I can't sleep in the quiet night. I leaned against the window and looked up at the dark sky. The lingering sadness instantly filled my heart. I think, if it weren't for the fate that was destined in the dark, maybe I had no chance to meet him at all; if it wasn't for my intentional addition to him as a friend of QQ, maybe we were just sitting next to him like passers-by; if it wasn't for the repeated drive of curiosity, maybe finding a relationship with him was just a dragonfly, if it wasn't for an accident, maybe I would always be aware of it, looking for a grave that had fallen in the phoenix before it was blooming, and I couldn't help but burst into tears, my heart was cut like a knife.
01
10 years ago, when I was playing games in an Internet cafe, I accidentally caught a glimpse of a soldier with extraordinary demeanor, and I couldn't help but feel respect for soldiers since I was a child. I peeked at his QQ number by chance and added him as a friend with excitement.
may be because of the fate, and we couldn't close it again as soon as we opened it, and more than an hour passed in a flash. He suddenly said anxiously that the time to return to the team was almost up and he had to leave. I teased him mischievously and said, "Guess who I am?" You can leave only if you guess it. He asked in confusion, "Who are you?"
I posted a tongue-stick expression and gave him a "order"
and said, "Listen to my command, turn back, and look forward." He turned his head "obediently", and we couldn't help but look at each other tacitly. He left hurriedly with a brilliant look on his face, leaving me with a strange and kind back.
I originally thought this was just a beautiful encounter, but half a month later, fate arranged for us to meet again. At that time, I was fighting monsters with relish and accidentally caught a glimpse of a person next to me at some point, and my thief's eyes glanced at me from time to time.
I turned my head unbearably and stared at him fiercely. He smiled and called out my name. Only then did I realize that it was Xiao Peng.
He asked me with a narcissistic smile, how about it? I have changed my hairstyle, are you so handsome that you can't recognize me? I was so angry that I couldn't breathe. This kid was so shameless that he actually put a gild on his face like this. However, he said it truthfully, what he said was not false.
Unfortunately, he only stayed for a moment and left in a hurry. Before leaving, we left each other’s phone numbers. Since then, I haven’t met him again for many days, so I called him and asked him, “Are you busy recently?” Do you have time to come out and sit? Unexpectedly, this kid actually smiled evilly, mixed with a bit of ruffianism. "What's wrong? Do you miss me?"
2
"Bah, peacock opens his tail and , making him feel passionate." I spat angrily, and the urge to beat him up suddenly surged in my heart, but I couldn't find a trace of wanting to be angry. Instead, I found that it is actually quite fun to argue with him in a boring life.
After that, we often greet each other like old friends, and occasionally come out to have a breath of wind together. He is a strange and mysterious person. Sometimes, he is like a chatterbox, talking endlessly when he opens his mouth; sometimes he looks like a thinker, silent; sometimes he is like a gangster, speaking unrestrainedly "feeling" words; sometimes, he is like a stutter, speaking red and inexplicably.
I remember that on National Day one month after I met, I was bored at home alone, so I asked him if he had time to come out for a gathering? He said regretfully on the phone that he was accompanying his parents to travel outside. Then, I have to go back to my hometown with my parents.
But in the evening, he ran to knock on my door. I asked him wonder why he didn't accompany his parents home? He said with a slight smile that he didn't leave because he couldn't bear to leave. I suddenly felt confused. Where did I have such great charm? He said diligently, of course, or he would not have come to ask me for photos on his parents' orders. I asked him wonderingly, what kind of bad water is you holding in your stomach? Pour it out for me quickly! Then he honestly told him that his parents always urged him to fall in love, and he had to lie that I was his girlfriend.I said with a lot of laughter, you are too brave, aren’t you afraid that you will not come to Taiwan if you are helping me one day? He patted his chest confidently and said, as long as we cooperated and knew well, we would ensure that
would not make any mistakes. I reminded him with concern that if your parents ask you to get married as soon as you retire from the army, I see how your kid ends then?
3
He smiled easily and spread his hands to me. "This matter is easy to deal with. I will marry you then." I said angrily, "Bah, I'm so shameless, you dare to fight the idea of "the master is famous flower". Seeing that I was about to get angry, he grabbed the small album on my desk, turned around and ran away.
