Original illustration: Miao Miao Xia, telling: Jiang Xiuping, male, 42 years old
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high language teacher a few days ago Read the novel "To Live".
He spent one night watching it, and then he asked me, "Dad, is anyone really so unlucky?"
The old willow figure quickly appeared in my mind .
Fate has always kissed him bitterly, but he has never been bitter and happy.
Even so, he lived so cordially and sincerely, as if he didn't know the pain.
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Perhaps everyone has their own misfortune, and the misfortune that God sent to Lao Liu is seriously overrated.
He was abandoned since he was born, and he never knew who his biological parents were.
The adoptive parents found him beside the trash can in the park.
At that time, he was only a few days old.
In the tattered package, he held his adoptive mother's finger tightly with his weak little hand.
That grip made the foster parents feel relieved.
At that time, they had two daughters and they were looking forward to their sons, and they thought that this might be the will of God.
So, he took him home and went through the adoption procedures.
Although the conditions at home are average, they put a lot of effort into this unexpected son.
But the world is unpredictable. Just when Lao Liu was cared for, the foster mother became pregnant. This time, they had their own son.
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At the beginning, the adoptive parents were grateful for the picked up child, at least, the arrival of his son was inviting.
But life is long and difficult, and adoptive parents are busy with their livelihoods.To take care of four children again, life is unavoidable.
For the four children, it is becoming more and more difficult for them to achieve the same level of water.
When the four siblings quarreled, whether right or wrong, Lao Liu was always the one criticized.
When eating, the younger brother either robbed his food or hid his bowl. He also coaxed with the children on the street, saying that he was a "picked wild boy."
For this reason, he fought with the children outside, and he returned home and was beaten again by his adoptive father.
There are many times, as long as the family makes delicious food, the adoptive mother will let him go downstairs to buy things, but when he comes back, the plate is empty and only the smell of the house is left.
At this time, the adoptive mother will pretend to scold her sister: "Don’t you save some for your brother?" We have one treatment."
For many nights, Lao Liu cried and fell asleep.
He looks forward to growing up earlier than his adoptive parents, and hopes to have a home that truly belongs to him.
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finally graduated from junior high school,Lao Liu began to work everywhere to make a living.
Although he gave all the money he earned to his adoptive parents, they still had no good faces.
At the age of growing body, I do the dirtiest and most tiring work every day, but I can't eat a real full meal.
Because every time she eats, her adoptive mother will say: "Half-sized son, eat poor old son."
Lao Liu knows that this family can no longer accommodate him.
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At the age of 20, Lao Liu met Fang Mei.
Fang Mei is the proprietress of a mahjong hall and a widow dragging her two children. Da Lao Liu is 8 years old.
Anyone familiar with her knows that Mahjong Hall is just a cover. She has an affair with several men at the same time, and lives on that little favor.
Lao Liu often sends water to the mahjong hall, and he gets acquainted with Fang Mei as soon as he comes and goes.
several times,She wanted to go on a date with each other, and there was nowhere to put the two children, so she asked Lao Liu to help her take it for a while.
And Lao Liu, who loves children by nature, not only takes them to play, but also tries to buy delicious and fun things for her.
Fang Mei has seen countless people, and of course I can see that Lao Liu is sincere and dedicated to the two babies.
So, she called Lao Liu home when she was fine, and cooked him some delicious meals, so that he could learn to drink a few sips of wine to relieve his fatigue.
She told Lao Liu about her dead man and how difficult it was for a woman to bring two babies. When she talked about the sadness, she leaned on Lao Liu's chest and wept bitterly.
Fang Mei’s three-two side dishes, a pot of hot wine, a few heart-warming words, and the laughter of his children, satisfied all Lao Liu’s desire for home.
He said to Mei Mei: "If you don't dislike me, from now on, you mothers, I will take care of it."
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The adoptive parents wished him to leave early, and now he found a widow with such a bad reputation,They even put aside the ruthless words: "It's because you don't live up to your temper, and you will not mix well in the future. Don't come to us."
In this way, Lao Liu finally has his own home.
At that time, he was working three jobs by himself, and all his wages were handed in.
At home, the laundry, cooking, and children are almost all covered by him.
Fang Mei, who is only responsible for dressing up every day, playing mahjong and flirting with guests.
People in the whole street say that Old Willow is a fool, but Old Willow is sweet.
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One year later, Fang Mei gave birth to a daughter who smiled to Lao Liu.
With a daughter, Lao Liu has worked harder, carrying bags, moving houses, and clearing the sewer, wishing to be working 24 hours a day.
However, the mahjong hall does not make money, and the three children need money everywhere. No matter how hard Lao Liu works, life is still tight.
Fang Mei beats and beats from time to time,Complaining about Lao Liu's inability.
But the old willow, delicious, drink and well-dressed will always be on the wife and children.
In his heart, there is a family with a wife and children, and if you don’t care about eating chaff, it is all happiness.
