Hi everyone, I’m Xiao Qian. Follow my text and look at today’s story together:
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But then I loved him for 10 years.
Hey, how many 10 years can there be in life.
Later, I can't tell whether I like Luming is a habit or obsession.
In short, I take my entire youth and like him with no distraction.
I like it very much, I like it very much.
like to go to the mountains without tombs, , dare to be unique with you.
He likes to be ten miles in the spring breeze. He is in April in the world.
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Anhui 5span I was born in 1998, I was born in Span Yue'an, Anhui.
I have a brother who is one year older than me.
I must mention my brother because of the fate between me and Lu Ming, which started with my brother.
That year, I was 10 years old and was in the fourth grade of elementary school.
During summer vacation, I play near home.
A few boys from the neighbor's house next door passed by, idle and bored to have fun. Some pour coke on me, some hit me with sticks.
I squatted on the ground, holding my head in my hands, and did not dare to resist.
After they left, I cried and went home.
My brother knew that I was bullied and said he wanted to avenge me.
He called a few friends, and one of his friends brought his brother with him.
said they are in the same grade as me, but in different classes, so we don’t know each other.
He is Lu Ming.
Lu Ming is white and thin.
I thought, how can such a small body beat those boys.
they got together,After discussing the revenge plan for a long time, there was no result.
finally nothing.
But that day, it was a turning point in my life.
Since then, I have lived in my life.
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Of course, I didn’t know what span was like 5span at that time.
So I did the stupidest thing in my life.
When the fifth grade started, Lu Ming and I were in the same class.
and in the same group, and I am the group leader.
To like a person is probably to do something stupid to get his attention.
The way I get Lu Ming's attention is that every time he hands in his homework, I deliberately pick and stab him.
said that he wrote the word crookedly and missed the period, so he asked him to rewrite it fifty times. Don't let him go home if he doesn't finish writing.
Actually, I just wanted to stay with him for a while and have a few more words with him. Unfortunately, I used the wrong method.
The result can be imagined, Lu Ming felt that I was deliberately making things difficult for him, and alienating me more and more.
I am sad and sad, but I don't know that it was the beginning of a girl's love.
At that time, many girls in the class liked Lu Ming, and they often put notes in his books.
And I still muttered in my heart, isn't it just a hairy boy, how can there be such a charm.
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span5 spanIt is already 2010.
We went to junior high school and we were still in the same class.
This year, Lu Ming's portrait has sprung up after the rain, which seems to have grown a lot overnight.
In the eyebrows, there is a beautiful boy you can imagine.
I am not sure at what moment I determined my mind.
It may be that I see him talking to other girls, and I feel crazy. It may also be that I haven't seen him for a day, and I feel even more mad.
In this crazy mood, I know I like him.
is the kind of boys and girls like it. Like the summer sun, it gets stronger day by day.
My brother and his brother have a good relationship. When I have an appointment to play together, I always follow behind me.
God knows, I want to see him every day. Looking at him, my heart is full of joy.
My brother saw my mind and helped me secretly.
But Lu Ming treats me, always warm.
There is nothing special or ambiguous.
The kind of light coldness that is far away.
However, what I like, is like summer grass, growing wild.
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span is the only bright color in the 5span learning career.
as long as you think of him,I will be silly and happy.
and a good friend whispered, every word can not be separated from him.
When going home from school every day, he will take a detour and pass by his door.
One more glance at him, I think this day is like extra sugar.
And my favorite thing to do is to find out Lu Ming's preferences.
He likes to eat instant noodles with , tomato brisket and flavor. From then on, I went to the supermarket and only took this flavor.
He likes cucumber flavored potato chips , I often buy them and secretly put them in his drawer.
What I look forward to most is the physical education class. You can watch him unscrupulously.
on the field,Lu Ming made a three-step layup, and I heard my heart beating like a bell in the crowd.
The broad school uniform is filled with wind, and wrapped up the grandest secret of my entire youth.
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More and more girls are chasing Lu Ming. I'm a little anxious, for fear of being caught up first.
On Christmas Eve, the students in the class are sending peace fruits to each other.
I summoned the courage of my life, and deliberately picked a big apple, wrapped it very delicately, and asked my brother to give it to Lu Ming.
I followed my brother quietly, and I was full of anxiety.
Before long, my brother came out of Lu Ming’s house.Holding that apple in his hand.
I have a premonition, but I still reluctantly ask, is he not at home?
My brother said, yes, but he knows it is from you and he refuses to ask for it. He said... he doesn't like you.
The sky is still dark, but my world suddenly darkens.
I was overwhelmed with sadness.
