I am 43 years old and a woman who has been married 2 times. However, the marriage partner of my two marriages is not someone else. He is my first love, my ex-husband.
I am a sweet and cheerful woman. Tall figure, fair skin, flowing hair, and a bright smile, these are the most realistic portrayals of me. However, after an unknown period of time, the smile on my face became less and less, followed by more emotional entanglements and pain.
I met him on a trip. When we met for the first time, I saw him wearing blue casual clothes, a tall stature, and wearing a pair of glasses of unknown degrees, which gave people a sunny and gentle feeling, but it was only on his face. A little more mature.
On that trip, he took the initiative to strike up a conversation with me. We talked very much with each other. When we left, we left each other contact information, which also planted the seeds for future love. In the days that followed, our contact gradually increased. He often invited me to eat and play. The relationship between us also underwent subtle changes, and I had a kind of warmth and sweetness that I had never experienced before. , I know very well that it is a feeling of first love. Later, we decided on a relationship and became an couple . After getting along for more than a year, he proposed to me, and I was overwhelmed by the love, so I quickly agreed to his proposal .
After I got married, I still wandered in and in the happy ocean . We lived happily at the beginning. We were still considerate of each other. He became frequently away from home, always talking about clients and doing business as an excuse, saying that he was very busy, sometimes he left for several days, and never gave me a call.Whenever I asked him about the details of his work, he always became impatient and mad at me.
Because I have always trusted him very much, although we have some gaps and some things that I can't guess, I still try my best to tolerate him and trust him. However, this life didn't come to an abrupt end until he filed for divorce, which made me overwhelmed . He told me that he had never truly loved me. He had been very depressed for so many years of marriage, and he wanted to give up such a life.
Regarding his reason for divorce , I felt both amusing and very angry, "You don't love me, why are you messing with me?" I didn't know until after the divorce that he already had someone else outside, but I was stupid Stupid don't know. Later, I lived alone with my children, one side was the pain of divorce, and the other side was the child who was still in swaddling . The hardships of that kind of life can be imagined.
My brought up my child through hardships and hardships until one day two years later, he found me and begged me to remarry with him on his knees. He knew it was wrong and hoped to give him a chance. It turned out that the woman who was with him abandoned him at first, and at first I strongly refused to remarry, but under his begging , I once again became soft-hearted with , and thought that a child cannot live without a father, I shook myself even more. In the end I agreed to his request and we remarried. After
remarried, he was really honest and became very diligent. Until the last year, he began to lose shape again, and this time I discovered it on my own initiative. I didn't understand until now that he doesn't love me at all, what's fake is fake, it'll never be true...
@萱yingxiu You exchanged two consecutive marriage fiascoes for a profound field, which is indeed a heavy burden price. When you love someone, you really need to see clearly, not his goodness, but his heart.How do you feel about this emotion? Comments are welcome.
