My name is Ying Qing, I am 46 years old this year. I fell in love with a young and 22-year-old young man, but it ruined my family and everything about me.
I have nothing, wandering on the streets of Chengdu, my eyes full of confusion, and now I don’t know where to stay.
1.
I have lived in a 23-tier city in the northwest region since I was a child. After graduating from high school at the age of 18, I worked as an internal worker in a local insurance company. I was lively and cheerful when I first started working, and my smile often hangs on my face, with a little naughty in the sun.
My boss is called Lao Shu, a young man who is just thirty years old. He is handsome and humorous. His eyes are always confused, intoxicated and exciting, and his cunning is filled with innocent light.
I followed him when I first joined the company. I felt that he could satisfy all my imagination of idols of the opposite sex in my heart. I silently put him into the required box in my heart.
He always brought a cup of tea intentionally or unintentionally. When he was fine, he came to my seat. He gestured at me and guided me in the work that I was not very skilled. His eyes accidentally flowed across my face, and praised me for being petite and delicate, which was pity.
I know he is married, but I can't stop the little deer in my heart from rushing. For me, who is just starting to love, the excitement in my heart is beyond words.
I know I fell in love with him. Although I knew he was married, I still couldn't help but fall in love with him.
I would rather be a disgraceful third party than lose this love that made me sink and intoxicated.
2.
After a dinner party, I took it as a matter of course to become his underground lover. I love him, and I love him from the bottom of my heart. After becoming his lover, I found that I was even more unable to extricate myself.
I hope he can divorce and marry me, I hope he can become my whole body, but he said that all the property is registered in his wife's name, his wife is a famous local family. After losing her wife, he will lose everything, which he cannot tolerate.
He repeatedly said to me, wait a little longer, wait a little longer...
waited until I was 36 years old. I was confused from the bottom of my heart. From 18 to 36 years old, I struggled and worked hard again and again, and I was so powerless. I was tired and I couldn't wait.
I want to get married, want a real marriage and family. I can't stand the incomprehensible eyes and contempt of the people around me. I need to live a stable life, like most women, take care of my husband and children, and follow my husband and wife.
I started to go on blind dates and took the initiative. At this time, after someone introduced me, I met my current husband.
is not considered love, it is not annoying, an ordinary man, dull but gives people a very down-to-earth feeling, I think it is like the feeling of home.
His family is not in good condition, so he is still single. I don’t have a better choice. It is difficult to explain the embarrassment of this age. Good people have a home, and the rest are basically the broken branches and willows.
People think that I have found a treasure, and I have been single at an older age and have been single at an older age. It’s not easy.
3.
We got married, and our married life was as dull as water, but it made me feel the tranquility and peace of mind. I like this kind of quiet life, like a boat in the harbor, silently flowing with glory.
Our children were born soon, and they were more like treasures given to us by God. Our goals and eyes were no longer confused. We seemed to be welcoming a new life every day, becoming down-to-earth and sufficient.
My husband also spoiled me very much. He let me do whatever he wants. I enjoyed these things as expected. Even if I look domineering, my husband never lets offend me. He said, "You are so beautiful, everything you do is right."
career has also gradually begun to make progress. We started from the snack stall to the small restaurant. Some time ago, my elder sister and I took a fancy to a medium-sized restaurant and were looking for a transfer. After discussion, I rented it together with my elder sister. After a simple decoration, our restaurant officially opened.
4.
Restaurant income is stable. If this continues, we are getting closer and closer to our ideal goal. I am responsible for counter collection in the restaurant, and the daily restaurant feed, discharge and income details are also my responsibility.
My elder sister was only responsible for distributing the vegetables and meat ingredients for the day in the morning. After explaining the specific matters to the employees in the store, she basically stopped coming to the store. My elder sister still has a store that needs to be managed, so I also handled most of the specific matters here. The chef in the
store is a 24-year-old man. When I first saw him, I felt a rippling feeling. His eyes were always confused, with intoxicated and exciting excitement flowing in his eyes, and innocent light was shining in his cunning.
I suddenly remembered my first love, the old tree.
He is simply a copy of Lao Shu. His every move touches my heart all the time.
