The article I wrote yesterday, "Do you have anyone to disturb at any time?" 》Below, a friend left a message telling a story about a friend of him.
I will tell the story this friend wants to tell in the first person:
"A friend who can disturb you at any time". I really have such a friend, and she is a girl who is very understanding and very powerful.
She was the class monitor in my high school, and we have known each other for ten years so far.
When she was eight years old, her parents divorced.
When I was eleven, my parents remarried.
She once told me that although the new home is also good, after all, real life will not be "Family with Children". If you reorganize a family, you still have to deal with many things carefully.
Perhaps because of this kind of response, you have also been sculpted into a person who is very insightful about human emotions and can fully understand everything under any circumstances.
Not only has the ability to take good care of herself, but she also has the strength and wisdom to settle things for the people around her that they cannot settle.
It is no exaggeration to say that as long as you are by her side and hear her speak, you will have an inexplicable sense of security and conviction.
So in high school, under her leadership, our class implemented de-teacher-oriented management.
She is solely responsible for any discipline, hygiene, study, activities of all sizes, conflicts between classmates, or even disputes between teachers.
and handle it calmly and easily.
is exactly the case. Many times, when you see that she is not capable of being of this age, you will forget that she is only a child of sixteen or seventeen years old.
She also has her own confusion and should also have her own fragility.
Later, she went to the north and I went to s south .
We have graduated from high school and have been seven years since we met.
In the past few years, I have been to many places, contacted many people, and many things have happened.
I don’t know what’s wrong. No matter how hard I try to socialize or how hard I try to get close to someone, I seem to be lonely all the time. This kind of loneliness is hard to describe.
It’s like you see an interesting video, a very touching text, I want to share it, and I want to share it with a friend in your address book.
However, when you open the address book, you find that you don't know who to share with.
So you have to share it with your friends circle, and then you expect someone to like you, and someone to comment and discuss with you.
But you know that no one may open it and read it, and no one really cares about your subtle sorrows and joys.
Loneliness does not come from the lack of people around you. The real reason for feeling lonely is the most important feeling of being unable to communicate with others.
It was at this time that she told me that she was heartbroken.
I know that because of that relationship, she faded out of her social circle and abandoned other outlets of emotions. Love is her only source of happiness.
She even treats the common future between them as a spiritual totem.
After the love breakup, she said she was in pain, but she couldn't give these negative emotions to her friends.
because she doesn't want to be a disappointing person.
"The rain is not heavy, I can hold on myself."
At that moment, I suddenly realized that the reason why we have become close friends for ten years is because in my eyes, what I have always seen is not her smooth and fortitude in front of others, but her helplessness.
I just feel that she can't stand alone in the heavy rain.
So, I want to go to her city and hold an umbrella for her.
After we met, we didn’t hug each other in tears or talk deeply, just a simple two people.
We go shopping in the mall, sing and lying in a bunch of takeaways to watch dramas, and some of them are childish jokes that can’t be finished.
At this time, something dramatic happened. My father at home was anxious and my mother was anxious for the phone call.
I want to go back quickly. There is no air ticket for the day, so I have to go to the air ticket tomorrow morning.
When I put down my phone after ordering the ticket, I was at a loss. She next to
suddenly opened her hands and gave me a hug.
I wanted to cry at that time, but I didn't cry.
It seems that at the moment when I was hugged, all the fatigue, loneliness and pain I had accumulated over the years were dissolved.
Later, after I got home, I thought about how I would accept this call if I received it alone?
probably did nothing in bed, began to think about death, began to think about the meaning of life, and began to think about topics that philosophers have never understood in their lifetime for thousands of years.
Finally, he dragged his tired mind and spent the next painful and difficult days.
But by her side, my suffering was cured by just one hug, and I was cured by one hug.
The story is finished,
Perhaps we all want to be an invincible perfect person, and we always have to force ourselves to devour the rules of the world. In the complex information flow, we must mature and think independently.
So, we are constantly dislocating in the high-dimensional world and gradually becoming irrelevant particles.
Then, we become ashamed to show our weakness and dare not bother each other.
or we don't think it's necessary to bother each other.
We are all used to dissolving all our emotions by ourselves, and are used to thinking aimlessly, and finally entering nothingness.
This may be the root cause of mental internal friction.
But who can cure this thing?
may be the only one who can cure it, who is willing to hold an umbrella for you and also let you hold an umbrella for him.
If you stand in the rain, you might as well look back and see where the umbrella is.
It’s raining heavily, you can hide under an umbrella.
