When my grandma was alive, she often asked me a question, asking me what kind of person I wanted to be. My answers were different every time, but no matter what I did, my grandma would show a doting expression and touch my head and say that as long as I am healthy and happy, it would be fine.
At that time, grandma was my biggest safe haven and a beacon that guided me home.
On the day my grandma passed away, I realized that no one would always be with me. When I was keeping my soul, all I thought about was what my grandma said to me all night.
Finally got a direction in my heart. When I was drinking with my good friend, I put forward my idea. I wanted to go out for a walk. Listening to my words, several of my buddies showed ridiculous expressions, and even said that I had never even gone out of the county town, so I would starve to death if I went to a big city.
If it were the past, I would definitely have hanged my face and argued with them at this time, but I didn't do that because what I said this time was true.
ignored their words, and I lowered my head to drink. At this moment, Wang Wen, who has always been poor, actually asked about my future plans. After learning that I didn’t know, he raised his glass and drank it all and said, "Like a dandelion, go wherever the wind blows?"
looked at me and nodded, he patted my back and said, ", you are happy, , I hope you will be a teenager when you return."
After leaving home, only Wang Wen would call me from time to time, and he became my only good friend.
25 years old, I walked out of my hometown where I gave birth to me and raised me, and moved towards the second step in my life.
Maybe I want to experience a different life. After leaving a few thousand yuan in living expenses, I saved all the rest. The reason for this is that I want to see if I can starve to death by relying on myself.
What’s ridiculous is that when I first looked for a job, I was cheated. I was so stupid that I was moved by looking at the attractive conditions on the job advertisement. Fortunately, they didn’t have that big appetite, and just cheated me of thousands of dollars.
After teaching this lesson, I understood that the friends who said I would starve to death. What they said was really not groundless. I suddenly had an idea in my mind. Since I don’t know what I want to do, I should just do it in every industry until I find what I want to do. After
, I worked as a dishwasher, waiter, handing out flyers, takeaways, security guards, drivers, fitness coaches, and the most ridiculous thing is that I also went to Hengdian to be an actor for several months, and it was also there that I found something I like.
is not the actor, but goes on adventures and tastes all the real things that ordinary people dare not do, such as bungee jumping, gliding, climbing, surfing, hiking, hiking, and crossing the unmanned land.
But doing these things requires a certain economic foundation. I often work for several months and then play happily for several months. If I have good luck, there are rich second generations or company executives among my peers who are on a whim, or company executives, which will save a lot of money.
Since I fell in love with adventure, there have been many women around me, and they often dare not go, but they like to listen to all kinds of things I encountered during adventure, and some people even like me.
To be honest, in just a few years, I have met many women with different personalities and different looks, teachers with introverted personality but seemingly hot-hearted, strong women who pursue financial independence, and white-collar workers who seem well-behaved but are actually enthusiastic and open-minded. In short, although they are different in everything, they all have a heart that envys and freedom.
But they can't achieve real freedom because they have too many concerns and care too much.
This also caused the woman with me tone, basically like my unruly and free personality. When they break up, they would say that I am a person who is unreliable and unreliable.
I did not refute it. After all, they were telling the truth. How many people yearned for my freedom, but when they had the responsibility, they were not qualified to be young. They had to work, the family should take care of them, and the children should be protected. They should pay more attention to their image and force themselves to do things that match their age.
But I haven't reached that step, and I feel that they won't change me.
Until I met Cao Hui, a woman with the same hobbies as me.
met Cao Hui when he was traveling through the desert. Because the danger was not high, there were many people coming, but they were basically joining in the fun. There were three people living in the wild, including me, among which Cao Hui.
The first time I saw her, she was not special, and she came with her boyfriend at that time, so I didn't pay much attention.
We originally planned to leave in the morning and walk out in the evening, and then you can see the beautiful sunset there, and most people come for this.
Just halfway through the journey, something happened. The sky was clear the previous second. In less than ten minutes, dark clouds filled the sky and the strong wind swept across the world. It was the first time I encountered such a situation, but seeing the group of people crying, I could only pretend to be calm. After discussing with a few experienced people, we decided that everyone would hold hands to avoid any loss of people.
Just as we were warming each other, Cao Hui and I were next to each other, and her calm look formed a sharp contrast with the others, which made me deeply impressed her.
