk to Xiaosan first.
Liu Qian dressed up very well the day I went to the company, like a little girl who didn't understand anything.
But when I talked to her alone and made clear my intentions, she showed her true colors.
Liu Qian looked at me with a slight contempt, and said that she and Chen Jiangnan are true love, which made me more interested.
Liu Qian said that Chen Jiangnan told her that he would divorce me sooner or later because I can't have children.
When I heard a few words about not having a baby, I felt like I was stuffed into the freezer.
And Chen Qian's words afterwards completely crushed me.
Liu Qian said, in fact, they already have children, but Chen Jiangnan never let the children see others.
Liu Qian said, Chen Jiangnan said that she had her own arrangements, so she should not worry.
Although I also thought about whether Chen Jiangnan would have a baby with someone else, I didn't expect everything to happen so suddenly.
I don't know how I went home that day. After I got home, I shut myself in the house and cried.
Later, I followed Liu Qian and saw the child.
Once again, the facts have refreshed my understanding of Chen Jiangnan. Judging from the child's appearance, it is estimated that Chen Jiangnan and Liu Qian have been together a long time ago.
only later recruited her to the company under the name of the lighting planner .
So, in fact, Chen Jiangnan should have a plan behind. If I'm not mistaken, it was the two associations that got me out of the company.
I shudder when I think of this. I don't know when Chen Jiangnan became so heart-conscious.
In my cognition, Chen Jiangnan is a silly, simple and kind-hearted husband.
After I told the lawyer about the matter, the lawyer said that he would prepare me for the tug-of-war for divorce.
Chen Jiangnan has been there for a long time. The signal at their home is very poor. We occasionally talk with each other as simple greetings. I didn't mention anything about him and Liu Qian.
Finally, in September 2018, Chen Jiangnan finished everything and prepared to return.
After knowing that Chen Jiangnan is about to return, I can't tell the tension in my heart, and I always feel that something is going to happen.
As a result, Chen Jiangnan encountered a landslide on the way back from the car. He happened to be buried underneath.
Chen Jiangnan was already dead when he arrived at the hospital.
Liu Qian went to the hospital after hearing the news that day.
It was also that day that Liu Qian told me about her and Chen Jiangnan's past. It turned out that Liu Qian's family was patriarchal and Liu Qian's mother died very early.
The stepmother treated her very badly, and the father also liked the son born to the stepmother and did not like Liu Qian.
Liu Qian grew up in a deformed family relationship.
So after meeting Chen Jiangnan, she seemed to have caught the straw.
And Chen Jiangnan also took special care of Liu Qian because he had a childhood experience similar to Liu Qian, and the two of them got together over time.
Liu Qian never showed up after leaving the hospital that day.
After dealing with Chen Jiangnan's affairs, I went to the place where Liu Qian lived and wanted to talk to Liu Qian last.
may be driven by curiosity, I still want to know Chen Jiangnan's plan.
But it was the babysitter who opened the door.
The nanny said that Liu Qian hadn't gone back for a long time.
That was my first close contact with Liu Qian's daughter. The little girl looked very much like Chen Jiangnan.
When I went in, the child was crying and the nanny was making milk powder.
I didn't know which of the tendons was wrong, and suddenly reached out and picked up the child.
After I picked up the child, she stopped crying and she showed a lovely smile.
At that moment, there was an indescribable warmth in my heart.
I can think of Chen Jiangnan and I immediately put down the child again.
After another month or so, Liu Qian still did not appear. I saw Liu Qian's child again when I was delivering something to the child in the orphanage.
I hugged the child again.
The dean said that the child was picked up, and there is nothing but the child’s birthday in the quilt.
The little girl was born in December 2017 and became pregnant in October, so in fact, Chen Jiangnan cheated in 2016.
And that year, we adopted a child, and Chen Jiangnan said that it would be enough for the rest of our lives.
The past is vivid, thinking of Chen Jiangnan, I made a crazy decision, I plan to adopt Liu Qian's child, and I want to avenge Liu Qian.
The adoption went smoothly and I also signed a non-disclosure agreement.
No one knows that I adopted Xiaosan’s daughter.
After taking the child home,My mind is full of Chen Jiangnan's betrayal of me, so I will leave the child crying, or lock her in the room and let her cry alone.
But every time at this time, Dabao would grab my clothes and say, "Mom, my little sister will be scared alone."
Looking at Dabao's timid appearance, I feel a little distressed. In order to prevent Dabao from being frightened, I will open the door and let the nanny take care of the little girl.
But most of the time I do not care about the little girl. I also specifically confessed to the babysitter, only to feed the children, and the rest is not too good.
When Dabao is not at home, I amuse the little girl when I am happy, and get angry at her when I am unhappy, but I feel a little sad every time I get angry.
But then I think she deserves it again.
For a long time I was like a psychopath. Although I did not abuse the little girl, I used violence in language and emotion.
But later, as the time gets along longer and longer, when I get home, the child will call her mother and walk towards me cautiously. She will laugh when she sees me happy, and she will be cautious when she sees me unhappy. Followed behind me and did not dare to approach me.
Because I treat little girls and Dabao's personality differently, Dabao is always cheerful and unscrupulous, while little girls are cautious and sensitive.
When the two of them are with me at the same time, the contrast is particularly obvious. At that time, I feel a little guilty.
Especially sometimes when I get angry with her, she will cry and stretch out her hand to make me hug. It really hurts.
Actually think about what's wrong with the child.
Dabao likes his little sister very much. Every time the little sister cries, Dabao will run to coax her.
Dabao often tells me that I don't want to be angry with my sister, who is still young.
Slowly, I found that the two children healed me. They seemed to dispel the hatred in my heart.
Later I learned not to get angry with my sister, I will hug her sincerely, and she will kiss me happily.
The child really won't hold grudges, you can get her sincerity as long as you treat her well.
After I don't get angry, my sister will give me a bite every time I eat.
The little girl is very sweet, she touches my face and kisses me when she sees me lying on the sofa or unhappy.
I have been with her for a long time, and I seem to have forgotten that she is Liu Qian's daughter and Xiaosan's daughter.
I started teaching her to talk and playing toys with her.
Over time, my love for her seems to have been greater than my hatred for her.
sent her to the kindergarten some time ago. When I picked her up at the kindergarten that day, she saw me smiling and calling my mother to run towards me.
As soon as she ran over, she gave me the little red flowers sent by the teacher and said she missed me too much in kindergarten.
At that moment, there were mixed feelings in my heart.
I finally figured out that no matter what, children are innocent, and I should not pass the hatred of adults to children.
If she was allowed to choose, she would not choose to be born in that capacity.
Forget it, let the past pass, I learned to reconcile with myself.
Since I took her home, then I should love her well.
I think the best revenge should be, many years later my sister feels that she has a mother like me, and she does not regret it.
Now I rarely think of Chen Jiangnan, and I don't hate it anymore. I have two children and I have a very fulfilling life every day.
Because of Chen Jiangnan, I lost my qualifications to be a mother, and because of Chen Jiangnan, I have a pair of children.
Maybe everything is fate.
From now on, I will love myself and be a good mother as much as possible, so that my two children will grow up in a healthy environment and make them happy and happy.
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