I am Huang Xiaoluo. Welcome everyone to pay attention and discuss education and emotional topics with me.
I don't know who is a guest in my dream
At midnight, my daughter is already asleep.
I have insomnia again.
Turned over and got out of bed, walked to the balcony, blowing some cool autumn breeze, just opposite the faint light, I lit the aromatherapy.
Recently, I have been fascinated by various floral scents. When I can't sleep, this refreshing fragrance relaxes my body and soothes my cold heart.
Jiang Lai hasn't returned home for a month. This is the home he bought after ten years of hard work.
Sweet words are still in my ears, and my beloved is no longer.
I used to be his Bai Yueguang
Jiang Lai and I were high school classmates.
At that time, I was in the top ten in the grade and his grades were average. If it were not for his extraordinary performance in the college entrance examination, we might not have an intersection.
Freshman, meeting for freshmen of the debate club.
Suddenly someone called my name. I turned around and saw that it was Jiang Lai.
The high school classmates who have always been seldom spoken took the initiative to greet me. I was taken aback and said quickly: "Hi, old classmate. You also signed up for this club?"
Jiang Lai scratched his head embarrassedly and said: " Yes, my eloquence is not good, I want to exercise."
When I talked about major, I realized that he was studying law. The debate is to prepare for a future career, but it is a bit far-sighted.
Because we often play debates together, we have more exchanges. In the arena, Jiang Lai, whose appearance is not good, can't hide his nervousness, but he is quick in thinking and novel in point of view.
I went to self-study at night once,I was leaning on the top-floor railing and staring at the moon in a daze, when I suddenly heard: "The long night is long and unintentional. I thought I was the only one who couldn't sleep. It turns out that Qingqing girl can't sleep either!"
When I turned my head, I saw Jiang Lai facing me. Come.
The newly shaved head and the smile on his face really reminds me of supreme treasure and his short legs that pretend to be sexy. I couldn't help laughing.
He said crampedly: "Ye Qing, is it so funny? I just watched " Journey to the West" last night..."
I forgot what he said later. I just felt that his surprise made his face even more red. funny.
On the self-study at the back, I met him every day, and he would chat with me every night when I came out to breathe.
I have been seen by my roommates several times, and they teased me and said: "Xiao Qing'er, your classmate must be interesting to you, otherwise why bother to climb the sixth floor every day for self-study!"
Is there such a thing? I didn't think much about it, but I didn't want others to misunderstand me, so I hurriedly changed to a teaching building to read books, and I didn't run into him anymore.
When I went to the club, Jiang Lai didn't ask me specifically. Sure enough, the roommates thought too much.
At the end of November, I have my birthday. Jiang Lai gave me a gift, a large book of leaf stickers. There is a love letter in it, and at the end it says: "I wish to have one heart, and the white head will remain inseparable. Ye Qing, please let me guard you for the rest of my life. Give me a chance, can you?"
Surprised and pleasantly surprised, only There is no heartbeat. To my surprise, he really likes me. What I like is that I really like leaves, but he is not the type I like.
So, I rejected him.
Asking what love is in the world
The next spring, I met someone who made me fall in love at first sight-Xiao Bai.
I first met him in the cafeteria. His fair face, indifferent temperament and casual smile all fascinated me.
For him, I went to the second most unpalatable canteen for three consecutive months, just to look at him from a distance; for him,I often smirk in a daze, nicknamed a nympho by my roommate; for him, I pay special attention to appearance and create a "lady" image... Finally, he took the initiative to sit opposite me, and then we were together until the eve of graduation.
That afternoon, he returned to school from an internship and used his first salary to treat me to Western food.
After dinner, we held hands for a walk, and he said: "Qing'er, you are a very good girl, I don't deserve you, let's break up."
"Why?" We have been in love for three years, we are models Lovers, sweet as ever, never quarrel. I can't figure out why he sent me a "good guy card".
"Because you are so nice, never noisy! Our relationship is not disturbed, don't you think that there is a little wave?"
I always think that the vigorous love can't go far, and the simple love can only be lost. head. Don't like to toss, don't make petty tempered the reason to break up. Xiao Bai is not such a person, he must have a reason.
"So, the real reason?"
"I like others. She chases me, her passion... I can't stand it."
I raised my head and pretended to look at the starry sky, but finally my tears did not fall. I took out the makeup mirror and looked at it. The makeup is not flowery, and I am still beautiful.
"I wish you happiness!" The man who can be easily abducted by other women is not my food. I stepped on high heels and turned and left.
