I am a girl from the countryside. I had no father since I was a child. I ate hot and cold meals with my mother and grew up. When I was a child, I saw that the child had a father, but I did not, only one person cried silently.
Slowly, I grew up because my mother was busy with work and didn't have time to take care of me. In addition, I didn't have my father to discipline me, and my academic performance was terrible.
After graduating from junior high school, I expected my total score in the junior high school exam to be 250 points. After the high school exam failed this time, my mother didn't blame me for my grades, but just said lightly. If you can't go to high school, don't go'. Since then, I bid farewell to my student life and let myself go. At that time, I felt that everything was so comfortable. I no longer need to listen to the teacher's chattering, no longer need to listen to those dull English sleepy, no longer need to be ashamed of the results and troubles.
Since I was too young to find a job, I stayed at home for two years, playing with my mobile phone, cleaning my house, and cooking for my father. At that time, I thought it was a good thing to be a good wife and a good mother. I don’t need to be exposed to the wind and sunlight, nor do I need to receive critical education from leaders.
When I was 18 years old, I entered society and started my part-time job.
As there is no culture, I can only choose the service industry. The popular point is that when the waiter serves dishes in the hotel, it is hard not to say that every day, sometimes even the harassment of customers , Then I know that the original school is a good thing, but it is too late to be able to return to the girl again. Although the work was very hard, I didn't want to admit defeat, and I persisted. Therefore, I worked in the hotel for several years and changed from a little girl to a big girl.
He is the decorator of our hotel, he is one year older than me, and he looks plain,He is more introverted and not good at talking. In a restaurant, he is an ordinary person, not an ordinary person.
I remember that day, I was responsible for the wrong dishes on the table. The customer scolded me for a bloody nose, and finally I cried.
I heard from my friends that I was scolded by a customer at the restaurant, and he rushed into the restaurant with a kitchen knife without saying anything. He found that others were desperate and his reputation was not like being bullied by others. The person later learned from his cousin that he had secretly crushed me for a long time, but he didn't show that he had a sense of inferiority, and this feeling seemed to be buried in his heart. I was called by customers as the fuse for him to vent his emotions. When I watched him rush out with a knife, Meng’s face was also forced out. Watching his fierce face fight with others, I felt I was particularly scared, and at the same time full of emotion. From childhood to adulthood, only my father gave me such a sense of security.
Fortunately, I was finally stopped by the lobby manager. This happened and directly affected the hotel's reputation. In the end, in order to calm down, he was fired by the hotel and I was fined.
After the incident, I went to ask his best friend to ask, and only then did I know the reason for his coming out, and I also learned about his family background. It turned out that he came from a remote rural area at home. As the eldest son of his three sons, he dropped out of school early. In order to relieve the pressure of his parents, he came out early to earn money.
At that time, I realized the importance of this job to him. Seeing his straight, bleak back when he left, I felt a deep sense of guilt, but for me, he would not be fired by the company.
I stopped him and said, "I invite you to dinner." He was a little at a loss at these simple words. He lingered for a long time without saying a word. Finally, at my kind invitation, we went to a restaurant that looked simple, but the food was delicious, and ate our first lunch. He chose this restaurant only because of his humble self-esteem.
Looking at this brave and a little cowardly boy, I can't help but feel an upsurge.
When asked what he was going to do next, he had no choice but to smile, step by step. Maybe he didn't expect such a thing to happen suddenly. Maybe it was out of guilt towards him, maybe it was the indescribable feeling in my heart after he left. I started all the romances and asked him to work in a hotel where a female friend of mine stayed in order not to hurt him. With self-esteem, I called his friend and asked him to lie about his job opportunities. I'm very happy to hear that he got the job successfully.
That's it. After a while, I often think of him rushing towards the restaurant with a kitchen knife. Very stupid, but very cute.
A miracle happened. I didn't do anything. I just ran to the hotel where he was and kept saying that I wanted to see my friend. In fact, only my heart is clear, just look at him more.
Later, my friends began to doubt my "good-hearted person". They never saw me think about her so much before. Why are they so enthusiastic now? Speaking of the girl being the most sensitive animal, she quickly realized that I was wrong and quickly locked him in.
In this way, that layer of yarn was pierced by a friend'relentlessly'. After that, we walked together naturally.
The days with him are undoubtedly the happiest days. When there is nothing pressing on the road, walking on the street, and tired, let him hold me, and let him feed me when he is hungry. Although he was a bit shy at first, he couldn't stand my continuous fighting and finally had to succumb to my lust. Although the food is so simple every time, even if two people eat spicy food, I am still very happy. In this way, we have been together for two years, in almost every corner of the city, leaving me and his figure, then I think we can respect each other, old friends.
Soon after,He and I ate the forbidden fruit like Adam and Eve .
The next month, the aunt did not arrive as scheduled. At this time, I was a little worried. Finally, I went to the pharmacy to buy a box of pregnancy test sticks and looked at the two eye-catching sticks. At the same time, I couldn't help but worry.
My mother is a vain person. If he knows that his family is so poor, he might oppose us, but it is very important to get pregnant without marriage.
I found out that he was discussing with him. He was also very happy when I heard that I was pregnant. The happiness afterwards was a deep sense of powerlessness. To his family, it was old and young. What kind of wife to marry? The expensive dowry made him breathless.
I don't want to trouble him. He has made an appointment. When the child is older, he will ask him to come to my house to propose. Then the mother should not object. After his family sees it, he will understand. In this way, the fetus grows slowly under our cover, and the careless dad does not know that I am pregnant, thinking that I have eaten more fat, and repeatedly let me eat less. How I hope my father is still alive at this time, so that she can see the light and take over me, only my father's words can be heard by my mother.
When the child was 6 months old, this paper couldn't hold up, so I had to face my mother. After listening to my words, my mother also made clear his attitude. Either put out 250,000, or locked all my conversations at home, prevented me from going out to see him, and even took my mobile phone.
At first, I asked my mother to give us a chance to have a young couple and a grandson, but my mother kept saying that he wanted me to be happy. If I married such a family, I would not be happy.
finally begged me to start a hunger strike,My mother thought I was just pretending. After all, I was very angry with him when I was a child. It was also a hunger strike protest, but every time I couldn't help but want to eat the temptation of failure. She never thought that I was so determined to go on a hunger strike this time.
Due to emotional fluctuations, coupled with a hunger strike, moved the fetal gas, and my child has a miscarriage.
Looking at me lying in the hospital bed, as if the heart is dead, he kept apologizing to me, but is it useful? My child is gone. I was so excited, I let him go, I didn't want to see him. In the end, he had to call his boyfriend to take care of me.
After I was discharged from the hospital, I did not seek his opinion. I married my boyfriend and I did not even invite him to my wedding.
Up to now, I have been married for five years. It may be due to the impact of miscarriage. Five years later, I have miscarried three times, and I can't save it every time. So I can't get pregnant. My whole life was ruined by my mother. It has been for many years, but I still have resentment in my heart.
My friends, do you think I should forgive the man who ruined my life? Do my friends think I should hate him?
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