He is 22 years younger than me, and his tall body sways, like a refreshing breeze blowing in my heart, intoxicated and fragrant.
I deliberately ignored him, but he often lie in front of my counter in his spare time, chatting and talking about topics that are not painful.
I often walk to the kitchen door intentionally or unintentionally, chat and laugh with other chefs, and even flirt with each other, but I accidentally swept over his body with the corners of my eyes. Every time I sweep it, it will leave me with intoxication and anxiety all over the floor.
One day, it was already very late, the staff in the store had all finished, and I was still making the bill for today's income.
Only he is still there, looking at me quietly, I was surprised, I asked him, everyone is gone, why are you still here?
He didn't speak, but just looked at me quietly, his eyes flowing intoxicated and exciting.
He slowly approached my ear and said softly, Sister Ying Qing, you don’t feel that I... are you quietly like you?
5.
My reason broke the defense instantly. The haze and excitement in my heart, deep in my heart, there was always a trace of obsession, a kind of intoxication and blooming fragrance in my heart, and suddenly burst out wildly.
I felt that that night, not only my body, but also my heart, were squirting out, blooming again, and rebirth.
At this moment, I feel that I can give up everything. I love this feeling, I can’t extricate myself and cannot give up!
I looked for various opportunities to be with him. Slowly, I felt that it was painful and unbearable to not see him for a day.
He said, Sister Ying Qing, I don’t want to be so sneaky. I love you so much. I want to support you.
You should get divorced, I need you!
I have a fancy to a restaurant in the capital. I want to put it down. I want to be the starting point for our future life. I want to support you, watch you, and slowly grow old with you.
However, Sister Ying Qing, you also know that our family is difficult to support my idea. I want to ask you to help me, okay?
I said OK! I was already moved, I can only say ok!
6.
I don’t have much savings at home, and this restaurant has consumed all of my home.
I only have to intercept the restaurant income. I gave him almost all the restaurant income in the past month, but it was still not enough. I swiped all my credit cards again.
.39 million yuan, this is all my current possessions and energy, and I gave it to him without hesitation.
He took the money and went to the pandian happily. With my expectant eyes, he took the shuttle bus to the capital.
Every few days, he will send me a few photos of the progress of the store decoration.
Suddenly one day, he said in the video, Sister Ying Qing, I have used up my money.The decoration of the
restaurant exceeded the expected budget, which is understandable, I don't doubt it.
I said, don’t worry, I’ll find a way here.
I continued to transfer the income from the store to him, and the decoration there was always exceeding the budget.
Finally, the elder sister suddenly checked the accounts that day and suddenly found a huge deficit on the books. My elder sister has heard about my rumors and saw the huge deficit in the accounts, and I suddenly knew the crux of the problem.
is a big deal, and my husband will find out immediately.
My husband said: Let’s get a divorce, I will take care of the child, and you can do the rest.
The eldest sister said: The deficit in the store has exceeded your investment funds, please withdraw.
7.
I have only him, and when I called him, I wanted to say, I have only him.
phone shutdown
phone shutdown...
The phone is shut down...
The phone number you dialed is an empty number...
I don’t dare to answer the phone either. It’s either a debt collection or a credit card center.
I want to find him, and I found his hometown according to his ID card address.
His parents looked at me with confused eyes. Their family was too poor. Several children were lying on the edge of the kang and staring at me eagerly. His parents were wearing tattered jackets, shining darkly.
They said that my son has never come back for many years and he has rarely called. The latest time I said, it seems to be in Chengdu.
I came to Chengdu, and I moved from morning to night. On the huge streets, people came and went, old trees, old trees, where are you?
I have no money anymore. From the morning until now, I dare not eat too much food. If I am not careful, I may be displaced and left on the streets with nowhere to go.
I really want to have a support. I miss my son very much. My son is only 9 years old this year and is very quiet. He often looks like a little adult, so I clean the corners of his mouth. He said that the classmates in the school like him very much.
I miss my husband too. He has always spoiled me very much and let me do whatever I have. I enjoyed these things naturally. Even if I look domineering, my husband never lets blame me. He said, "You are so beautiful, everything you do is right."
I am really confused. I can't think of where I should be at this time and here...
Can anyone give me an idea?
