Find your inner world
Whether we read books, listen, speak or write articles, we can internalize the information we get in our hearts, thereby increasing the acuity of our hearts. If we can perform this kind of training for a long time, it will be of great help to us. Because we no longer only look at appearances when looking at things, and thinking about problems is no longer limited to joy, sorrow, gains and losses. When facing problems, if we can transcend various feelings such as gains and losses, sorrows and joys, the impact of external phenomena on us will become smaller and smaller, and our hearts will be more stable. —— Xu Zhuoyun "Going in, settle yourself"
I came back late last night and wrote a record, but I didn't blame myself very much. Maybe the ideal is to do my best and do what I can do. And what we need to do now is to write something every day. As for whether I can become a writer in the later stage, or whether I can make a living with words, it is something I don’t know.
is just to make your own records, write down your own words, be responsible for your own actions and your own life. As for what happens in the future, it has nothing to do with this matter. Today I opened a new book, Teacher Xu Zhuoyun's "Going Into, Setting Up Yourself". I got up in the morning and started reading, but missed the breakfast time. I went to the store to eat the leftover piece of buns last night, birthday cake , soaked red dates + longan + wolfberry, and continued reading.
walk in, settle yourself
The first customer who entered the store was a man, an old customer who had the ability to spend money and bought a set of 1,980 yuan bedding in our store last time. Since our store can clean and weave cashmere sweaters for free, this man left a ripped non-cashmere sweater last time. He hoped that we could help weave them. We also entrusted the factory workers to weave this unqualified piece of clothing. The workers' skillful skills were done in a few minutes, but this simple craftsmanship failed to spread to young people of my generation.
Thinking of the socks and ripped home pants I sewed myself last time, it was a disaster craft. At that time, I didn't understand that this man with consumption ability did not hesitate to buy 1,980 yuan bedding, and was willing to choose 3,500 yuan silk pajamas for his wife. He was so nostalgic about this ripped dress.
When I got this repaired piece of clothing, I seemed to understand his heart. Just like the gray sweatshirt that has been worn by myself, it carries too many memories and is also a part of the emotional sustenance. If there is still hope for remedy, of course I hope it will stay by my side and continue to accompany me.
From my personal perspective, this is not a kind of obsession, but a kind of relief. There are also these pair of gray sneakers on their feet that have been worn out by themselves and are almost eliminated. Why can't I let it go and leave? It is just a pair of shoes, not just a pair of shoes. It not only concerns who gave them to them, but also the paths it has walked with me.
will not dislike this item because it has a patch. It will only express gratitude to this patch. It gives this item another new meaning. When they can still accompany them, they will cherish them; when they complete their mission and leave themselves, they will not be sad because of their departure. is as Mr. Xu said, "Our ability to feel strong, absorb strength, and the ability to digest external information will become stronger. Through such training, the content of our lives will be richer, and the inner state that is radiated is more tolerance, more compassion, more forgiveness, and more transcendence. In this way, we can improve our abilities and personality step by step."
The second customer who entered the store was also a man, carrying a business backpack and asked if he could work in the tea room upstairs. He took the man upstairs, prepared the tea leaves, poured the water cooked in advance into the teapot, told the other party how to use the tea-making equipment and then went downstairs. This should be because of the epidemic, working from home. Listening to the sound of typing on the keyboard and answering the phone call upstairs, I recalled the seemingly distant past when I was carrying my computer around on a business trip.
