In the growth of my life, I have seen the real lonely strong person. I can shake a person who is not a fly-like thing in front of my eyes. Almost the whole roadside people and even the entire village people are watching incredible, but he can ignore it. , This is how powerful the heart of a lonely person.
When I was in middle school, when my mother cried and scolded, I felt that my uncle was ruthless and indifferent. How would this be like brothers and sisters? The book says that brothers and sisters are like brothers and sisters, but the mother, brother and brother have a lover, laughing and joking all day, almost pushing our broken home to a deeper storm!
If the uncle said at the beginning that he wanted to bring a lover to our house to rent a house, my mother would definitely not agree, but my uncle was kind enough to help his father redeem the three furry rooms decorated , After the renovation, he told his mother that a total of several thousand yuan was spent. He is in urgent need of money. If his mother can't give him these renovation fees, then he has to rent out the house and use the rent to cover the renovation costs. My mother was so angry that I thought my brother would come to help decorate the house for free. This is how the debt is calculated. How could my mother have so much money to give him. If he knew that he was not helping with the renovation, it would be better to leave it alone without decorating. Used to raise a lover! The lover brought her father to open the shop, selling some dried seafood in name, but in fact it was used as a cover for the uncle to raise the lover. My lover's father opens a shop, and my uncle and lover come on dates at any time.
I just didn’t understand at that time. My uncle took the lover very publicly. My family lived on the road. When he came over with his lover, he was so intimate on the motorcycle, and he was laughing and joking. The whole village probably knew his uncle because he often came when his father was alive. Everyone knew that he had a wife and children, but they didn't know who his wife was, which made the whole village very curious. But when I was in middle school, the more I thought about it, the more wrong it became. Does this lover brought by my uncle seem to be dating my uncle? Find a hidden place for dating, but my house is the most conspicuous side of the road!
If so,After that, my mother was even more miserable. My uncle often looked for scum, saying that the mother’s family knew that it must have been the mother’s informant, and even wanted to kill her mother. The fake lover was guarding her, and said how could the uncle treat her sister like this My mother was almost crying with anger, and outsiders felt that they had never seen such a sibling to make friends. Outsiders think my mother is unreasonable. I think my mother is very wronged. I only blame my uncle for failing to learn such a high level of knowledge and being the head of the armed forces department. A family does not care about it but only mutilates it. As my husband said later, he had never seen our uncles in the mother-in-law caring so much for their mothers, like my mother-in-law and brothers, as long as the mother-in-law has a headache, his uncles are caring! Alas, I don’t know how to say it, poor mother was born in the wrong growth environment!
Later, the more I thought about it, the more I felt something was wrong, my uncle and lover always came in the footsteps of my uncle. My uncle took good care of our family when he was young. In order to kiss him, he had become my sister-in-law, so he came more diligent. He knew that my brother and I were in school, and my mother could not do housework. Many housework was too busy for him. Let us do our homework with peace of mind, and often come over to help us with cooking and other housework when we are after school. My uncle and lover often come over at this point, and the demon-like laughter is just for fear that the world will not hear it. I know that she probably also knows that her uncle is deaf, and I wish I could install a big speaker so that my uncle could hear her laugh. I can't forget the laughter for the rest of my life! But the uncle is not blind. He ignored his uncle and lover and didn't say hello. He calmly said to me and his brother, "You two will do your homework, and I will do the other housework!" The uncle spoke and accompanied him. The laughter can make the sky revolve. I listened to it too harshly. I don’t know if my uncle is not deaf, is it pleasant to the ear or is it also harsh?
was really confused back then. My mother didn’t know how her uncle was entangled by such a “vixie”, and I even speculated whether the “vixie” was also an uncle’s former lover. . The uncle once said that after his wife died of illness, he knew a widow again, but that person never gave him a good face, his earning power was limited and he couldn't make much money for her to spend, she finally left, and the uncle's house was worth the money. Take everything away one by one. Do not know why,Back then, I always thought that the woman called "Flower" who was entangled with my uncle, did my uncle once said to regroup that woman.
Once my spouse called me a shameless woman, I was crying angrily and it flashed in my mind that I knew that woman, who used to be shameless. I thought that woman had no husband, but just liked to seduce married husbands. But one morning, when I was having breakfast, my mother yelled in surprise, "Child, come and see! That man is Hua’s husband, and your uncle is still sleeping in the house with her! Her husband knocked on the door in a low voice. , If that person is your father directly overthrown!" I don't know how to say it, it is simply ruining the Three Views, it is really sad that his husband can still swallow so much. Even more sorrowful is that after I got married, my husband and aunt always brought her friends to where we live. My aunt always promoted her friend’s worthiness, marrying a Xiamen fool husband as a guise, and going back to my hometown lover every month for a date, I was thinking , The friend of the aunt's husband is indeed a fool, so he can tolerate his wife being so presumptuous!
