That winter, I wandered in Shenzhen alone. My wife, who has been married for many years, divorced me. I am over forty and have achieved nothing. Although he is a writer, his income is not stable. And my wife is a simple mountain woman. In her opinion, I should work honestly in a factory until I get old and people don't want me, and then return to my hometown to take my grandson. Or just work with those fellow villagers in construction. If you have some skills, you can make more than 10,000 yuan a month if you go to work every day in a month. Not bad, you can go home for the elderly after saving some money. In fact, many people around me are alive like this, and they are alive at a glance.
And I don’t want to live this life like this. Every day I think about some truths and feelings of life. When I was young, I liked to write poems. Some articles have also been published in magazines. Later, with a child, in order to cope with family expenses, I also convinced myself to work and earn money with peace of mind. I have worked as a garment sewing worker, team leader, warehouse management of a logistics company, warehouse supervisor and so on.
Later, when the child got older, I re-examined my current life and suddenly found that the only person I was sorry was myself. I was a person who loves words, but I was wronged to do a job that I didn't like. Halfway through my life, if I don't try my best to do what I want to do, I will regret it in the future, so I resolutely restarted writing. I'm middle-aged, and I no longer write poetry, but like writing novels, and writing novels on the Internet is also very convenient. Finally, I quit my job. Back in the mountains of his hometown.
However, writing is not an easy task. At the beginning, there was no income at all. The ex-wife was working in a clothing factory at that time and the monthly salary was pretty good. She didn't understand me very much and thought I was slandered. She asked me to assure her how much income I have each month, and kept telling me to divorce me again and again.
In fact, I knew we were not suitable for a long time, but it was just for the children. After she quarreled with me on the phone again, I agreed to divorce her. The child has already gone to college, and he also expressed his understanding.
I heard that I agreed to divorce,She cried. But I am not moved, I don't want to live a life like this. I want to live according to my own ideas. I want to be worthy of myself.
I gave her all the real estate in my hands. I can only do so much for her. I know she might not have thought that I would really divorce her, she thought I would keep her. But this time I really want to understand. A marriage without spiritual communication is really unbearable. But the custody of the child still belongs to me.
When I left her, she was a little worried and said, how will you live in the future? Where can I make money by writing these things? Why can't you go to work and do things honestly?
I did not argue with her, we no longer have a legal relationship. The only connection between us is our son.
She never understood me, and I am used to it, and I don't want to talk to her anymore. I believe in my own strength, and I also believe that I can stick to my hobbies.
It is strange to say that my income started to rise soon after the divorce. Later, I can really have a stable income. I lived the life I wanted to live.
I bought a car and like to travel around alone to find inspiration. And my ex-wife soon found another man, who was also a working worker. I heard that he had some income, but the ex-wife still followed her husband to work outside and did not live the life she wanted.
Once, she asked her son to bring me a message and wanted to divorce her husband and remarry me. I am very general. Isn't she looking for a man who works honestly, why not? Only when I saw that my condition was better now, did I think of my goodness. Didn't she always look down on me? Why not cherish it in the early years? Instead of insulting me again and again? If she firmly supported me in the early years, we might have lived a better life.
I did not reply to her, I cannot go back to the past. If there is no suitable person, I would rather be alone all my life than worry about myself.
This time, I returned to Shenzhen, where I spent many years working. The difference is that this time I'm here to travel.
On New Year's Day, I went to a small county in Qingyuan, Guangdong. I have an uncle who works as a cleaner here. I'll go see him.
See me to see him,Uncle is very happy. But his living conditions are really terrible. Rented in a low ground floor. There is not much space inside, but he put some waste products. The air inside is very bad. But I can understand, because I have been working outside for many years and know that it is not easy to work. In order to save more money, I have to save money everywhere.
When it gets dark, I will take my uncle to the restaurant outside for dinner. Just as she was about to leave, a woman in her thirties who had a very handsome life came over in a women's electric car.
She greeted her uncle warmly. I heard my uncle call her Amei. I heard my uncle mentioned her just now. She rented a house opposite her uncle. Few people come to live here. The furniture inside is full, but only a big golden retriever dog is closed. Usually, she gave the keys to her uncle, and sometimes asked him to look after the dog for him. The furniture and refrigerator inside are also used by my uncle.
Uncle said that she works in the county court. It seems to be an ordinary civil servant! Just divorced from her husband. A man took a seven-year-old daughter. Her husband used to be a contractor, and when she had some money to raise a junior, she divorced him. Her family lives in the upper part of the community, and it is not convenient for children to raise a dog, so she keeps it here.
Uncle is alone and lonely, so he likes this dog very much. And Amei also takes care of her uncle very much in her life, maybe it's because her uncle is old and sympathizes with him! Uncle is almost sixty years old.
I also greeted Amei and thanked her for helping me take care of my uncle. She smiled gently and said, "It's okay, my uncle has helped me a lot!"
I invited her to dinner together, and she smiled and said that there are children at home. I won't force it anymore. She may find it inconvenient to be a woman. But I added her WeChat, so that I can understand the situation of my uncle easily.
Since then, we have been in contact from time to time, and gradually became familiar, and she gradually learned about my situation. Unexpectedly, she also likes to read novels. Become a loyal reader of mine. Gradually we talked a lot.
Later,She even took the initiative to meet with me in Shenzhen. We hit it off right away. Everyone is here, and there is not so much contrived. She stayed in my room that night. We have intimate contact. Everything seems so natural.
I also learned about her situation. She said that she was admitted to the civil service with great difficulty, but now it seems that she is not as good as before. She is an ordinary clerk in the work unit, with little development and low salary. Life can only be considered passable. She is a little tired of this plain and boring life. She also thought about finding another man, but because of previous injuries, she has never found a suitable one. Until I met me. Although I am a few years older than her, she trusts me very much.
Since then, our relationship has become intimate. When we have time, we will be together. Her appearance has also injected vitality into my life. During that time, I was inspired, and the novels I wrote were well received. Of course the income is pretty good.
Finally, she proposed to me the idea of getting married. Of course I like her. Her temper and character are what I like. However, my son disagrees with us being together. He supported my remarriage with my ex-wife. He said his mother was too pitiful. It seems to be working for a lifetime! The old parents in the family also want me to remarry my ex-wife.
I was out of ideas for a while. Marriages that are not blessed are bound to face many difficulties. But I really like Mei. What should i do?
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