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However, Fang Mei is not satisfied with such a hard life.
When Xiaoxiao was three years old, Fang Mei took her two children born to her and her ex-husband and ran away with a Wenzhou native.
Before running, I owed my neighbor tens of thousands of yuan in debt, and the rent of the mahjong hall was about to expire.
She left a note to Lao Liu: I can’t help you, but there is really no hope for these poor days. I left with my two children, leaving you with a smile, after all, she is Your own person can also be a companion for you.
When people go to the building, Lao Liu and Xiaoxiao are homeless. He once again becomes a fool and a joke in everyone's eyes.
In order to prevent Xiaoxiao from growing up amidst everyone's ridicule, Lao Liu took her away from her hometown and became a North drifter.
Lao Liu thought clearly: As long as the daughter is there,The home is there, even if he squeezes his bones dry, he will also raise his daughter.
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In Beijing, Lao Liu rents and lives in the basement, still reworking his old business and making the slowest money.
At that time, he carried his bags during the day and drove a tricycle to solicit customers in the alley at night.
But for his daughter, he never stinged with money, sent her to kindergarten, bought her beautiful clothes, including later letting her go to various cram schools.
Not being able to give her a complete home, and not being able to let her grow up in the company of maternal love, is the biggest debt to her daughter in Lao Liu's heart.
Therefore, even if the adolescent daughter did not buy her brand-name shoes, she did not talk to him for a month, and later ran away from home. When she got back, Lao Liu did not scold him.
He loves his daughter so humble and flatteringly, he knows that one day sooner or later, the daughter will understand the kindness of parents.
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Many years have passed,Although Lao Liu spent a lot of money on her daughter's study, her daughter failed to get admitted to university in the end.
The poor’s children were in charge early, and smiled and told Lao Liu: “Dad, I’m not learning that material. It’s better to work earlier to reduce your burden. I know that you have been working hard these years.”
With the words of a daughter, Lao Liu feels more pleased and proud than she was admitted to Tsinghua University.
He believes that as long as he is willing to endure hardships, there is no way in life.
In those years, Xiaoxiao worked as a waiter and sold a house. Later, under the persuasion of Lao Liu, he learned pet grooming and gained a stable income.
My daughter is able to support herself, and the burden on Lao Liu's shoulders is finally lightened.
He calculated that after saving his daughter a dowry of 100,000, he would return home.
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In the same way, Lao Liu saved 100,000 yuan in three years and his daughter also got married in Beijing.
Xiaohe comes from a rural area in Hebei, and he seems to be able to do his job.
The two young men met and worked in Beijing for a few more years, saved some money, and took Lao Liu back to his hometown in Hebei to open a pet shop.
For her daughter's goal, Lao Liu still gets up early and is greedy for the dark, and wants to earn more money to help them.
Because they work far away from each other, Lao Liu did not live with her daughter after they got married.
But every ten days and a half, Lao Liu will go to the pet shop to see her daughter.
Once, he found several large and small bruises on his daughter's arm, and he snorted in his heart.
But my daughter said that it was a pet. She also said that you can see which pet groomer has no injuries.
Old Liu will be suspicious.
One summer weekend, he stopped work early and wanted to buy a roast duck for his daughter.
But he did not expect that he heard the noise when he walked downstairs to his daughter’s rental house, and the neighbors’ comments: "Fighting again? Do you want to call the police?"
Lao Liu looked up at the source of the sound.The legs suddenly became soft.
He doesn't remember how he went upstairs or who opened the door for him. He just remembered that all the blood in his body poured on his forehead, then rushed into the kitchen and picked up a kitchen knife.
He can tolerate all the difficulties that life gives him, but the only thing he can't bear is that his daughter is bullied.
On that day, the son-in-law fled in embarrassment, but was dragged by the domestic violence daughter to the furious Lao Liu, kneeling and begging him: "Dad, if you kill him, I will have no dad and no home. ......"
Old Liu's kitchen knife fell on the ground with a bang.
That day, Lao Liu cried the hardest.
After crying, he personally took his daughter to go through the divorce procedures, and then took her daughter back to her original home.
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Although the basement is dark and humid and narrow, the days of the father and daughter have just begun.
After experiencing all kinds of things, Xiaoxiao finally understands that Lao Liu is the only person in this world who loves himself with his life.
After hitting that, the smile changed and became intimate and filial.
was washing and cooking for Lao Liu. When Lao Liu got off work later, she would go to the alley to pick him up and tell him to go home early. After all, Lao Liu is no longer young.
Previously, he worked as a porter in a moving company during the day, but now he has a hunchback, and he can't carry the slightly more important furniture at all.
Driving three rounds in the alley, picking up customers, and delivering deliveries is the only job he can do.
Fortunately, for 20 years in Beijing, he has also accumulated some old customers.
Knowing that he is not easy, everyone will think of him as soon as possible.