Fortunately, the storm passed quickly. Just when we were grateful for the survivor of the disaster, the team leader told us bad news, that is, most of the supplies were lost. Fortunately, the distance was not far, as long as we speed up, there was basically no problem.
During the journey after this, Cao Hui fell ill first, and later learned that she was in her menstrual period.
Fortunately, her boyfriend kept supporting her, and as the material was exhausted, the speed also decreased, but with Cao Hui's fall, our temporary team also felt a sense of crisis.
In fact, she is not seriously ill, she is just a little dehydrated, and she will get better as long as she eats something. Among us, there must be food, but because we don’t know when we can go out, we keep it for ourselves, including me.
In the innermost pocket of my clothes, there was a bag of milk. This was my bottom of the box. After hesitating for a while, I took it out.
After drinking milk, Cao Hui quickly got better. She knew that this was the last thing, and her eyes looked full of gratitude, and her boyfriend just said that he would treat me to a meal after he went out.
didn't want to repay me at all. After a few greetings, we continued to set off. The journey afterwards went smoothly and we also arrived at our destination. After eating and drinking, Cao Hui and her boyfriend started arguing.
After pulling them apart, I realized that when her boyfriend was taking a shower, Cao Hui found two packs of milk in his bag. After questioning her, her boyfriend said that in order to protect himself, which made Cao Hui feel chilled.
After knowing the whole story, I didn’t feel surprised. I have seen too many such people over the years of travel. After all, the first thing I think of in times of crisis is myself, but what I couldn’t imagine is that his boyfriend is no longer selfish, but he is not saving him when he dies.
After such a fuss, Cao Hui broke up with him, but her next actions surprised me. On the day when everyone parted, Cao Hui sat next to me when I got in the car.
None of hers and I confessed to each other like anyone else. Anyway, we were together. After that, we went to many places together, and she became the most special existence of my girlfriends. In the past, I went on a trip and told them what I saw and heard. She accompanied me on a trip. No matter when, there was her wherever I was.
During this period, she lived with me in the basement and took risks with me, which gave me a different feeling. In the past, she was always unsure of taking risks, but when she went out with her, she would always help me check everything, which made me feel very at ease.
In five years, we have been to so many places and met many people, and they all envied my life with her, and sometimes even envied myself.
Just when I was trapped in this way of life, she seemed to have had enough fun and advised me to find a serious job and then marry her. I disdained this and thought she was just a sudden idea and didn't care.
She hasn't been home for several years, so she chose to go home. Before leaving, she asked me to think about it carefully and said that I am not young anymore and it's time to think about it for the future. At that time, I didn't understand what she meant.
During the Chinese New Year, every time I talked on the phone, I was so stupid that I thought she was busy, so I didn’t think much about it. And if I asked her to find a job, I was even more perfunctory.
Maybe my inattention and lack of understanding made her lose patience with me. She didn't come back three months later. After she got home, her first words were to break up with me.
Hearing her words, she habitually thought she was joking. Just when I was about to come forward to hug her, she pushed me away and then said seriously, "I didn't joke with you, I'm back and breaking up with you."
After hearing her words, I subconsciously took a few steps back, muttering silently, "I can't, you lied to me, you're lying."
Seeing me like this, she said with concern; "The reason I want to talk to you in person is because I'm afraid you can't think it's."
I quickly walked to her and shouted loudly; "Why, why."
"I need a harbor, not a big boy who only knows how to play."
I heard her say this, and my heart skipped a beat.
Then she continued, "I don't want to live such a life all the time, without goals, no direction, no future, which makes me feel insecure."
In her words, I heard the determination, fearing that I lost her, and shouted loudly; "I'll change, can't I change it?"
She shook her head, put her hand on her stomach, lowered her head and said softly; "It's too late, It was too late for everything. "
I was not sure about it, and I was still repeating loudly "It's too late, it's too late."
"I'm pregnant."
Hearing these words, it immediately extinguished all the fire in my heart, and then she said in the direction of the door; "Come in."
A man walked to her, nodded to me, and then walked to her.
After knowing that everything could not be changed, I sat on the bed and said nothing.
The man walked towards me, put a card next to me, and then carefully helped her leave. After
, I took half of my deposit. On the day of her wedding, I asked a friend to give it to her along with the card she gave me. After listening to her, I returned to my hometown, opened a small shop, and guarded the shop wholeheartedly. I did not return as a teenager, but only had a vicissitudes of life.
