Beijing boy Zhou Lijun is a handsome academic master, but his love is extremely difficult because his family has a history of mental illness. When the stepmother took her daughter into his life, an incredible love came...
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My name is Zhou Lijun, I am 35 years old this year, and my ancestral home is Zhoukou, Henan. When I was 4 years old, my family settled in Beijing with my father who was demobilized and transferred.
As long as I can remember, my dad is not only heroic, but also a superman. He was busy with housework after work and housework, and he was very gentle to my mother.
And my mother, except for being good-looking, can do nothing.
She doesn't even go out of the house, sitting in front of the window all day long and talking to herself, sometimes giggling foolishly. Without my dad's help, she didn't even comb her hair and was just dispersed in such a mess.
The 9-year-old sister is already in the third grade. My father gave it to me in the morning. After she returned home by herself at noon, she would warm up her meal for the three of us. I asked my dad, "Why isn't my mom like other kids' mothers? Why doesn't she even cook for us?"
My dad sighed, touched my little head and said, "You will understand when you grow up."
But before I could grow up, my mother committed suicide. From the conversation between relatives and my dad, I learned that my mom was mentally ill. My grandma is the same, and she ends her life in the same way.
Later, my sister also began to talk nonsense and laugh for no reason, and I realized that mental illness is inherited.
In those years, my dad sent me to a boarding school and then took my sister to see a doctor everywhere. My sister also obediently took the medicine and her condition was controlled relatively stable. But the atmosphere in my house has always been depressing and gloomy.
On National Day in 2002, someone introduced my dad to a partner - fat aunt Xu Ying, an accountant in the printing factory, widowed, and a daughter named Yuanyuan, who is three years younger than me.
When the fat aunt brought Yuanyuan to my house for the first time, she asked me enthusiastically, what do I want to eat at noon? He also said that he could cook any kind of dish. When I answered "meat patties", her hearty laughter seemed to shake the entire building.
The meat pie that day was thin and fragrant, and I ate two big pieces in one breath. My sister also had a great time eating and shouted at the fat aunt: "Mom!"
Half a year later, the fat aunt became my stepmother and Yuanyuan became my sister.
Yuanyuan is lively and cheerful, and her mouth is sweet, which makes my dad feel happy. She admired me sincerely and said that her classmates envied her for having a top student brother. Yuanyuan also likes my sister very much and calls her "Damei Sister".
I, who is introverted by nature, can never call out the "mom" to the fat aunt, but this does not prevent my stepmother from being nice to me.
I am 16 years old and grow up fast. My dad asked me to pick up his leftover clothes to wear. When I got home on the weekend, my stepmother bought a new set of clothes for me to change into. It was the first time I felt the love from my mother.
Yuanyuan looked at her and blamed her for having a son and forgetting her daughter. The stepmother scolded Yuanyuan for being "unsensible and insulting".
Listening her scolding Yuanyuan, a hint of envy surged in my heart. Because although my stepmother took good care of me in terms of food and clothing, she always spoke politely and distantly.
My father also warmed Yuanyuan with his sincere fatherly love. She will try to satisfy whatever she likes. Once, my dad went to pick up Yuanyuan after school and saw her surrounded by two gangsters. My dad picked up the brick and rushed over, and his aura scared the two gangsters away.
After that, those bastards never made trouble for Yuanyuan again.
In those years, the atmosphere in my family was very peaceful. My sister was carefully taken care of by her stepmother and never got sick.
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2005, I was admitted to Beijing University of Aeronautics and Astronautics in the college entrance examination. At that time, Yuanyuan was facing a high school rise. That summer, my stepmother asked me to help Yuanyuan prepare her high school homework, and I happily agreed.
At the beginning, Yuanyuan was very respectful to me, and I was a little restrained. Before this, I was busy with my studies in boarding school and didn’t have much interaction with her.
This day, I was concentrating on the topic and found that she was staring at me straight.I asked her, "Why don't you read a book? I don't have Pythagorean theorem on my face." Yuanyuan blushed and said with a smile, "Brother, I just found that your side looks pretty good."