Some old customers occasionally talk to him about life’s troubles, putting him a box of mineral water in the car or stuffing him with a box of cigarettes.
These insignificant cares are the confidence and motivation for Lao Liu to make a living in Beijing.
And this time, he has a new plan for himself and his daughter's life: save up to 200,000 yuan, and go back to his hometown in Fujian to open a pet shop for his daughter.
Lao Liu said: "When the time comes,I help my daughter clean, tease cats and dogs, and bask in the sun. After living in the basement for a long time, I always feel that the sunshine is not enough. "_Span14span
Lao Liu is such a person, no matter how bad the situation is, he always believes that everything will be okay.
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Just when Lao Liu and her daughter's savings balance were getting closer to the goal, something went wrong.
In order to avoid a speeding car, he braked hard and turned over three wheels.
There were two people in the car, one had a moderate concussion and the other had a spleen rupture.
Lao Liu and her daughter used all their savings for medical treatment and compensation for passengers, and owed more than 30,000 debts.
Since then, the father and daughter repay their debts while working, and the goal of returning to their hometown to open a shop has changed again. It’s a long way off.
Later, some old passengers heard about this and they secretly gave Lao Liu Three Hundred Two Hundreds a little bit of their heart.
Willow did not accept it.
He said, if you accept it, you will be embarrassed to collect money next time when you get old customers. After all, no one’s money is brought by the wind.
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This kind of old willow, it should be a good person to get a good report.
However, on August 19, 2020, Lao Liu fell to the side of the road on the way home from work.
passers-by hit 120, but when the ambulance came, it would cost a lot of money to get to the hospital, Lao Liu refused to get in the car, saying that he would just lie down for a while.
Seeing that he is pitiful, the accompanying nurse still measured his blood pressure. As a result, Lao Liu had high pressure 210. The nurse asked him to be hospitalized and said he was at risk of cerebral hemorrhage at any time.
But the words of Lao Liu made the people around him sigh.
He said: "I can't afford to die, my daughter hasn't married yet."
That day, Lao Liu was just lying on the roadside for more than an hour. After the pain, everyone returned home as if nothing had happened.
continue to do odd jobs during the day,Soliciting passengers at the subway entrance on the outskirts of the city at night.
He has painkillers in his pocket. When he has a severe headache or feels boring, he will take one.
Afraid of being discovered by others, he also bought a box of chocolate beans and poured out the chocolate for medicine.
When taking medicine like this, it looks like it is supplementing energy with chocolate.
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On February 19, 2021, the old willow who had just returned home fell in the road.
The neighbor called a car and took him to the hospital.
Dr. said that Lao Liu has congenital heart disease, and now he has a large area of cerebral infarction. There are problems in all aspects of the body and the chance of survival is very small.
When Xiaoxiao arrived, Lao Liu was awake for less than a minute, but he didn't know anyone anymore.
As he died, his eyes closed tightly, but he kept trying to say something.
smiled and put his ear close to his mouth,Finally, I heard clearly: "Fang Mei, I want to go home..."
smiled and suppressed the cry, held his father's hand tightly, and said to him: "Well, go home, go home , She will be home soon."
smiled and told herself that at this moment, she must not cry.
Dad’s life is too bitter, and at this moment, let him return to his youth, and Fang Mei, who is very charming, once had a short but warm little day.
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Lao Liu’s funeral was super deserted, only a smile.
Later, someone called Lao Liu, all of whom were old passengers and employers.
The call was answered with a smile. When I learned that Lao Liu had passed away, everyone sighed and sighed, hoping to laugh and mourn.
Faced with such comfort, the smiled answer made everyone cry: "For my dad, only death can rest, and he can finally not work so hard."
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Old Liu just left,Few people even knew that he ever existed.
And I, as his regular customer, had a brief encounter with him.
The last Batong Line subway every night, when I walked out of the subway entrance after working overtime, he always appeared there on time, smiling to those of us who left early and returned late." Social animal" said: "Thank you, please get in the car."
every time he gets out of the car to check out, he will slightly nod and say, "Thank you, take a break early."
He is the one who has worked hardest, and the one who needs the most rest, but who can give him a word of "hard work" and "thank you"?
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In this way, the old willow disappeared in the long river of time.
It’s just that, as time goes by, every time after working overtime, I walk out of the subway entrance and think of the red tricycle and the familiar smiling face that year and month, I still feel sad.
Lao Liu will eventually be forgotten by the world, so, as a traveler who had a deep conversation with him during his lifetime, I want to tell his story.
is at least a testimony: the man named Liu Quan,I have tried my best to live in Beijing and in this world.
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Living in the present, each of us has 10,000 reasons to be lost.
However, thinking about Lao Liu's miserable life, thinking about the injustice of his destiny, and his never discouraged, will feel that there is no reason not to love life and not to cherish the present.
Lao Liu, hard work!
In this life, you have eaten all the suffering. I hope you in the next life will be happy and peaceful.
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