Yang Jiang Mr. Yang has also been worried about the matter of food, oil and salt, and has also been burdened with making a living.
was also slandered and criticized during the turmoil, and was in a mental crisis.
also experienced the eternal separation of life and death, alone, with the pain of loneliness.
But as the gentleman said, no one in life is easier than anyone, only who is more difficult than who!
2020 to 2022, the three years of the epidemic were also three years when the people across the country worked together to fight the epidemic. During these three years, the people across the country were not doing well.
And I am the same. This year, I was just 40 years old. When I was in my 20s, I thought that my 40 years old should be: having experience, reading books a hundred times, walking thousands of miles, being intellectual, elegant, and having youth and dreams before the age of 30!
Only when I really reached this age did I truly understand that I was 40 years old!
At the beginning of 2021, my daughter, who has always been excellent in her grades, suddenly changed her temperament and she was unwilling to go to school. Every day, in addition to going to work, I also have to face a little devil when I go home. Every word you say has to be careful, for fear that one word will hurt her, and from then on, I will become very humble! Very humble!
Once, because she was always playing with her mobile phone, I asked her to put down her mobile phone and chat with me for a while. During the chat, I accidentally mentioned about learning, so she started roaring, still smashing the door, preparing to run away from home!
I was scared and blocked the door and refused to let her go, but she pulled me away with great effort and pushed me to the ground, leaving without looking back.
I immediately got up from the ground. Before I could be sad, I chased her and ran out, but I don’t know where she went?
I couldn't find her everywhere. I didn't dare to sleep that night. She didn't come back until dawn and locked herself in the room to sleep.
Later, I took her to see a psychiatrist. The doctor said that this was a symptom of depression and told me not to provoke her. Many things followed her. When I heard the doctor's words, I was completely collapsed. I still couldn't show it in front of him. I had to be strong and sunny in front of her. I took her out of the darkness with me!
Since then, my daughter has had psychological counseling three times a week, and one psychological counseling is nearly 700 yuan. The monthly salary is not enough. She pays her the cost of psychological counseling.
But there is no way, I can't give up. I hope I will cure his illness. Two months have passed like this, and she finally agreed to go back to class!
From then on, another nightmare began again, becoming a problem for children, being late and leaving early, not handing in class and other problems.
Every day, my phone rings, and I am very worried that there is a call from the school to come to me.
Whenever she makes a mistake, I dare not criticize her, for fear of one sentence that will knock her back to her true form.
I not only feel mentally distressed every day, but also financially struggling!
It is 22km from home to school. Our car costs a lot of fuel, and the postage for picking up and dropping him every month is nearly 2,000 yuan. The place where I work happens to be between the school and the home.
In order to save some fuel costs, I sent him to school every day and went directly to the company to work. I became the first person in the unit to go to the office. I didn’t go home after get off work. I waited until he finished self-study at 9:30, and then she went home together.
2021~the first half of 2022 I have been repeating this kind of life and living a cautious life all day.
I only swallow all the grievances myself, and I bear all the pain myself. When I am sad, I can only hide aside and cry alone!
Sometimes I think about it, I want to leave and ignore anything, go to a strange city, and live alone.
Once, my husband went home to visit our mother and daughter. He went to a relative's house to play. My husband and daughter were going to live there at that time. I didn't agree because there was something at home the next day, so they both started to blame me for being unsociable and didn't understand them.
Just like this, my long-standing emotions collapsed instantly. When I was driving on the highway, I started crying, like a flood that broke the dike. Tears blurred my eyes, and I could no longer see the road clearly, so I had to drive the car to the side of the road and continue crying. At that time, I really wanted to ignore anything and escape from this home.
Although my crying was scary and hysterical at that time, I didn't do that. After venting my emotions, I still drove home safely.
The child's temper has also been much more restrained since then. I guess he might have been scared by my loss of composure that day!
My husband is also more concerned about me day by day. He gave me a GAC Toyota's first pure electric SUV to pick up and drop off the children, so that I don't have to worry about refueling every month. The range of this car is 400km.
#New Energy Security Choice#
It adopts an e-TNGA architecture, and its appearance and interior are very much improved compared to traditional GAC Toyota models. The interior is also very simple and spacious, and my husband's 1.8 meters tall man doesn't seem crowded when he sits in.
This also made me understand that no matter what difficulties are, they are just temporary. After the storm, when you can't hold on to
, think more about the future and read more books.
Maybe when you encounter difficulties, you cannot find the answer you want in your life. Maybe you have found the answer you want in a book or a paragraph of text!
Although I am 40 years old, I have not read books a hundred times, travel thousands of miles, have no intelligence, and have no elegance, but I still have the youth and dreams before I was 30 years old, so that I can fulfill the rest of my dreams together! By the age of 50, I could have intellectual elegance, traveled thousands of miles, read thousands of books,