My brother touched my head and said, silly girl, there are so many boys, he is not bad, good.
I resisted crying.
That night, my mother made my favorite braised pork ribs. I couldn't eat a bite.
My heart is full of sadness.
But the next morning,I was resurrected full of blood.
is young and full of enthusiasm.
's love for him is like a cut nail, which quickly grows back.
And for the first time, the face is thicker.
After that, I went to confess many times.
But he is the same every time, he doesn't like me, we can't possibly.
Later, his tone became impatient.
I finally stopped.
is not dead, but finally no longer scornful to tell him, I like him.
I like it silently,Quietly put it in my heart.
I stupidly think that feelings are the same as many things in this world. As long as you work hard, as long as you persist in not giving up, one day you will be able to see the moon.
However, that's just what I thought.
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The girls in the class had a chat together.
I don't know who said that I like Lu Ming.
A girl disdainfully said, "Don't dream about it. Boys will definitely not like girls like you."
I am very angry, what's wrong with a girl like me?
I always feel good about myself.
Thanks to my great parents,In their eyes, they always think that their daughter is the best.
And I represent my class every year to participate in the sports meeting and win many awards.
This made me think I was pretty good.
So what's wrong with a girl like me?
I forced the girl to answer me, but she smiled and said, if you don’t believe me, you should ask Lu Ming.
Of course I dare not go.
My friend helped me to ask, she pretended to accidentally ask Lu Ming, what do you think of A Yue?
Lu Minghui, not very good, dark and fat.
When my friend relayed the words to me, I fell apart.
original,I was so unbearable in his eyes.
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I ran back home in front of the mirror. Look at yourself seriously for the first time.
is very tall, almost one meter seven. The hair is short, like a tomboy.
Because my dad wants me to pass the college entrance examination as a student with special skills in sports, my skin has become wheat-colored after years of exercise.
And my dear parents always instill the concept of health and beauty. They often cook soups and stews at home. I have never controlled my diet.
I have never felt that there is anything wrong with me.
In short, it is a kind of blind confidence.
The neighbor’s house sells rice,There is an electronic scale. I stood up and took a look, the figure clearly showed 72KG.
is really a fat, strong and dark fat man.
Inferiority is coming like a dark cloud. No wonder Lu Ming doesn't like me.
And before I could feel sad, I learned that Lu Ming was in love.
When my brother told me, I still couldn't believe it.
That day, as usual, I followed Lu Ming secretly.
After leaving school, I saw a girl waiting for him. The girl is also a little fat baby, not tall, and very cute. It is the kind of girl who makes boys very protective.
They are holding hands and walking in the dusk.
My heart is full of needles, and my heart hurts meticulously.
Tears almost burst out of the bank.
Although I have never owned it before, I think I have lost it thousands of times.
That kind of feeling, painful.
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, isn’t it?
But as long as I look at him, love is like a flood.
still can't put it down.
I wonder if I become more beautiful, I still have a chance.
anyway,I have to change myself. In this way, at least in the eyes of the people I like, it is not a dark and fat image.
I am determined to lose weight.
At first, I starved myself badly. For three whole days, I refused to eat.
People were so hungry that they almost fell down on foot.
My mother was so angry that she wanted to hit me with a stick. Under her pressure, I barely drank half a bowl of porridge.
I checked many ways to lose weight. I only eat green vegetables and not pasta.
In the summer vacation of the third year, I went to work and did a cash register in a small supermarket.
go to work at seven in the morning without breakfast. Eat some bread at noon and run on an empty stomach at night.
Change is a difficult and long process.
Many times,I want to give up.
Grilled sausages, fried chicken, spicy hot and so on, these are my favorites, always torture my soul.
But when I think of Lu Ming, when I think of the dark and fat sentence he said, I have strength again.
I want to become what he likes.
Fortunately, the effort to lose weight is still effective. Three months later, I lost more than 110 catties.
My mother feels so distressed, she said how I became such a ghost.
How can I tell her what I am thinking about. I can't tell her how happy I am, I am finally not fat.
I used my salary to buy skin care products and new skirts.
I learn how to dress and dress online.
I want Lu Ming to see me reborn.
10
high school, I and Lu are not in the same school.
I can only ask my brother to inquire about his news.
I am still losing weight, eating less and exercising more.
I want to be more beautiful, and more beautiful. So seeing him again, I won't be so flustered.
For three full years, I haven't seen Lu Ming.
I heard that he dropped out of school and went to work in Shanghai because of his poor grades. I heard that he broke up with that girl.
In the days when we don’t meet,There are countless new things appearing. But my liking has not diminished in the slightest.