This time I blushed and hurriedly covered it up by explaining the topic.
After a while, she couldn't hold it in anymore: "Can we not speak like this? It's so awkward. If you think I'm stupid, just say it out and let me die." I also chuckled. She continued, "Brother, I don't want to do the test anymore, let's chat for a while!" Before I could answer, she asked, "Do you miss your real mother?"
I blurted out, "Of course I think, how can I not think!"
She said, "I miss my dad too. When my dad left, I cried for a long time, but I had to pretend to be fine during the day. At that time, I hated my mom very much. I thought she was betraying my dad when she went on a blind date. But later, I realized that she was remarried for me to not be looked down upon and not bullied. I shouldn't have said such ugly things to her before."
I used to seeing her heartless appearance, and her sensible appearance at this moment is really heartbreaking.
I couldn't help but touch her head and said, "Don't worry, no one can bully you if you have a brother here in the future. I will definitely take you as my own sister!" She blinked her big eyes and looked at me, without saying a word.
That summer vacation, my parents went to work, my sister played by herself, and Yuanyuan and I were in her room, learning for a while and chatting for a long time, and cooking together at noon.
Green pepper, eggs, potato brisket, the kitchen is full of fragrance. With Yuanyuan, this pistachio is here, cooking is no longer boring.
One day at noon, after I explained it to her, I was reading a book by myself. She didn't move for a long time. When I looked again, she fell asleep on the desk. She usually feels like a quiet kitten.
I couldn't help but pick up the pen and started drawing it on the paper.
I just finished drawing and she seemed to be about to wake up. I quickly put away the drawing and put it in the book.
Three years later, Yuanyuan was admitted to a junior college in Hangzhou. Before leaving, she carried our whole family. Later, Yuanyuan often asked if I had a girlfriend and what kind of girl I liked, but I didn’t dare to think about that.
In fact, since middle school, girls have been showing goodwill to me, but I refused all of them. My classmates all said that I was cold in private.
But who knows the pain in my heart. When I think that three generations of relatives in my family are mentally ill, although I am temporarily spared, it is still unknown whether I will get sick in the future. Let’s take a step back, even if I’m lucky enough to not get sick, my dad is getting older and older, and my sister can only rely on me to live in the future, and I don’t have the courage to take that step at all.
I never expected that Yuanyuan confessed to me during the summer vacation of her freshman year.
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One day in July 2009, Beijing was as hot as a steamer, and I was reviewing and preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination at home. My dad is on duty at work, and my stepmother and Yuanyuan make dumplings in the kitchen.
After lunch, our stepmother went to deliver dumplings to my dad and asked Yuanyuan to wash the dishes.
After a while, I heard Yuanyuan calling me in the kitchen. I thought she was going to assign me to work again, so as soon as I entered the kitchen, I bent down and picked up the rag.
Unexpectedly, she suddenly leaned over and said, "Brother, I like you. It's the kind of love between men and women."
For a moment, I just felt my blood rushing upwards and my heart was disobedient and wanted to jump out.
I pushed her away in a hurry: "Don't...don't do this, we are brothers and sisters." I forced myself to be calm, and even my words were not smooth.
But she hugged me tighter, and she was still talking: "Anyway, we are not related by blood, what are you afraid of!"
When talking about blood, my heart sank: "That's not possible! You know the situation in our family, mental illness is inherited. If I get along with you, wouldn't it harm you!"
She suddenly let go of her hand, stood in front of me with her face raised, and said, "I don't care! Can't you see that? I have liked you since that summer vacation.In this year in Hangzhou, I have never missed you. During the day, I am in your mind during class, in your mind at night, and even the nightmare you are in your mind. You and others don’t want me anymore…”
She sobbed quietly, and I couldn’t help but feel distressed and couldn’t help but hug her into my arms.
Suddenly, with a "bang", I saw my stepmother standing at the kitchen door with a shocked face, and the insulation bucket in my hand fell to the ground.
I glanced at my stepmother and saw that she seemed to be trying hard to suppress her anger. She alertly pulled Yuanyuan and pulled her into the room. I went back to my room nervously, tilting my ears to listen to the movements next door.
