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please forgive me for writing to you in this way. Although we get along day and night on weekdays, many things are still in my heart beyond words. During the days when I was critically ill, thank you for your perseverance. It is your warmth that has rekindled my faith in living. But this time I don't know if I can survive, so I want to tell you everything in my heart.
mom, do you know? A long time ago, I resented that you didn't give me a complete home. It made me feel very inferior to see other classmates having fathers driving and picking them up. I also changed from the lively and cheerful personality in the past and became untalkative. Maybe you still remember that on my 7th birthday, you didn't get home from get off work until nearly 10 o'clock, and I finished my homework and sat in the living room of the rental house in a daze. When I saw your messy hair pushing open the door with your birthday cake, I suddenly felt sorry for you. I know how hard it is for you to work again and to get out of the shadow of a man's betrayal. I grew up that night.
Later we reached a consensus, I study hard, you work hard, we are not only mothers and daughters, but also good teachers and helpful friends. In the years I grew up, I can’t remember how many times I moved. You are afraid that I will feel inferior and feel insecure. You promised to give me a stable place. 2014 was my happiest year. After more than two years of hard work, you finally gave us a stable home. Although we only depend on each other in this world, it also makes me more confident to meet all the unknowns that will happen.
In 2017, I successfully passed Xiaoshengchu to enter a better local school, but I found that you are getting busier and busier and we spend less time together. I have become accustomed to the days when there are no parents at the parent meeting, because I know you are working hard for our future. But I want to say sorry to you, I am ill, and very serious, which makes all the hope for the future in our hearts disappear.
On February 4, 2018, we went shopping together. You said that I did a good job in this exam and you want to reward me with a skirt. Why was I so unworthy and fainted at the gate of the mall, you hurriedly took me to the car and went to the nearest hospital for treatment. The result of the hospital examination was "severe anemia", but you felt something was wrong, and you took me to a better hospital for examination. When you got the new results, you couldn't cry, and then you called me up and told me to take me to travel. I know I must have some serious illness, I can only pretend to fall asleep and dare not put more pressure on you. In the middle of the night, I saw that you had been reading your cell phone, and then the next day I went through the discharge procedures for me and said that I would take me to Tianjin.
I thought happily that I would take me out for a trip. When I arrived in Tianjin, I saw a city outside my life for the first time through the taxi window. The buildings here are beautiful, and the streets are very distinctive. It was not until we reached the destination that I realized that things were not what I thought. It turned out that this is a hospital that specializes in treating blood diseases. A few days later, I was shaved and I was totally unconscious. When I saw sick children in the ward, my suspicion was aggravated. I never thought that the truth of the matter was that I had "leukemia".
As long as there is a mother by my side, I am not afraid of anything, even not afraid of death. In my opinion, death is nothing more than sleeplessness. In fact, I don't want to be treated. I know that this disease costs money, and the situation at home is just getting better. I don't want to put such a heavy burden on the family. So I began to refuse treatment, no medicine, no water, and only a little bit of food. You cried and said to me: "Mom only has you. If you are gone, Mom will go with you without hesitation." I'm afraid, what if you really go with me?
Since that day, I started to work hard, and everything is developing for the better. I experienced a lot in the next year, but I survived. But just in July 2020, the bad news came again and I relapsed. This news is like a bolt from the blue. I just learned that in the past year, you sold all the houses in your family to treat me. It was our only paradise for living in peace. I don’t know why, but I’m very sad after hearing you say it. It hurts more than the pain I have experienced over 10 times of chemotherapy. But you said to me: "Don't worry, as long as I take good care of myself."
Seeing more and more bills, you have borrowed a lot of money under pressure to let me go to Beijing for transplantation. Although I am fifteen years old, I miss you every day in the warehouse. After all, no matter how strong I look, I am still a child in your heart, especially when I feel uncomfortable, crying and thinking about how good you can be by your side. During this period, in fact, if you didn't tell me, I guessed that you were in love, because I have heard from the nurse sister several times that the food delivery was a man I had never seen before. There is such a big incident in our family, and there are people who treat you sincerely, indicating that this is the truth, and I am really happy for you.
But I dragged you down again, with a high fever of 39.4, followed by pancreatitis, cholecystitis, and abdominal effusion. You knew that I was serious again and finally came in to accompany me. The moment you walked in, I felt my tense spirit for 18 days completely relaxed. After getting the stomach tube, I can only lie on one side. A slight movement of the tube in my throat will make me feel unbearable pain. While crying, I wrote "Go home" on the wall. You cried and said to me: "Baby, bear with me, we will go home." Mom, in fact, I know that I will be violent this time. If I leave, don't be childish and have to follow me. Would it be nice to find someone to accompany you for the rest of your life?
By the way, there is one more thing I can’t let go of. We can survive now thanks to your help and love. I want to wait until I’m ready to meet the donor who donated my stem cells. She is in her 20s. Girl? You said that she was the one who offered to take stem cells twice. It is really precious that non-blood relationship can do this. There are also pictures of my classmates who went to the supermarket to sell compressed towels and soap in my mobile phone. I didn't dare to open it, I only dared to hide it in the phone album and lock it. In the future, I will become a great person, even if I am not great, I must also contribute to society. Only by becoming a great person can I help more people. The world is a circle. The sugar you give away will come back to you one day, are you right, mother?
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