One night later, he called my phone, but he wanted to speak but stopped. I asked him what was wrong? He smiled strangely and said, "It's nothing." I was busy working overtime at the time, so I hurriedly hung up the phone. After working overtime on a row, I wanted to "interrogate" him if his head was clamped by the door that night.
After his phone was connected, a woman's voice suddenly broke into my ears. When I was wondering if I dialed the wrong number, the other party actually called out my name accurately. Before I could wait for surprise, I asked her who she was? She told herself that he was Xiao Peng's mother.
I was about to ask her to call Xiao Peng to answer the phone, but she told me in a heavy tone that when Xiao Peng was warding a few days ago, he suddenly died of . 120 It took him an hour to rescue him in the spot before his heartbeat was revived. After being sent back to the hospital, I was rescued for three consecutive days before I was out of danger...
I hurriedly "questioned" her, why didn't I tell me earlier? Tears of fear instantly burst into my eyes...
I rushed to the hospital anxiously, through the transparent glass of ward of ICU. Seeing his whole body full of tubes and his hands and feet were tightly tied, my heart couldn't help but sting...
I asked the doctor when he would wake up, and I only got one sentence, "Wait patiently." I left the hospital with heavy steps, and my melancholy kept lingering in my heart. A few days later, I came to the hospital again with concern. I felt a little relieved to hear that he was out of danger.
Perhaps because of my understanding, as soon as I approached his bed, his fingers moved slightly. While I was surprised, he slowly opened his eyes and woke up from his "sleep". However, his eyes were so confused and unfamiliar when he looked at me.
Just as I doubted whether he had lost his memory, his eyes suddenly began to focus, and a light of joy flashed in an instant. I held his hand happily and he blinked at me excitedly. Unfortunately, he had just removed the trachea and was unable to speak for the time being, so we looked at each other silently for a long time...
When I got up and left, his lips moved slightly a few times, and his mother translated. "Don't leave." Looking at his reluctant eyes, an inexplicable sorrow surged in my heart. When my aunt sent me out, she said that Xiao Peng has been shy since she was a child and doesn't like to interact with girls. She will blush even if she says something. I listened half-believingly and wondered, what kind of face does this brat look like?
In the following days, I was busy looking for a new job and couldn't see Xiao Peng for a long time. But I was always concerned about him. As soon as the new job was implemented, I rushed to the hospital to see him.
When I walked downstairs of the inpatient department, I called my aunt and asked her how Xiao Peng was recovering? Is there anything I want to eat? However, after the phone was connected, a turbid air sound was heard. I guess it must be Xiao Peng talking on the other end, so I asked him to hand the phone to the aunt.
Xiao Peng kept chattering stubbornly, and I couldn't understand a single note, so I had to hang up the phone helplessly. When he walked into the ward, his sister smiled and told me that Xiao Peng just said, I'm sorry, it's not convenient to pick you up. I asked warmly, how has he recovered recently? His sister replied that he was still coaxed him and said that he was the one who brought him here, so he was willing to listen to life obediently. It was really a thing that was something that was brought down by another.
Listening to his sister's words, I couldn't help but feel melancholy. When Xiao Peng saw me coming, his eyes were filled with joy. After I sat down, my aunt was doing the translator.But when she reached the middle of the journey, she suddenly stopped and looked at me mysteriously and smiled. I looked at her in confusion, and then at Xiao Peng's anxious expression. When Xiao Peng transformed a series of complex lip shapes into a simple lip shape, I finally understood his confession to me.
was moved, and I couldn't help feeling sad. I didn't know what to say for a moment, so I had to pretend not to understand. Seeing that Ajie and I had no explanation for a long time, Xiao Peng made a dissatisfaction voice at the aunt with a dark face. The aunt asked in confusion, are you going to drive us away? But what should I do if Qiuqiu doesn’t understand what you say?
Xiao Peng stared at him and lost his temper, so his aunt and sister had to leave. Xiao Peng signaled me to hand him his hand, and I instinctively wanted to refuse. However, facing his pitiful eyes, I didn't have the courage to retract my hand and could only let him hold it tightly. He kept talking to himself, as if I didn't need me to understand what he meant, but I just needed me to be a loyal listener.
After this separation, I haven't seen Xiao Peng again for a long time, and I am determined to help him forget myself. However, I finally called his cell phone because I was worried about his condition. As soon as he heard my voice, he couldn't wait to ask me to go and see him immediately. I instinctively wanted to refuse, but I couldn't bear it when I heard his intermittent, weak voice.