I heard Yuanyuan say, “What’s wrong with me just like my brother? "Then, with a "bang", it seemed that the stepmother slapped Yuanyuan, and followed by the stepmother's suppressed roar: "Who are you not good to like? There are so many good men in the world, so do you have to care about a mentally ill son? "
I was stunned. The stepmother, who was "a bitch-mouthed and tofu-hearted" in my impression, actually thought of our family like this. My previous guilt was filled with anger. After that, I was in noon. What did they talk about? I was in the mood to listen.
My father also rushed back quickly, and his stepmother pulled him into the room with a ugly face.
At noon that day, my father and stepmother had the first quarrel since their marriage, and it was also the last time. That afternoon, the stepmother took Yuanyuan back to them. ml3 The former residence of in Chaoyang District.
Yuanyuan sent a text message to apologize to our whole family for her mother. She said "I'm sorry" to me many times and said she would fight with her mother to the end.
That night, my father and I walked to the midnight snack stall outside and ordered a few side dishes. The first time we were drinking together.
My father drank too much, treated me as a stepmother, grabbed my arm, and repeatedly said, "You can do whatever you want, but you can't insult my deceased wife! You can't insult my child! These two are my bottom line! So...Divorce! "
After saying that, he picked up the wine glass and drank it all. Tears were flowing all over his face.
My sister didn't know if it was because of the "war" that day, or because her stepmother left, her father didn't take care of her carefully enough, and her condition worsened. Looking at her like this, I felt both distressed and scared.
I replied to Yuanyuan: You are a good girl, let's forget about our affairs, after all, what your mother said is true. Our family is mentally ill, but we don't harm others!
My father and stepmother's divorce The procedures were completed in a week.
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On August 25, I received a message, which was Yuanyuan, who was on the high-speed rail back to Hangzhou.
She said that she thought it very seriously that she would not meet me or contact me in the next two years. If her intentions still insist on me not marrying, it proves that her love for me can withstand any storm, and then I must marry her!
I read the message repeatedly, but my heart was overwhelmed, but there was no reply.
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Yuanyuan really didn't contact me in the next time. She no longer took the initiative to report to me where she went, what she ate, what she ate and what she played.
But I couldn't help but go to her QQ space , ren online to explore her life footprints, wanting to know what she did every day, who she met, and what she talked about.
I told myself that this is my brother's concern for my sister. But the girl around me shows goodwill to me One by one, I couldn't see it.
When I lost contact with Yuanyuan, I failed the postgraduate entrance examination and found a bank in Beijing.
When I didn't work, I stayed at home all day, stayed in the room where Yuanyuan lived, recalling the scene of us sitting in a row and talking and laughing, thinking of her words "Brother, I like you", I felt sweet and sad.
Even my father could see something wrong with me, and he advised me: "Love is fulfillment. Since it can't give others happiness, letting go as soon as possible is good for both of us. ”
I smiled bitterly and nodded. If I could let go, I would have let it go.
20 On August 4, 2011, when Yuanyuan contacted me ten days earlier than the two years she promised, I was ecstatic.
The moment I saw her, tears were about to come out.
After sitting down, I tried hard to suppress the pain of lovesickness and felt very nervous. Yuanyuan was still cheerful. She opened her backpack directly, took out a dark blue notebook from it and handed it to me.
When I opened the first page, I was stunned.
Inside is a pencil drawing . It was the small painting I drew while Yuanyuan was sleeping during the tutoring work that year. And this small painting was sealed by her and posted on the homepage of the notebook.
I looked at Yuanyuan guiltily, and she smiled calmly.
I quickly looked at the notebook again and saw that it was neatly recorded related issues about psychiatry, and each problem was marked with the source and time of recording, as well as the key points of the red strokes. The 22-page notebook recorded as much as 1 page.
Although the familiar handwriting has already explained everything, I still couldn't help but confirm: "You wrote these... all of them?" Yuanyuan pursed her lips and nodded.