During the days of losing weight, I was hungry and did not eat. I did it. Tired and still keep exercising, I did it too.
I am such a great person. It's a pity that I really can't do it if I don't like him.
I want to go to Shanghai to find him.
But the house is strictly controlled and I have no chance to act alone.
I am also worried that if I take the liberty to run, I will scare him.
So as soon as the holiday came, I went to his house and wandered around, dreaming that he would come back and be able to see him.
Let him take a look at me now and let him shine.
But no matter how hard I tried, we never met.
Sometimes, the fate is really shallow.
Maybe we are the ones who have lost fate.
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It's not that I didn't want to go to Shanghai without thinking about it. It's a pity that the schools in Shanghai that I filled out all failed.
I have to say that the university is a cosmetic surgery institute.
After the forging of this furnace, I and the original are like two people.
is 173cm tall and weighs only 105 kg. The arms and legs are very slender, and the collarbone is clearly visible.
skin is maintained,Also becomes white and delicate. After the facial features fade, the baby becomes thinner and more three-dimensional.
With some light makeup, walking on campus is also a pleasing scenery.
Naturally there is no shortage of suitors around.
And I am obviously walking forward with time, but my heart will always stop in that summer.
I seem to be stunned, and Lu Ming is still thinking of me.
Occasionally I see the same name or hear the same sound, and I still can't help my heart tremble.
It has become a habit to like him.
Like jasmine, regardless of the season, in the day and at night, the buds of small flowers are always open.
And I miss the season regardless of the season, in the sunset and moonrise, at every moment of trance.
even looking at his photos,I feel very satisfied.
He is the wind that keeps growing under my feet, the sun that sets and rises, and is the only love letter I want to write.
How much I want to see him, let those surging love have an account.
can actually contact him.
Let my brother inquire about the contact information.
But after all, I dare not. The older I get, the more timid I feel.
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I still see the road.
It was already February 2021.
I go shopping with my friends.There were so many people in the mall, but I recognized him at a glance.
is just a silhouette, I recognize him.
The heart stops beating instantly, and all the hidden love rushes out.
I pretended to calmly greet the boys around him.
That boy is the monitor of our junior high school.
The squad leader said, Ayue, how come you look so good and lose a lot.
I peeked at Lu Ming, he was looking at me with surprise and disbelief in his eyes.
With this look, I can no longer calm down.
My face is red to my neck.
I took my friend away in a panic.
God knows how happy I am, and then I regret that I didn't dress better when I went out. Span7span
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I kept asking my friend if he could not recognize me, did he think I was different? Would he like me like this, can I chase him again?
The friend said helplessly, he doesn't like you, he won't like what you become. Why bother to be a female licking dog.
This sounds really sad, but it's true, isn't it?
Over the years, friends have witnessed all my mental journeys.
has been persuading me to give up,But I can't get in oil and salt.
For those who really like it, they still want to own it.
I said a lot of good things, please ask my brother if he has a girlfriend.
My brother feels distressed and helpless.
He asked me if I was a lunatic, and he hadn't given up for so many years.
I said, I just want to know if it is possible for us.
My brother sighed and said, Lu Ming is about to get married.
I would not believe it, I think my brother must be lying to me.
Helpless, my brother showed me his wedding photos. It was Lu Ming's brother who posted it in the circle of friends.
Lu Ming on the photo,It's still so good-looking, but he is already someone else's groom.
I was struck by lightning.
Only the five words "he is going to get married" are in my mind.
No one knows what this result means to me.
I have liked him for ten years. He is all my youth.
But everything is my own passion and wishful thinking.
I watched his wedding photos over and over again.
I told my brother that he hasn't had a wedding yet. Can you take me with him when he does the wedding? I want to see him again.
My brother looked at me and kept sighing.
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after all.
Because I'm afraid I can't help crying like a fool.
From beginning to end, this crush is just my one-man show.
The beginning of love is a wink, and the end of love is the infinite sky.
If life can be repeated, I must not meet Lu Ming. In this way, there will not be so many unforgettable and worrying things.
But if I do it again, I still expect to see him. He is the light of my life.
So I will still fly moths to the fire.
Only with him, there is a world.
Thank him for amazing my youth and making me a better version of myself.
should also be thankful for his cruelty,Never gave me any thoughts, any ambiguity.
He didn't like me and didn't consume me from beginning to end.
The only regret is that I did not watch the four seasons with him, nor did I have the opportunity to hold his hand and see the beauty of this world.
Lu Ming, I can’t tell you what I want to say in person, I’ll just say it here.
Whether you see it or not, I will tell you.
Goodbye, Lu Ming.
You are mine to be continued, and mine will not be updated.
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