I am married, 38 years old this year, I look pretty good and have a good alcohol tolerance. My boss likes to take me there every time I meet a customer.
I am married and have a bad relationship with my husband. My husband is a person who is not motivated. He plays games every day when he goes home, and he is very satisfied with getting a few thousand dollars a month. I had arguing with him about this, but he said I was vain and said that I was enough money to spend, but there was still no change. I have also thought about divorce, but I feel it is very troublesome. Of course, my husband also has advantages. He basically gives me all his salary and is very good to the children. 5 years ago, I cheated on my boss. Once we finished a social engagement, he said he didn't want to go home and asked me to stay with him for a while. He is a very attractive man, decisive in his work and looks good. Before that, I admired him very much. So he asked me to accompany him, and I felt quite happy because I really wanted to stay with him. That day, we crossed the last line of defense. I don't feel much guilt about my husband. I feel very wronged in marriage and need to find a balance, and the boss is that balance. We maintained that relationship after that day. My boss trusts me very much and leaves me with all the important tasks. He also taught me a lot of workplace things and made me mature a lot. I am very happy to be with my boss, but my children are growing up and knowing more and more. I feel that I should not do immoral things anymore. If the child finds out, the consequences will be serious. I mentioned breaking up several times, but my boss disagreed. He said he loved me and valued me very much, and could not live without me. As soon as he said this, I felt soft-hearted and never parted. Recently, I found out that he had a good time with a female colleague who just graduated this year. I was very angry and felt that he was not dedicated. I broke up with him again. He still disagreed and still coaxed me, saying that he and his female colleague were just having sex with him, and she would never be able to replace me in his heart. I want to know, what is his mentality? And how should I be determined to separate from him? 