My first job was in Beijing. When I was on a business trip, I would not only take a computer, but also carry my suitcase around Beijing. I stayed for a week. The company did not stipulate that it would be on a business trip, but I felt that the work efficiency would be higher;
Later, in order to facilitate business, I applied to the company for a car, and the company could reimburse the fuel expenses. At that time, I had just finished my driver's license for one month after my senior year, and drove the car from Shijiazhuang to Beijing with my father, an old driver. I had to apply for a new to Beijing license every week. I was more familiar with the roads around Beijing than Shijiazhuang, which also led to no interest in driving. At that time, I drove for 6 hours a day by myself, and it was often mountain roads. Now I mentioned that I would open long roads and open mountains. I wanted to vomit when I went on the way;
Later, I returned to Shijiazhuang. At that time, the company's office in Shijiazhuang had not yet been established and there was no office location. So I purchased a complete set of printing equipment at home and changed the bedroom into an office;
No matter when, I would bring a computer as long as I went out, the computer seemed to be part of myself. When I had dinner with my best friend, I would turn on the computer at any time. Even if the signal was unstable on the high-speed rail, I would turn on the computer. When I just got off the train and had to handle work, I would squat at the exit, put the computer on my suitcase and start working... ...
When I first started working, I kept answering the phone. Sometimes I had more than twenty calls and could answer them all day long. At that time, I didn’t feel annoyed, but I just felt that my work had changed and I felt very fulfilled. But when my mood changed later, I felt that the phone calls outside of work hours were interfering with my life. This is why after the work handover and resigned, I basically never took the phone calls from others except for my family.
Maybe I was too hard at that time and accelerated my enthusiasm for work. Sometimes I always feel that I am walking too fast, whether it is for work, love, life, or life, it is the kind of "fast" I cannot control myself. This is also the reason why I slowed down. Maybe I suddenly discovered my heart. If I was still in that "fast" rhythm, I was afraid that my life would end so quickly.
has slowed down now, and although he has realized his heart, he has not yet felt the feeling of "no longer pursuing the short-term joy of happiness, no longer pursuing the short-term vain "joy", nor will he be happy and sad for his own gains and losses, and his behavior and emotions connect to the world and soul."
Maybe your heart has been blinded for too long and you have to slowly remove the dust.
The third person who entered the store was a new colleague from our company. This was the first time we met to train the use of massage chairs in the store. A newly graduated college student did not see her in her past. The age difference of ten years may have changed greatly in her current social environment. The young people today, of course, include myself, are directly involved in this era of rapid development. There are too many people and too many reasonable confusions.
At the beginning, we were still in the official communication work, but later this colleague was brought into a new small environment I had accidentally managed. She helped me see the shop. I went upstairs to fry and heat the leftover dumplings last night, steamed 6 red bean buns, cut a plate of cantaloupe, brought them down to have lunch together, and called the young lady over to join in the rice and eat together. The young lady brought the porridge, her own pancakes, a stir-fry dish, and the leftover roast chicken last night. We were enjoying this hearty lunch at work.
In this small environment, there is comfort and comfort. At the same time, it can give you peace of mind and let you know that when you encounter difficulties, someone will persuade you and someone will comfort you. This is not just a job, it is communication between people.
When I first entered society, I also had this idea of "creating a soft way of getting along in the workplace". Later, I was assimilated by the big environment around me, and I no longer believed that I could create the kind of warm little environment I wanted in the workplace.
But later I found out that my inner strength was not strong enough at that time, so I could not affect the surrounding environment. When I grow up a little, I feel stronger inside, and I realize that I can build a new small environment with all my heart. It seems that everything can go with the frequency of your heart, just like the community bookstores, community living rooms, and the way you work in the company to get along with colleagues, community neighbors, and friends around you, you are all run by yourself, or try to influence your own efforts.
So, don’t be ruined by the general environment, don’t be assimilated, don’t go with the flow, don’t succumb to this world. Cultivate yourself to comfort others, first settle ourselves, within our ability, and then make the few people around us feel at ease. This is also the value of our existence.
I got off work before I waited for the fourth customer who entered the store today.
saw Mr. Xu’s view on “the future human world integration”. Like a view in “Long Saturday: Steiner’s Talk” I read the day before yesterday, our last stronghold in , our final stronghold is mankind, and it must not be just a country. Don’t be intrigue often, don’t believe in narrow nationalism, and get rid of ideological restrictions. This is the power of books, allowing us to see such a beautiful state and find a state where we can settle our hearts.
