In her heart, there is a secret that has been buried for more than ten years. Whenever her parents or relatives mention the word "marriage", it cuts into her heart like a knife. Maybe she chose death because she didn't want to suffer that pain anymore...
Xiaolian is thirty-three years old this year. In the city, she has a job that can make a living and has some like-minded friends. Although she is not married, her life is quite comfortable.
However, in the eyes of her rural parents, she is a "sorrow", and in the eyes of her relatives, she is a "joke". Now that she has left, people around her comment on her as "unfilial" and "glass-hearted"...
The story started two months ago, when Xiaolian returned to her home in the countryside during the holidays...
Two months ago, her mother met a friend she had not seen for a long time at a party. After exchanging greetings, the friend asked Xiaolian if she was married. The mother replied, not yet. That friend mentioned that he had an apprentice who was not yet married, and asked her to introduce him to unmarried girls of the right age. In this way, the two elders started chatting. They added each other on WeChat and sent each other the basic information of the two juniors.
When I got home, my mother talked about this matter with Xiaolian.
Xiao Lian's face suddenly darkened.
Her parents, relatives and friends introduced her to countless boys, but she was never moved.
People around me say that Xiaolian has high standards and is generally looked down upon. Others say that Xiaolian’s parents are difficult to handle and are not satisfied with anything.
Xiaolian's parents once said to her, "Do you think that if you don't get married, how will the people around you look at our family and our old people? We as parents all feel that we are failures. If you don't get married, who will take care of you when you get old? Who will care about you when we die? It's impossible to expect your brother. He has his own family to take care of. Look at yourself, you don't even have a home now!"
"I just don't want to get married, so I won't get married." Will divorce, there are so many divorced people around, who can lead a happy life? In this house, the east room belongs to you, and the west room belongs to my brother and sister-in-law. There is no place for me in this home, this is not my home. "
's mother heard what Xiaolian said and roared, "No matter what, if the conditions are right this time, you must marry me. The money I have spent over the years has not been repaid yet! "
After hearing this, Xiaolian said nothing and slammed the door out.
Just like that, the mother and daughter broke up on bad terms.
A few days later, the man’s parents called directly and said that they thought the two children were suitable and wanted to meet them first. If the eye-catching relationship is okay, then get married directly. There are houses and cars. The betrothal gift is also easy to talk about. What they mean is that their children are getting older and they want to have grandchildren as soon as possible.
Although Xiaolian's parents feel that they are a little too anxious, the man is in good condition and highly educated, so Xiaolian will definitely be happy if she marries him.
The parents agreed without telling Xiaolian.
A few days later, her parents said they would take Xiaolian to visit relatives and brought Xiaolian to the hotel, where the man's parents were waiting for them. When Xiaolian saw all this, her heart felt as if she had been hit by a stone, and she felt very uncomfortable. While the parents of both parties were chatting, the so-called boyfriend kept looking at Xiaolian, but Xiaolian didn't say much. The two exchanged WeChat messages, but they only stopped at WeChat.
The next day, Xiaolian went out for a walk as usual. But he still hadn't come back by noon. The parents were anxious and went out to look for it. Finally, Xiaolian was found by the river. At this time, Xiaolian was no longer breathing. The parents collapsed instantly, fell to their knees, hugged Xiaolian, and cried loudly.
When relatives were helping Xiaolian sort out her belongings, they found a suicide note.
The contents of the suicide note shocked all relatives.
It turns out that when Xiaolian was young, someone tried to rape her. She kept fighting back, and someone was passing by, so the bad guy let Xiaolian go. But this incident left a big shadow in Xiaolian's heart. She never mentioned this to anyone.
Normally, she would not remember this. However, once marriage and dating are mentioned, she will think of it.She will be scared and panicked. She has not told anyone else about this matter, and she has taken it upon herself for more than ten years. She couldn't cross this hurdle.
Others always think that she is picky and demanding, but no one knows the reason why she really doesn't want to get married. I never really wanted to know the reason why she didn't want to get married.
But, unexpectedly, after Xiaolian passed away, people around her not only failed to understand her, but some even said that she was unfilial, fragile, and sorry for everyone.
But who can think about Xiaolian?
The things that happened when I was a child will really stay with me for a lifetime. How can we heal those unspeakable things and those wounds deep in our souls?