Maybe my uncle’s lover is too ruinous for me, not to mention the harm of her husband and the harm of her aunt’s wife and children, which made my family even more uneasy. I often show off to my mother how good my uncle is to her, and my uncle thinks she is too beautiful, I think my uncle is blind, and the powder is so thick that I haven't seen it? My uncle was very willing to let her wear gold and silver, all kinds of seafood are delicious, but always like to inquire about our old relatives, that is, what uncles bring us. My mother was so angry that her old relatives were just deaf and too old to make money. Doing housework waste, the son-in-law is even more incapable and cautious, and marrying his daughter to his family is almost sent into the fire pit, and the "fox spirit" suddenly laughed "crazy"!
I don’t know if the woman named Hua has ever met someone, and the mother doesn’t know, and the uncle didn’t say it, but the uncle once said that he had another woman, but the woman felt he couldn’t make money. Enough for her to spend.
Anyway, I always think that what the beggar woman did is the opposite of that of her uncle.And she rented a conspicuous place like my house, she looked like a private lover, she was afraid that the world would not be chaotic! I even feel that what kind of illness the uncle had in the past few years, how can he recover from severe headaches and insomnia? Alas, maybe if you want to open up about the injury, the illness will naturally heal! Back then, my uncle suffered from headaches and insomnia, but he ate a lot of Chinese herbs, but it didn’t get better. My mother believed that the so-called fortune tellers or worshiping gods and Buddha said that my sister and I should go to the mountains to collect herbs, and there was more wind, more rain, and even thunderstorms. In addition, at this time, when we brave the heavy rain and withstand the lightning and thunder, we can show our sincerity more, can touch the gods, and make our uncle get better sooner. Back then, looking at the scary lightning and thunder, my sister and I were not killed. We were so lucky. Today I feel even more that you should not take too many medicines for insomnia and depression. In particular, the more you take depression medicines, the more uncomfortable you are.
I never thought that my relationship would be so ups and downs. Before I came to Xiamen, my relationship was completely blank. The first time I came to Xiamen, I was hurt too deeply. Before I met my husband, I would not believe in love. , Being abandoned is nothing more than crying, forgetting everything, people don't treat you sincerely, so why bother to seek life and death! For feelings, I also feel that I once abandoned you, even if he appears again, it has nothing to do with me. We are just strangers forever!
Maybe I am deeply moved by my lover's persistence. I don't know why he insists on marrying me. Finally, I take my feelings seriously, but our marriage is almost tottering. The terrible thing is that after my daughter was born, my in-laws came, and my aunts also stayed together temporarily. My wife started to scold me for nothing. We almost quarreled that he only asked him to hand me the divorce agreement. I, I guess I signed it directly.
I don’t know. Since my parents-in-law came, my husband and aunt have also stayed together temporarily. My lover often stays away at night. When I come back, I scold and quarrel at me. I don’t know why I’m more depressed. I often stay alone all night. I can’t sleep, when I’m depressed, and hearing my mother-in-law’s laughter, she always illusion that she looks like the fake "vixen" that I saw back then, and even makes me even more afraid if that "vixen" is really my mother-in-law, that would be terrible...
My lover even scolded me for being withdrawn,Not even a friend or classmate. Unexpectedly, the first one came to see my classmate, but he said without shame in front of my in-laws, "Although I am married to my husband, but if I have a child, I will definitely find another man to have a baby!" Suddenly, the two in-laws looked at my classmate with contempt. Extremely, I guessed in my mind, "No one knows such a classmate!" At that time, I really wanted to scold my classmate: "xx classmate, are you abnormal? Do you love your husband or others!" However, I don't dare anymore. Let this classmate drop in!
Our marriage has been difficult for 13 years. I was depressed several times, but my husband said that I had a mental disorder and had to take psychotropic drugs. Especially when my brother had an accident, my spirit was completely broken, because I felt that I couldn't make my natal mother and my uncle care about my uncle's life better in his old age, and felt that I could only rely on my brother. During the disorder, I suddenly thought of my mother-in-law as the very nasty woman named Hua...
Later I finally learned to be lonely, and I learned to swallow my anger, and learned not to make noise with my lover, but his lover is in this house. Hard work, he is the most tiring, he should understand and support more!
I feel that I am no longer depressed, but I just learn to be lonely!
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