I continued to look back, and the next is her summary: Although family mental illness has a certain genetic tendency, it is not 100% inherited to everyone, because the cause of the disease is often related to genetic gene , personal psychological status, and environmental factors.
Close the book and I ran into Yuanyuan's bright eyes.
She danced and showed me how many bookstores she had gone to and studied hard for half a year. Now she is almost half a psychiatrist. She also said that doing this is more addictive than listening in class.
Yuanyuan, who had a headache when she saw a book, even the review notes before the college entrance examination were all sorted out by me. But now, she has done so much for me, and I am so soft-hearted.
That day, Yuanyuan and I officially established a romantic relationship.
In order to avoid acquaintances, we will run outside the Fourth Ring Road during dates. We plan to work hard while interacting in secret and accumulate strength for our future!
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On a weekend night in 2014, when I took Yuanyuan home, I just walked downstairs and was caught by Yuanyuan's mother who was going downstairs to throw garbage.
Recognizing that it was me, her face changed drastically, she quickly stepped forward and separated my and Yuanyuan's hands, and pushed me hard and told me to leave.
Yuanyuan shouted angrily at her: "Mom, what are you doing? Why are you driving him away?" She simply pulled me and went home.
Yuanyuan's mother was so angry that she stomped her feet and chased us upstairs. Yuanyuan asked her: "Mom, you could accept his father at that time, why can't you accept me in love with his son now?"
"Can it be the same? I marry his father, in order to see his father have a good person, a good job, and a good treatment when he gets old!"
I quickly continued: "Auntie, I can also give Yuanyuan a living like this. With my work and income, even if I take on the responsibility of taking care of my sister alone in the future, it is no problem. You don't have to worry."
But no matter how I explain, Yuanyuan's mother couldn't listen.
She even changed her strategy and begged me: "Junzi, my aunt hasn't treated you badly over the years, right? It's not easy for me to pull Yuanyuan up alone. I beg you, don't cheat my daughter! Is it okay?"
Faced with Yuanyuan's mother's use of both soft and hard work, I had nothing to say, so I had to leave with a dirt.
In order to show his determination, Yuanyuan's mother has either pretended to be sick or went on a hunger strike since then to threaten her by cutting off the relationship between mother and daughter.
That weekend, Yuanyuan's mother went on a hunger strike. For two consecutive days, she had not yet made any rice. Yuanyuan was very worried and asked me what to do?
I thought about it for a while and had an idea. I asked Yuanyuan to take the initiative to go to the kitchen to cook, and only cook her mother's favorite dishes for each meal. Then buy her mother's favorite snacks and put them in the cabinet that she can see when she raises her eyes. After the meal is ready, let Yuanyuan eat easily and leave when she is full.
As a matter of fact that night, when Yuanyuan came back to "digest" the dishes in the kitchen did not move, but several packs of snacks were missing.In less than three days, when Yuanyuan came back, the food she left in the dishes was already bottoming out.
Yuanyuan praised me for having a solution and asked me how I thought of this trick? I said, "Looking at the old lady's unchanging body shape, you will know what she is like."
In this way, my underground relationship with Yuanyuan was strengthened by the old lady's "demonic" from time to time.
But during the Spring Festival in 2018, Yuanyuan's mother gave us a big shock.
On the second day of the Lunar New Year, Yuanyuan called me crying in an ambulance and said that her mother had cerebral infarction , and she was confused and couldn't explain anything. I told her not to worry, and asked them which hospital they were going to, and I'll arrive soon.
In the hospital, I comforted the panicked Yuanyuan while running all kinds of procedures all over the hospital. Afterwards, I was invited to the doctor's office to interview the patient's condition and follow-up treatment plan.
Because there are too many professional terms, I was afraid that I couldn't remember it, so I turned on the recording function of the mobile phone and played it back to Yuanyuan. The two of them discussed the most favorable treatment plan together.
That night, I used the time I accompanied the bed to call my dad and told me the love between me and Yuanyuan.
He didn't speak for a long time after listening to it, and hung up the phone silently. At around 1 a.m., my dad sent me a WeChat message: When Yuanyuan's mother is discharged from the hospital, you can take Yuanyuan to your house.