5
When I walked into the ward, Xiao Peng asked me indifferently who I was? I said to him angrily, Who do you think I will be? At this time, his sister whispered to me, he might really not know who I am now. The aunt couldn't say that before you came, he treated us as witches and said that we would turn him into a pig.
I pointed at myself in the photo and asked Xiao Peng, who is this? He said with certainty that it was Qiuqiu, and I was not Qiuqiu, let alone Qiuqiu's beauty. I took back the photo and said, since he couldn't recognize me, I wouldn't leave the photo to him. He quickly reached out to grab it, and even called me a hooligan in his mouth. I couldn't help but ask him, "What kind of hooligan do I want?" He said seriously, this is the boy's dormitory, you go out. Seeing that I ignored him, he asked the doctor to drive me out. Unexpectedly, the doctor ignored him, and he was so angry that he gritted his teeth and said, "Hmph, dare to ignore me, be careful that after I am discharged from the hospital, you will all be eliminated. The doctor teased him a few words and left with a smile.
After some days, he finally remembered me. However, he could never remember the past. Later, when he was taking care of him, he was extremely dependent on me when he was awake; when he was confused, he was indifferent to me. His situation of being good and bad has always made me feel uneasy. My concern continued until he returned to Wuhan with his family. I really don’t know when he will return to normal? At this time, the " Plato Love " between me and A Changtian also came to an end.
When I was feeling worse, Xiao Peng called
to tell me that he wanted to go back to Chengdu to go through the discharge procedures. He talked to me a lot excitedly and made an appointment to meet for tea. I thought with relief that he had finally returned to normal.
But on the day I met, I became a "stranger" again. He politely returned the photo to me, and turned around and left without saying a word, leaving me with a strange and cold back. I couldn't help feeling sad. Could this be the ending between us?
Not long after he went back, he remembered me again and asked me for a photo, so I emailed him. However, as soon as I sent the email, he forgot his password, so I decided to pass it on QQ to him; what's bad is that he forgot his QQ password too; in addition to being depressed, I had to mail it to him. Hell, he can't receive it. I wondered, was it God who used teasing to imply that between me and him, he was already destined to be a passerby without fate?
For two long years, his memory is still erratic, and sometimes he doesn't even know who "Qiuqiu" is. I thought, since I can't leave a mark in his heart, why not quietly fade out of his life? In this way, it is a kind of liberation for oneself and oneself. However, just as I was determined to withdraw, I accidentally received the reply letter from that email.
While I was surprised, I received a long-lost call. I asked him knowingly, do you know who Qiuqiu is? He said excitedly that Qiuqiu was the person he loved very much, and he sang to show his love on the other end of the phone.
"The cold wind blows the drizzle blur
The wind and rain unlock my enlightenment
I am like a boat looking for a harbor
Can't forget you
Hope of love
Love aftertaste
Love past hard to remember
Flowers in the wind I'm afraid of withering
I would like to think you wish you blessing
I love you My heart belongs to you
This life will never move
There is no one in my heart
replace your status..."
Outside the window in late autumn, it was raining, but warm currents were surging in my heart. Tears of happiness spiral down, rushing happily on my face. Although his memory of me is still in the hospital, at this moment of touching, I still decided to project the "supernatural shadow" of love with his affectionate "boxin".
He couldn't wait to reunite with me, and his mother also invited me to Wuhan to have a chat. Just at this moment when my love between him seemed to be natural, I accidentally mentioned that my heart rate was not uniform in . After hearing this, the old man said to me earnestly. "My son has such a strange disease, which is exhausting enough. If...
Hearing the old man's desire to speak but stops, I immediately understood that what they hope to protect his son is a "health angel", not...
poor parents in the world. Facing the old man's simple wish, I was deeply silent, and I didn't know what to say for a long time. When did my aunt hang up the phone, I was so confused. But I don’t know. Looking back at the warm sun outside the window, it was raining in my heart, and I was wandering between love and not love.
strolled by the Funan River, looking down at the hiking duckweed in the water. I couldn’t help but ask myself in confusion, should I “go with the flow” when dealing with this relationship that has not started yet? Just as Xu Zhimo said, I am lucky to get it, but I lose my life?