That night, the night sky was like a wash, but my heart was a mess. By the East Lake of the school, I found a secluded place to lick my wounds alone. I'm not a girl who can't afford to lose. I just remembered the past three years. I always thought that the first love that would go to the marriage palace ended without a disease, and my heart was very painful.
I don't know how long I have been sitting, but I suddenly staggered when I wanted to stand up. At this time, Jiang Lai supported me.
Jiang Lai, who hasn't seen me for a long time, I thought I was dreaming. He smiled and said: "I'll take you back to the dormitory." Along the way, he didn't ask me a word, but when he got downstairs, he handed me a piece of paper and said, "Go upstairs slowly, and look at the dormitory again."
Thenote read: "It is better to put out the fire to stop the boiling."
Seeing this sentence,Suddenly it makes sense. Don't worry, the scumbag is not worth my sadness for too long.
Actually, after refusing Jiang to come, every time I met, I just nodded and said hello because of embarrassment. But he sends me a text message every day, all of which are famous sentences in ancient Chinese. I thought it was strange at first, but later I should improve my literary literacy. Thinking about it now, he insisted on this habit for more than three years, day by day.
You can not love me, let me guard you quietly
Without love, I will concentrate on studying. During graduate school, I tried my best to do research.
Jiang Lai often visits me, it seems that after that day, I don't seem to reject him anymore. He would tell me anecdotes about the law firm, and I would talk to him about new friends and new certificates. Three years passed in a flash, and friends said he was my boyfriend.
Take a closer look at Jiang Lai. After the "bad beating" by the society, he has become calm and capable.
I graduated, and I passed the exam and went back to my hometown to be a college teacher. Jiang Lai transferred to the Shanghai headquarters.
At the age of marriage and marriage, under the leadership of my mother, the seven aunts and eight aunts rushed to introduce me to someone. Unexpectedly, the “thousand fans” of the School of Economics would have to undergo the baptism of a blind date.
Jiang Lai will visit me whenever he comes home during the holidays. Once, my mother stayed right there. She knew that I hadn't gotten out of the shadow of my first love, but she was really anxious looking at the rest of me, so she worked hard to match me and Jiang Lai.
I smiled and said to Jiang: "I'm sorry, old classmate. You are about to fall in love, or you will be recruited by my mother!"
He seriously replied, "Xiaoqing, if you don't mind , I am willing to stay by your side and love you and protect you. I have liked you for seven years, you can not love me, but can you give me a chance?"
How many seven years are there in a person's life? I don't know that the reason he hasn't been in love is that he is still waiting for me to turn around. At that moment, I was moved.
We are familiar with each other, our love seems to be very harmonious. He is like Li Daren , I am Cheng Youqing , and I am always happy to travel between the two cities.
The only resistance is,Before getting married, my dad arranged for him to work in his hometown, but he refused and his dad was very angry. In fact, in my hometown, with my family background, he can fight for ten years less. He didn't want to sit back and enjoy his success. He withstood the pressure and promised my dad that if he could not gain a foothold in Shanghai within three years, he would come back willingly. That energy, like when my dad was young. My dad agreed.
Silence is more terrifying than cheating.
Jiang Lai did it. He grew into the elite of the law firm at the fastest speed.
In the first two years after we got married, we lived a two-city life, but it was "a little bit better than a newlywed" who ran around every week. In the third year, when my daughter was born, I resigned and came to Shanghai.
But after becoming a full-time wife, he and I went from a loving couple to a "roommate" who couldn't say three words all day long.
It may be that people need a sense of distance. After you really live together, you will find that there are really many places that need to be run-in. I like flowers, watering and pruning every day, but he tries to pour the tea in more easily; I have to take a bath every day, and sometimes he falls asleep after socializing; I like to keep the bathroom door closed, but he always can’t remember...
The differences in life can be tolerated, but the differences in parenting concepts always make me crazy. He gave eight-month-old children spicy soup, saying that they were nurtured to eat spicy food from a young age; when children want to read picture books, he shows them their mobile phones; he and his parents like to kiss their children, and they don’t listen...
I slowly lost my patience, but he chose to escape. As he became an executive of the law firm, he went from returning every night to often staying out at night, and now he doesn't go home for a month.
Perhaps, more terrifying than cheating is that there is nothing to say between husband and wife. In seven years, it seems that his love for me has been washed away by the trivialities of life, and I am tired.
It's not that I don't love anymore, but that each other is tired.
But why once regarded me as a jewel, but now I abandon it like a shoe? Sure enough: the most precious things in the world are "unavailable" and "lost". If you get it, you don't need to cherish it.
The seven-year itch, can't you really get through it?
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