continues to write. The doctor prescribed three kinds of medicine, and I took them home. After I got home, I checked online. I didn’t know if I didn’t check. I was shocked when I checked. They were all medicines for anxiety and depression, because my prescription list said , neurosis, and . I couldn't accept it at first. Why am I depressed now? Then I searched various online, Tieba, Toutiao, Himalaya , Baidu , etc. Some said that taking medicine is useless and there are many side effects and drug dependence. I don't think I'm anxious or depressed per se, and I feel very repulsive. I think I have severe insomnia, and the resulting headaches, palpitation, and even panic are neurasthenia. Although I don’t want to take medicine, my sleep must be improved. At this time, I listened to a lot of audios in Himalaya. Especially regarding insomnia, anxiety and depression, it was of great help to me in my recovery.
I won’t take the medicine anymore. I still have to go to class, but my sleep is very poor every day. I have headaches, palpitation, breathlessness when walking, and irritability when I hear voices. What should I do? I insist on walking to work every day. I have more than 8,000 steps, 4 to 5 kilometers away from work. I start walking slowly, which takes more than 2 hours. I get up very early every day, no matter it is windy or rainy, rain or shine, I am afraid of going to work and taking a taxi. I wear headphones when there is noise, and sometimes nothing is played. When the pain comes, I keep telling myself that it is all psychological reasons.
I continued to meditate every day and read some meditation books. Although my sleep and physical symptoms improved a little, the overall results were minimal, especially my sleep state was still very poor. what to do? Still taking medicine? ...
To be continued (will be updated later by video).
Moments from last year.