Aunt Xu was not seriously injured because he was sent to the hospital in time.
But when she woke up, she turned her face and said, "Go away quickly, you will get sick as soon as you see you."
I patiently advised, "Auntie, don't rush to drive me away first. You see that you are busy with work and taking care of you, so tired that your feet are not touching the ground. Just think that I am here to repay you for your care for me and my sister over the years."
Yuanyuan's mother glanced at Yuanyuan who was sleeping curled up at her feet. She didn't say anything for a long time, which was considered as accustomed to my care.
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While Yuanyuan's mother was hospitalized, due to work, Yuanyuan usually came after work.
I took one anniversary leave specially, and pushed Yuanyuan's mother for examination during the day, stared at the infusion, fed medicine regularly, and accompanied Yuanyuan with the bed at night, almost always there.
This day, when I came back from the meal, I heard a new patient from the bed next door praise Yuanyuan's mother: "Sister, you are so lucky. It is rare for young people to be as filial as your son."
Seeing me at the door, Yuanyuan's mother didn't explain too much, and laughed and called.
That night, when Yuanyuan came to the hospital, she told me in the corridor that her mother asked her to recognize me as her brother. What else did you say, "When you get married in the future, my mother's family can have such a reliable person to support you, then I can rest assured even if I die."
Yuanyuan was anxious when she heard this: "What are you thinking? He is the only person I want to marry in my life! Not a brother of my mother!"
When Yuanyuan finished reposting to me angrily, I laughed out loud: "This is a good thing! Think about it, the aunt has been extremely repulsive of me before to now approving me, which means that she is getting closer and closer on the way to accepting me!"
Yuanyuan stuck out her tongue at me, and her face became brighter.
Half a month later, Yuan's mother was discharged from the hospital. Following my dad's instructions, I took Yuanyuan home the next day.
My father took her into my sister's room first. When he saw that my sister had no expression and had no memory of her at all, Yuanyuan's eyes suddenly turned red.
When I returned to the living room and sat down, my dad told me about the medical history of my grandma and my mother in detail from beginning to end, and also showed her the diagnosis of taking my sister to the hospital for treatment in recent years.
"Although I'm afraid that my son will die alone, you are also the pearl of your parents' eyes. If your biological father is still there, I think he will not agree to you. You are still young and prone to emotional matters. Let's stop with your brother!"
Who knew that Yuanyuan suddenly asked: "Dad, do you regret falling in love with your aunt now?"
"This..." My dad was attacked by the head and said, "You girl, when I fell in love with your aunt back then, she didn't even know that she had this disease! When I knew about it, your beautiful sister was already full moon.I just hope you understand: love can be spent in the moonlight; marriage must shoulder responsibilities! "
Yuanyuan smiled and said firmly: "Don't worry, I will never regret it if there is such a day! "
I mustered up the courage and held Yuanyuan's hand in front of my dad, "Dad, don't worry, we truly love each other, I have the confidence and ability to give her happiness! "
I said this and did it.
The next day, I checked the daily care of patients with cerebral infarction on the Internet and found that in addition to ensuring nutrition and health, normal physical exercise is also essential.
Yuanyuan said that her mother just likes to eat but not move. Then we took her to move. After discussing with Yuanyuan, the location was chosen in Chaoyang Park and bought outdoor tables and chairs in advance.
The result was the same as expected. Yuanyuan's mother would rather watch TV at home than go out for activities, so she couldn't move at all.
I said, "Auntie, you were unconscious at the time. The doctor said that you must move frequently in this disease and cannot sit for a long time, otherwise the incidence rate will increase. Let’s go to the park for a walk first. I have all prepared everything when I’m tired and have water when I’m thirsty. "
But the old lady pretended to be deaf and dumb and treated me as air. Seeing this, Yuanyuan hurriedly launched a fierce attack and said, "Your favorite Jindingxuan has a new dish, so don't you want to try it? "
Hearing this, Yuanyuan's mother turned off the TV very quickly, but she was still stubborn: "I'll leave the words here first. Even if I go with you, it doesn't mean I agree! "
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In the park, Yuanyuan's mother cursed and walked with us for most of the day. Along the way, her mouth never stopped: "Boy, I knew you were holding it up here. "Yuanyuan was also scolded by her, "When the elbow was twisted out, the two of them joined together to fool me, my legs were going to be tired..."
I blinked at Yuanyuan, and Yuanyuan also responded to me playfully. Having the strength to scold us means she still has the strength, so let's go for a while.
Listen to Yuanyuan's mother scold me, there was no difference between her scolding Yuanyuan, and I felt that the envy of childhood was filled.
At dinner time, we ordered dishes that can not only take care of Yuanyuan's mother's appetite, but also good for her body.
After this, Yuanyuan's mother's enthusiasm for criticizing me was obviously weaker.
In order to consolidate the effect, I customized a pair of 5 grams of gold bracelets for her on Yuanyuan's mother's birthday .
I heard Yuanyuan say that although her mother scolded me for being old-fashioned, she saw her taking photos and sending them to her sisters to show off.
At the beginning of last year, I bought a small two-bedroom apartment, completed the house book, and added Yuanyuan's name to it. After the house was completed, I asked Yuanyuan to take the house book home to store it.
And then, I went for a genetic screening and handed over the test results to Yuanyuan. Of course, the old lady would not let go of these information. I heard that she was wearing reading glasses and carefully identified it for a long time.
I heard that I didn't even get my mother-in-law, so I wrote the names of two people in the house book. My colleagues around me joked: "I have seen a dedicated person, but I have never seen you have such a long-lasting love." Are you afraid of being beaten in the end? ”
I smiled and said, "We have been in love for 10 years, and she has suffered so much for me. How can I not be brave for her? "
This Spring Festival, Yuanyuan's cousin brought her three-year-old son back to her parents' home crying.
I heard that after her husband lost his job due to the epidemic, he has not only been at home for more than a year, but what is more hateful is that his suspicion is getting worse and worse. He verbally insulted and fisted to his cousin at any time.
My cousin went to work to support the family during the day, and after work, he had to suffer from her husband's suspicion and torture. She really couldn't stand it and insisted on divorce.
With the misfortune of her niece, Yuanyuan's mother was also greatly shocked and was depressed throughout the Spring Festival.
One day in April, the old lady suddenly said to Yuanyuan: "Think about it, you two have been 13 years since that summer, alas! Over the years, I have tried my best not to let you get along with him: I will arrange a blind date for you, but you will not go; I will design a chance encounter for you, but you will not look at others with your eyes.
"It's been 13 years. He won't marry you or not, and you two are just consuming it. In fact, in my heart, I feel like a mirror. If I didn't take my feelings into consideration, then kid would have a way to take action first and then report. In the final analysis, he is still upright.
"How many 13 years can a person have in his life? I have figured it out through your cousin's matter. After all, women, after all, they still have to marry a man with good personal character, strong ability and good deeds to you with heart! "
Yuanyuan widened her eyes and looked at her mother: "Do you... agree with us? "
Yuanyuan's mother carefully took out a small box from the top of the wardrobe, wrapped it tightly, and handed the household registration book that she had been hiding for several years to Yuanyuan's hand.
Yuanyuan took the household registration book, hugged her mother excitedly, and then told me all this.
The next morning, Yuanyuan and I both took leave and killed the Civil Affairs Bureau.
This year, because of the epidemic, Yuanyuan and I could not gather, and Yuanyuan and I were in my father, sister and Yuan A simple wedding was held under the witness of Yuan's mother.
The music started, and it was the song "Finally Waiting for You". "I finally waited for you, but fortunately I didn't give up. Happiness came so hard that people cherished it even more..." Seeing Yuanyuan wearing a white dress and walking towards me like Snow White, my eyes suddenly turned red.
This is the girl who occupies half of my youth, and finally waited for her.
Love is very expensive and cannot be wasted. So, sister, please give me more advice for the rest of my life! (Hua Si'an/text)
